Busy As Hell

This month has been incredibly busy on the weekends. I'm not entirely sure why but it's like everyone wants to get together in October. In fact earlier in the month my brother-in-law and his wife had contacted us asking whether or not we wanted to get together. We fully planned on it but at the time I asked if I could get back to her on it to sort out the details. I just now messaged her asking if we could push it to November.

Then everything snowballed from there. My mom wanted to get together a couple of times this month although one of them was rather unexpected. Then my dad wanted to come up here to go to a Halloween store. Cool no problem. He also wanted us to come down the weekend after in order to help him put up Halloween decorations. Again no problem. My father-in-law wanted to get together as well so we went out to lunch with him, which again was a lot of fun.

Then my mother-in-law contacted Master and wanted to get together as well. Holy shit. It had even been pushed back once because I had gotten sick the night before. We did that yesterday and it actually turned into a generally nice evening. We all dug through old pictures of when Master was growing up because He was looking for a couple of specific pictures of Him and His brother when they were children.

Honestly up until yesterday I had only seen a select few photos of when Master was a child. The rest of the pictures were late teens. I saw a lot last night including when He was a baby. He was adorable by the way. It honestly made the night start on a lighter tone than it normally does and from there it just stayed nice. It is one of the few times where we both walked away going, "Wow... that turned into a decent night." (Yes, that's how rare it is. We are shocked.)

So, basically it has been an all the family all the time type of month. Some of it was unexpected other parts were planned out. 

As a result Master and I haven't had a full weekend to ourselves all month. We've had full days. But not a full weekend.

I think that's affected our sex life. Admittedly there have been a few instances of just one or both of us not feeling well or our bodies were messing with us due to the changes in the weather. But I will say that we just haven't been fucking a lot in general. I do think the fact that we've been so busy plays into it. We feel like we're running all the time so when we finally do get home we just want to melt into the couch and the recliner and chill the fuck out while watching movies and joking around.

Then the next day, if we in fact at least have a full day to ourselves on the weekend, again we mainly chill and goof off. *shrugs* It'll pick back up. It always does.

Or Not....

If there is one thing I can always count on my mother-in-law for it's last minute changes. All day today I was thinking about how busy this weekend was going to be and what the hell was going to happen at my mother-in-law's place. Part of the reason she had contacted us in the first place is because she said there was a lot of "drama" on her husband's side. Never mind that woman creates drama one way or another.

Anyway, I had been thinking about it all day. I was hoping it was going to go well. I had prepared myself as best I could. I figured that Master was doing the same. We both always have to kind of prepare ourselves for dealing with her. Mainly because we never know which way it's going to go or how many times it'll change while we're there.

But then I get home from work and I told Master about my day. He told me how His day went and then in a very nonchalant manner told me that I didn't have to worry about going to His mother's tomorrow.

Um... okay?

Apparently shortly before I got home she sent Him an e-mail to let Him know that she can't have us down tomorrow. Her husband was sent out of state for his job very suddenly and so she cancelled the plans with us. She wanted the whole experience basically. The four of us. But since he won't be there she cancelled everything. It's a good thing though. Her husband acts as kind of a buffer. He's a nice guy. And he does get sent off for work at the drop of a hat a lot. Master used to work at the same place and it happened constantly.

So now it's just Master and I tomorrow. Then on Sunday my dad will come up, as long as his back allows it.

Ended on a High Note

Yesterday started off a little shaky. When I woke up I no longer felt sick to my stomach. I felt a little weak and my lower back and hips were really bothering me. I was actually limping a little bit. It wasn't so much pain as it was a lot of stiffness. But I didn't want to cancel our plans. My stomach was a bit better so I figured why cancel anything? I can limp for a while.

Master and I were just about to head out to go to my mother's when, for some reason, Master decided to check His e-mail one last time. It's a damn good thing He did. His mother had sent Him an e-mail stating that she wanted to reschedule our coming over for dinner because I hadn't been feeling well. Never mind He had already told her that I was feeling better. Master thinks that it had more to do with her simply changing her mind more than anything else. After all, that's classic her. Never mind what everyone else is doing. Either you drop everything you are doing and do what she wants or she'll cancel at the last minute and then wonder why you get mad when she doesn't have a good reason.

