November 29, 2014

Shut Up

Master and I were trying to figure out what the hell to do today. It's not even fully winter and we're already a bit stir crazy. I couldn't really figure anything out and neither could He. Well, until we found out that His direct deposit came early and we didn't really have it ear marked for anything this month. As a result we decided to go to dinner. The only thing was that I had to meet up with a lady who had ordered four of my paracord bracelets and wanted to meet this afternoon. No biggie. It doesn't really matter how late we eat. The woman sent me a message around 4:30pm or so saying she could meet right then but asked if I could meet her somewhere aside from the original spot we had discussed. Thankfully it was only a little ways down the road. No problem. Master came with me so that when I was done with that we could just head to dinner rather than me doing that, turning around, and then coming home to pick up Master to go out to dinner.

The woman was super nice and seemed really happy with the bracelets. Awesome.

After that Master mentioned that maybe we should go to Walmart and see if they had any movies on sale. We'll be going there Tuesday to buy the new Apes movie but hey.. why the hell not. It's not as if the store is all that far away.

It's a good thing we did. They were having a huge clearance sale on their DVDs. We ended up getting three movies. One of them were only $1.96! Awesome sauce.

After that we headed to dinner. Master said that He was taking me to Applebees. I grinned. He then told me that He was taking me there to shut me up about that damn strawberry lemonade. *laughs* Yes, I got another one and yes it was still yummy as hell.

We had a really good time and even though the place was packed the food was amazing and the service was actually highly surprising given the fact that it was so busy. Very polite and fast.

Now we are just settling in for the night and we'll be watching one or two of the movies we picked up before dinner.

November 27, 2014

Handmade Collar

As some of you may know, I haven't been able to wear a collar since January 3rd, 2012. Not because of any punishment but because of my metal allergy. I've had several collars over the years until I "graduated" to the eternity collar that I had for a very long time. Somewhere along the lines, while I was still wearing the eternity collar, Master also bought me an eternity cuff. As of the date previously mentioned though something happened to where I was getting that all too familiar rash from my nickel allergy. I was highly upset. To this day, however, I am still wearing the cuff. Weird. But after I took off the eternity collar Master and I both agreed that buying another one didn't make much sense. Some jobs wouldn't want me to wear it, I'm sure, and with it being an allen screw I wouldn't be able to really take it off by myself. Well, that and it would be a real pain in the ass process every morning before I went to work and every night when I got home.

Anyway... that was the reasoning. Not to mention the price.

Since I started making paracord bracelets and key chains I've getting pretty damn good about it. I made myself a bracelet and Master two of them, one of them with a charm