That ticked Him off. I was ticked off too. What would have happened if Master hadn't checked His e-mail? We would have hauled our asses out to her place just for her to send us home and give us attitude about it. Anyway, the visit at my mom's went well. We were there for about 2 1/2 hours.

Master worked on my back and while it helped some the stiffness was still very noticeable. I wasn't really limping anymore but it was still really bothering me. I took my shower and Master had told me to dress up for Him. So after my shower I put on some lingerie and He seemed very pleased.

We had just gotten back a movie we had loaned out. We hadn't watched it in quite a while so we decided to pop it in. We are still kind of excited about having a 42inch flat screen TV. Never mind we've had it for close to a year now. But with certain movies, like the one we were watching, it makes a huge difference.

So Master said, "Movie night?" I got all excited. Yes please!" It was a bit later so it was completely dark out. Movie night basically means we get comfortable and watch a movie with all the lights out so it kind of feels like you're at a movie theater. And with a larger TV it just heightens the experience. I love it when we do movie night.

After the movie was done I asked Master if He wanted to go fool around. We hadn't had sex in about a week. I was very horny but I was also very docile. I wanted to be used. It would fulfill both of my immediate needs, if Master would allow it. He told me that He would meet me in the bedroom. So I laid on my stomach and waited for Him to come to bed. He asked me what my mood was and I told Him. He was more than happy to use me as His fuck doll.

He knew that I was still really stiff and couldn't be turned into a pretzel. He kept me on my stomach and entered me. Eventually He turned us both on our sides and held me close to Him. I was moaning a lot. Like I said it had been a little over a week since we last had sex so I was worked up rather easily. After a while He put me back on my stomach and pinned me down. He had one hand in the middle of my lower back and His other hand right on my tail bone. Now, you would think that with how stiff I was all day that this would be painful, especially when He was doing that to balance Himself so there was quite a bit of pressure applied. But it wasn't at all. In fact I hadn't noticed the stiffness in my lower back at all the entire time He was fucking me. It just all felt so damn good.

After He filled me and we decided to head back into the living room I realized that my lower back and hips weren't stiff at all anymore. Sometimes that amount of pressure is all that is needed. And I sure in the hell can't complain of the reason why the pressure was applied. I love it when He pins me down.

We stayed up a while longer before we both went to bed and curled up. He got up before I did this morning so around 11:30am Master slipped under the covers with me and pulled me close and nuzzled me awake. I think my body was still trying to balance itself out otherwise I don't think I would have slept that late. When I woke up I nuzzled His arm and smiled. I then gently pushed back so my ass was right up against His cock and then rotated my hips a little bit. He kissed my neck and quickly entered me. He used me again and I loved it.

So yesterday ended on a very high note and today started off wonderfully. And it has been a really great day. We've watched some Netflix. We took the dog for a walk and got an errand done along the way. It's just been very relaxing and I've greatly enjoyed it. I hope the rest of the night goes by extremely slowly and maybe, just maybe, if I'm lucky Master will allow me to stay up late.

Damn Stomach

Yesterday I woke up feeling fine. I was so happy that it was my half day Friday. When I got home Master and I relaxed for a little bit before I called my dad to see when we could come over. We had made plans to visit him but just hadn't totally locked down a specific time because my dad wasn't entirely sure what time he would be home. We left here around 1:30pm or so and made pretty good time getting down there.

We had a good time and I think we left there around 5:30pm or so. Master and I had already decided that I would drop Him off at home so He could take care of the dog and I would go get Taco Bell for dinner. Well, that was the original plan.

About 10 minutes away from home I started to not feel well. And it went from not feeling well to feeling like I was going to be sick. So I told Master I would come in with Him just to make sure I wouldn't get sick while I was driving.

Yeah.. I ended up getting sick several times. Obviously there was no Taco Bell in our future. I felt very light headed and still sick to my stomach and I didn't want to eat anything at all. But Master made me eat some bread to try and help soak up some of the stomach acid and because He didn't want my blood sugar dropping too much. I asked if I could go lay down. When I get sick like that my body wants to shut itself off until I basically am over it.

I got sick one more time before going to lay in bed. But I felt like I couldn't get warm let alone comfortable. My entire body ached from getting sick. I tossed and turned in bed for about an hour because I said fuck it, I can't fall asleep anyway. So I went into the bathroom and ran a really hot bath and climbed in.

When I got out I laid down on the couch and Master made me eat some more bread and then ran down to the gas station to get me some Sprite. I fell asleep on the couch waking up for short periods of time. I woke up all the way just in time for Master to tell me that He was going to bed. I stayed up for about a half hour and then joined Him.

I was really upset about not feeling well last night. I had hoped that we would come home from my dad's, watch movies, goof around, and then fuck. But no... my body decided to fuck all that up. And I still don't understand what the hell all of that was about anyway.

This morning my lower back and hips are still bothering me and so is my head. I think that's mainly from sleeping so much and getting stiff/a headache from it. My stomach feels better. I'm not going to push it though.

And today we are visiting my mom before going over to His mother's house for dinner. Master already sent her a message stating that I'll need something bland to eat. I'll just have to wait and see where my stomach is. Hopefully I'll feel 100% better by mid afternoon and that I'm absolutely fine tomorrow. Master and I have the day to oursevles tomorrow.

Annoyed

I feel like I haven't had a weekend. Which is kind of weird. I mean, yes I worked yesterday for 4 1/2 hours. But after I got home and a few hours went by I had to take a nap for an hour and a half. Once Master woke me up we stayed up until 3:30am. Then today we slept until noon. I had been hoping to get up sooner than that because right then and there half my day is gone.

We both quickly got ready as we had plans to go see my mother today. We were supposed to be there by 1pm or so. We made it on time because we had rushed. We had a good visit though. Once we got home we had errands to run and once those were all done we were finally to relax.

At one point Master suggested we go sit outside. That sounded like a nice idea. I asked "Just us or are we bringing the dog out too?"

He said just us. Okay cool. I love sitting out with the dog too but it's nice when it's just the two of us because then we don't have to tell the dog to behave when he gets excited because brats are running up and down the sidewalk.

We were out for a few moments and then one of our neighbors came over to sit with us. Okay. No biggie. Then his wife came over. Okay. That's cool too. We do it to that particular couple too. If we notice they are outside and feel social we'll walk over and ask if they mind company. Next thing I know we have six people in the yard with us.

Normally I wouldn't care, honestly. But there were two things about it that annoyed me. One, I haven't had much of a weekend and it was getting a little late. I had been hoping to just spend some down time with Master. Now it's a whole group. I didn't say anything but it was a little annoying. But it didn't seriously annoy me until a former neighbor who moved up north last fall sat down. We had all talked about keeping in touch. She has been in town several times and never said anything. Another former neighbor who we hung out with a lot has done the same. They'll visit one of our neighbors from the "group" last year but then no one says anything about it and we are none the wiser until after the fact.

That shit pisses me off. The only reason they sat down today is because we were outside and the neighbors they came to visit were sitting with us. AK (one of the former neighbors) bothers me more than the other one. AK bothers me because I don't normally befriend women. I prefer to hang out with guys. I have more the mentality of a dude than I do a chick, so it's just more comfortable for me.

But I had befriended her and had tried to keep in contact but got nothing in return. And when she asked me how work was I said, "It's there." and left it at that.

I am very quick to cut people out. I have no problem doing so. And so I'm cutting myself off from that person. That doesn't mean that if we go outside to visit a neighbor and she is over there that I won't go to hang out. But today was the first time I'd seen her since she moved and the way she acted just made me hit a mood that was not pleasant.

The entire time she was sitting there she came off as fake and only talking to the people she had come over to visit. You are in my yard, bitch. Don't fucking ignore me until you feel like acknowledging my presence for five seconds. No. It was getting close the 8pm. I was done. I stood up and said I was going in. She said, "It was nice seeing you." Cunt. So I responded with, "Bye everyone."

I immediately hopped in the shower. I knew I was annoyed and that I had unintentionally allowed it to negatively affect how I was reacting to Master. I was calmer afterward. Water is therapeutic for me for some reason. I told Master why I had been annoyed and apologized to Him for allowing to to impact how I was reacting to Him.

It's already 9pm and I feel like I'm being rushed off to work. Not by Master but by the fact that I know it's Sunday night already and I know Master will make me go to bed at a half way decent hour. *sigh* I understand why, I just want to stay up to feel more relaxed and like I actually had a weekend for a little while longer before I have to start a whole new work week.

Fast Forward

Well.... this weekend fucking flew by. It was a good weekend though. It was a shit ton of running around but it was still a good one. I enjoyed seeing everyone we visited.

Today I slept in later than I intended. Then again, I normally do on Sundays. I just might have to start setting up a late morning alarm so I don't sleep until fucking noon. I mean, it's great to be able to know that I can. But then my whole damn Sunday is gone. For instance, right now I can't believe it's already 7:45pm. And it's not like we did anything to make time fly by. Master has played His video games on and off. I've played Candy Crush on and off. We watched a movie. I had to run to the gas station to put gas in the car so I don't have to do it tomorrow before work.

We put together a grill. My mother had bought a small one as a belated birthday present for Master. It's like a camping sized one basically. But it's a really nice two-tiered design with legs that fold. It took a little longer to put together than we originally thought, but it's awesome. We wanted to use it tonight but it was too damn hot outside to sit right next to a grill. As a result we ended up just getting drive-thru and calling it a day.

Master was kind enough to work on my back after dinner. It feels a lot better now. I was a little crabby because it was just so damn tense. I feel better though. I don't feel grumpy.

It sucks that we all spend most of our lives wanting to hit a fast forward button. We want to fast forward through our work hours so we can go home. We want to fast forward to the weekend so we don't have to deal with work bullshit for two days. We want to fast forward to a vacation, if you are going to be taking one. That's kind of the way I feel now. It's not even Monday morning and I already want to skip this week. It's going to be a long one, I know that already. But after this work week I only have a three day work week thanks to Independence Day. We get the 4th off, which happens to land on a Thursday this year. And since the following day is my half day I just took that off.

*sigh* Where is that damn remote anyway?

Hot & Busy

Well, it looks like it's going to be a hot and busy weekend. By hot, I mean the temperature. It's supposed to be in the 80's all weekend long. And by busy I mean family stuff.

Tomorrow is my half day at work. After I get out of work I'll be coming home and basically pulling up to the apartment building, calling Master from my cell, and waiting for Him to hop in the car. I normally get home around 12:30pm. We are meeting His dad at 1:30pm. This time we are traveling up by him. It's overdue honestly. He always comes to our neck of the woods. But to get there on time we'll have to basically leave as soon as I get home. I'm sure it'll be a lot of fun. I always have a good time when we go out to lunch with His dad.

Lunch with His dad can take anywhere from an hour to two and a half hours. Why? Because we sit there and talk and talk and talk and don't even realize what time it is until someone glances at their watch and realizes that we should all probably be heading out.

After that we'll be driving home, taking the dog out, feeding the dog, and then running down to see my dad. I'm sure that'll be another few hours. None of this is a bad thing. Not at all. It's just going to make for a long day. That's all.

Then on Saturday we'll be going down to visit my mother. I know we'll have a good time there too.

Sunday we have to ourselves though. We wanted to keep it that way which is why we're seeing my dad on Friday.

Stress? What Stress?

Sometimes I just need a small gentle push for my mood to change. I'm not referring to my being bipolar. I'm talking about normal day to day bullshit that absolutely everyone, who isn't independently wealthy, deals with. The stresses of work, of traffic, of just general fucking bullshit. Today I was experiencing more of those as usual and as a result I got ticked off and stressed the fuck out.

I got a hold of Master on my lunch break and He calmed me down. He let me do a quick rant and then in a very calm way told me it was okay. That shit happens. That there is no use in stressing out about shit that is out of my control.

It's amazing how many times He has told me those exact words in the past decade. And yet, in the heat of the moment, I always forget them. It doesn't help that I'm one of those "worst case scenario" people. If it can go wrong, it will go wrong.

I'm not that way all the time. But when stress starts to weigh down on me, yeah.. my mind goes there. Fun for me!

I was able to calm down. It was a lot better when I got home and got a nice long hug from Master.

It looks like next week is going to be a lot like last week. My supervisor approved me for 7.5 hours of overtime. *wide eyed* So it looks like I'll be getting there early as fuck all week. I'm going to tell the passenger in my carpool on Friday. Whether or not he decides to ride to work with me.. well... that's his problem.

I'm really glad that the weekend isn't that far off anymore. We are going to go down to see my dad on Friday. Other than that I have no idea what we're doing this weekend. I do know that there are few odds and ends we have to pick up that and go grocery shopping but other than that.. no clue.

Master gave me a nice long back massage tonight while we watched Fright Night. And now I'm just doing my blog post and listening to a couple of songs on the computer with my ear buds. Music is a great escape. A mental mini vacation.

I really don't know how I would get along without Master. He always calms me down when I need it. He doesn't just pick me up when I fall... He catches me when I'm about to.

My Weekend

This weekend was absolutely wonderful. I have been relaxed all weekend long. *happy sigh* Like I had said, I was going to go into work yesterday but had decided against it. And apparently it was a good thing I did. From what I heard, cars were sitting in traffic so long that they overheated to the point that they had to be towed out. Holy hell. Four hours worth of bumper to bumper traffic both ways. Yeah, I'm glad I didn't go.

So I got to sleep in. In fact, the dog didn't wake me up until 9am, which is really late for him. I stayed up after I took him out. Master got up around 11am. We relaxed in the living room for a little while before He was about to got take His shower. He stood in front of me, naked, to give me a half hug like He normally does before He goes to take a shower on the weekend.

I was sitting on the couch and like usually He got up, stood in front of me with His thigh to me. I rested my head on His thigh and He wrapped His arm around me. I held on a little longer than usual as I had wrapped my arms around His leg. He chuckled and told me to let go. Instead I let go of His leg and started stroking His cock. He chuckled again and told me to either let go so He could go take His shower or to get my tail to the bedroom so we could fuck. Guess which one I chose?

Yeah. No brainer there.

It was a quickie, but I love those. Sometimes that wham, bam, thank you ma'am is hotter than fucking for an hour and a half, ya know? After that He took His shower and I ran down to the gas station.

We had about another hour to kill before we headed down to His brother's. It was our first time going to a family member's house on His dad's side of the family. It's been a slow build up over the past 2 ½ years.

We got there about a half hour early, but they didn't seem to mind. A lot happened so I won't go into every detail but it was a lot of fun and it was so relaxed. There was no tension. We felt at home immediately. And they seemed to be totally comfortable with us there. Master had a beer with His brother while I spent time with His brother's wife. We all played outside with His niece and nephew and His two younger sisters. We sat around and talked with His dad, His eldest sister and all of the other adults. It was great!

We stayed a lot later than I thought we would. We got there around 2:30pm and didn't leave until almost 7:30pm. And I think we would have stayed later had it been up to Master and His brother, but the kids needed to be put to bed and my brother-in-law's wife is 36 weeks pregnant so she was more than wore out. So I gently suggested that we head home.

I had a lot of fun. And I know that Master did too.

Today has been spent doing nothing. I left the apartment once. Other than that we've just lazed about the living room. I've been kind of frisky today though. We fucked earlier today and I have been coping feels here and there and He's done the same.

It's a little sad that it's almost 8pm already. I don't want this weekend to end.

Bittersweet

Sundays are always so bittersweet. I've had a great weekend. It's actually gone by slower than I thought it would, which is a very good thing. We went to hang out with my dad on Friday. Yesterday we pretty much lazed about and fucked. And today, so far, we've just lazed about the apartment.

I'm posting earlier than usual because Master wants me to get my nightly routine out of the way so the rest of the night doesn't seem so rushed.

Normally I don't start my nightly routine until about 8:30pm. And since 9pm is when we take care of the animals as soon as that time comes and goes it feels like it's time to go to bed already. My bedtime is normally between 11pm and 11:30pm. So the night past night goes in a blink of an eye for me.

It's not so much that I don't want to go to work. It's more I just know what the hell I'm walking into and it overwhelms me some days. Especially with all the bullshit that's going on at the company. It's making me anxious to find a new job. But I can't compromise too much on what I'm looking for because that would fuck us over in the long run.

And it seems like most of the jobs I'm finding are either further out than my current job, don't pay well enough or are only part time or just a temp position. Nope. Can't do that. Plus all the places that are reaching out to me are insurance companies. Ugh. No! I cannot afford to go to commission rather than straight hourly or salary. I cannot depend on how well sales are going. Plus, I suck at sales anyway. I'm better at regular office work or call center work.

Something has to come along eventually. I just hope it's sooner rather than later. I know I've been talking about it a lot lately but it's constantly in my mind, swimming around in there. I'm almost stuck on it because I'm trying to figure out the best way of doing things, what direction to go, etc.

On Hold

Last night was a lot of fun at the bonfire and Master and I had great sex when we got home. But I have been mildly annoyed because we had plans for the weekend. One fell through right away on Friday, which was annoying enough. The second plan was pushed off and pushed off due to the other people involved and it took until today around noon for it to fully fall through. So one of them went south right away and that was irritating because well, fuck. That sucks. The second one pissed me off more because it did take three days to fall through completely because the other people involved didn't call me back and I would have to keep calling them to see what the hell was going on.

So today I've been irritable. I don't mean to take it out on Master and He told me that I've had a bitchy tone and I honestly haven't meant to.

But there were certain things I did during the work week to make it so we could go through with our plans and I was looking forward to it all week.

When the first one fell through eh, it sucked ass. But when the second one took three fucking days to fall through I was more than annoyed. It makes me feel like the entire weekend was put on hold for nothing. Yes, we went down to the bonfire last night but that was after I called the other people and left a voice mail to call me on my cell. Nothing. I figured they would call me back today. Nope. So I call down there twice, no answer and no return phone call. Finally on the third try I get a hold of them and nope.. sorry... not happening.

I know it's not Master's fault and I am honestly not trying to take it out on Him, although my irritability is apparently showing through more than I thought it was.

The other annoying part of it is that now that the second plan fell through completely I have no idea what the hell I want to do. When I make plans I tend to not worry about what to do in case they backslide. Why? Because normally I don't have to worry about it.

So now I basically don't know what to do with myself and when Master asks me I have no fucking clue. Basically the only things I could think of was watch a movie or sit outside some more.

We were outside earlier and it was just too damn hot so we came in to enjoy the air conditioning. It's only been about an hour and a half to two hours and I'm back to not knowing what to do. My options are limited.

I'm doing my post early to just kind of vent it out. It's nothing Master did and it's nothing I did. It's just.... fucking annoying. Master told me to not let it ruin the rest of my day and I'm trying not to but like I said I had everything lined up perfectly and for it to feel like I had been waiting three days to just find out.. nope. Yeah. It sucks ass.

Visiting

I went down to visit my mother today. Master's back was bothering Him so He stayed home. My stomach really hadn't totally made up it's mind yet but my mother and I had planned this since last week. That and the fact that I actually enjoy spending time with my mom.

Apparently that's a rare thing.

So I drove down, which seemed to take forever since I got behind at least three cars that wanted to do five under the speed limit. Fuckers. It's already a 45 minute drive for fuck's sake. But eventually I got there and we sat and talked for a while. We went out for a quick lunch and then I went grocery shopping with her. My mother is the coupon queen so it's always interesting to see how much money she can knock off the total. It sounds odd to go visit someone and go grocery shopping with them, I know, but we talk and have a good time while we're going around the store. We've done that since I was a teenager.

We then went back to her home and relaxed for a little while longer. But then I started to not feel all that great. I wasn't sick or anything I just wasn't feeling the best. Unfortunately it was a short visit. The next one will be longer and hopefully my body will leave me the hell alone during it.

Since then I've been home and relaxing with Master. Mostly Netflix, talking and just enjoying the day off. Not a lot of excitement or anything, but that's okay with me. After how I felt last night and how this past week has gone, I didn't want a lot of excitement.

Today Is My Thursday

Well, it's Wednesday. Normally by this point I'd be happy simply because it was hump day. This week is different though. I have a four day weekend. Monday our office is closed and I took Friday off of work. So, that makes today my Thursday. Although that does get confusing. My brain tricks me sometimes. For a while I thought it really was Thursday. Due to that line of thinking my brain actually tricked me into thinking that my paycheck would hit tomorrow.

But of course my brain was lying to me. My paycheck doesn't hit until two days from now. *sigh*

I can't complain too much. At least it's a short work week. And next week will be too, since the office is closed on Monday. This weekend Master and I don't have a lot planned. We have some errands to run and on Saturday I am going down to visit my mom. Her and I will hang out for a while and do some bumming around before I leave.

I'm now trying to get used to this new dashboard that Blogger has. I like it a lot better than the last format. It's more... crisp I guess is the way to put it. That of course doesn't effect anything that you, the readers, see on my blog. It's just the background stuff. I'm sure I'll still have to play with it a bit to see where everything is and what all has changed.

By the way, why does time go so fucking slowly when you want it to go by quickly? I want it to be Friday damn it! (The real Friday.)

Finally Friday

This week has been long as hell. Although today went by surprisingly fast. And today was my longest work day of the week. Just over 9 hours not including my 45 minute lunch break.

As a result of such I am all sorts of out of it. So while I have to do my normal post (Master allowed me to skip yesterday) I don't think it'll be a very long one at all.

I already warned Master about that. I just asked Him for permission to take a nap immediately after this post so that I won't pass out at 11pm. I know, it doesn't make a lot of sense to take a nap just so you can be up later in the night. But it's Friday and I like stay up late on Friday nights. I haven't been getting a lot of sleep lately and as I've said it's been a rather long week and a long work day.

Speaking of naps.. I miss taking ones in the middle of the day on the weekends with Master. I know that probably sounds dumb as well. But it's really nice. I know I sleep next to Him every night but still. Naps are different. Well, at least to me they are.

Still Here

Yes, I'm still here. I'm breathing and everything! *ta da!*

I didn't post this past weekend because on Saturday Master and I were just having a great time, and I didn't feel much like blogging. So I asked Him if I could skip the post. He said yes. Last night Master and I had a rather rough afternoon and so when everything was going smoothly again I didn't want to spend it on my blog. Yeah, I know. I love blogging, but for whatever reason I just kind of wanted the weekend off and since I almost never ask to get out of a blog post unless I'm sick, Master allowed it.

Last night though one thing that I love happened. Master and I were not up for fucking. Also, very rare. I had a headache that was bordering a migraine and my neck hurt. Master was just stiff all over and His sinuses were killing Him.

So normally when it's time for me to go to bed, and we already know we're not going to fuck, I either sleep on the couch or I say goodnight to Master and head off to the bedroom.

Well, when bed time rolled around I told Master I needed to sleep in the bedroom simply because it was darker in there. So He said He would come tuck me in.

No I'm not three. I just love it when Master tucks me in. (Okay, yeah. That does make it seem like I'm a three your old. You have a point.) I got under the covers after Master fixed them. The damn things never stay where they are supposed to. Master then pulled the sheet and blanket up over me and laid down beside me. He let me cuddle up to His chest and He just laid there for a while. It was really nice, and I am grateful that He did that.

Eventually He decided it was time for me to actually go to sleep. So He kissed my forehead and said goodnight.

I felt more relaxed just because of that, which seems a bit odd. I mean I always sleep better when He's in the same room but it was just nice having Him come and lay down with me for a little while rather than us just saying goodnight in the living room and me going off to bed.

It's not often that He tucks me in like that. And honestly I had kind of forgotten how nice it was simply because it had been so long ago.

Thank You Master.

Ahh.. Saturday

July 16th, 2011

Master and I got up somewhat late. I woke up with a headache because apparently I slept on my back for most of the night, which I don't normally do. After we had woken up a bit Master took His shower and I talked to my mother for a while. From there we have just kind of winged it. We watched a movie, Master played a video game or two, and we talked. Then.. I became a nerd and started messing with my blog. I was trying to get the date to show up. With this particular theme it doesn't work so well. I was tweaking away and I just kept messing the look of my theme up. Finally I did a face palm and decided that the hell with it. I'll just put the date inside the damn post. That is just so much easier. I mean it's not even a big deal to have the date on the post show up. I would just prefer it. And I'm not willing to keep tweaking the code because since this template is extremely customized any one thing that I do can really screw it up. I got the time to stop showing up at the bottom of the post, which is all well and good, but I couldn't get the date to show without it totally throwing off other parts of the theme itself.

So the quick and easy fix is just to include the date inside the post. Ta-da! Easy. Such a thing is not worth the headache. Although, I did find a "reactions" function for the posts. On my old blog I had included "stars" to rate the blog. This is basically the same thing. It's at the bottom of each post. Currently I have "Hate it, Like it, Love it" as the choices. I don't know if I should add more of not. That seems to pretty much cover everything.

Tonight Master wants me to play a game with Him, which hopefully I will not suck at. Then after my bath I'll get dressed up for Master. I don't know what exactly. Sometimes He has a preference while other times He's tells me to pick. So this could get interesting.

I know not a lot of my blog posts have to do with kink right now. I've heard of "submissive journal prompts" for when I have no idea what to write about and I think I'll start using those. I think that will help pull other things out of my head and onto my blog as well for when the day to day stuff just kind of takes over, which honestly isn't what I want. Since it's still rather early in the evening (8:00pm) I might do one later. That should prove to be interesting.

Hmm..

I've been sitting here, staring at my blog, trying to figure out what the hell to write about for roughly 15 minutes or so. I must have really bad writer's block tonight.

It's been a good weekend but I feel kind of spacey right now. I slept in later than I wanted to and I'm sure I'll have a problem going to bed tonight. But waiting until I'm actually tired before passing out makes more sense to me rather than trying to force myself to sleep. Then I just get irritated and then can't fall asleep because I'm irritated.

It's a vicious cycle. Plus that means I'll be tired tomorrow when I get home and get back on my normal sleep schedule. That's really the only thing that works for me is to force my body to become so tired that I want to go to bed on time if not a bit early. Otherwise it's one night after another of nothing but my being restless.

Damn. Writing block again. I hate starting at the damn cursor when I can't think of what to write about. It mocks me.

Better Day

Today was better than yesterday. Like I said in my last post, yesterday didn't suck but it was frustrating for a while.

But anyway, enough about yesterday. Today was more go with the flow type stuff. There were things we had to get done, but it was at our leisure. We were both more relaxed and just had a good time. At first we just relaxed at home and then finally got motivated enough to leave the apartment.

We went to the pet store. We looked for a new toy for Radar, but they didn't have any that we didn't think he would destroy within five minutes. But we got the pup's dog food and some timothy hay for the bunnies. We then went to another store, got some things we needed there. On a whim we decided to stop off at the grocery store and pick up a bottle of Bailey's. Last time we got the caramel flavored one, this time we got the coffee flavored one. It sounds really good.

Once we got home we took care of the animals and have been relaxing the rest of the day. We played a few video games together and did some smack talk, which is always a good time.We watched a couple of movies and some episodes of Saturday Night Live. Tonight Master wants me to dress up for Him. I asked for permission to stay up later than usual on a Sunday night. He said we would see.

I'm not looking forward to the weekend ending. It went by rather quickly. Although I do have to say that recently not a lot has been coming to mind as far as blog post material goes. It's not that I don't have anything to write about, but just that I'm not really sure what to write about, or how to write about it, or I just don't feel like rambling. Which is what I'm doing right now. Hopefully tomorrow I can break through this stint of writer's block.

I'm Still Alive

Yes, I didn't post yesterday. I'm not in trouble or anything. But Master and I watched a movie last night and before we knew it, it was time for bed and we were both exhausted. So He gave me permission to not blog last night.

Sometimes I think that if I skip a post, ya'll will think I died or something because I do normally blog daily.

But sometimes, we're just tired or get home really late so Master says I can play hookey from the blog.

So anywho..

Today Master actually got out of work at 3pm. Holy shit, it's a miracle! So He was able to pick me up from work. From there we went home and I took out the trash after taking out the dog while Master checked His e-mail and what not.

From there we headed down to my father's. We hung out and talked for a while, which was nice. We left there around 9pm and then hit a restaurant for dinner like we do every Friday.

Now Master is watching Deadliest Warrior, and I'm just trying to relax.

The past few days my fibromyalgia has been kicking my ass. So I've been sore and cranky and I've been having shoulder and back spasams. Joy of joys. I don't have much to say tonight. Apparently I'm more tired than I actually thought when I started this post. I'll do a longer post tomorrow. Promise.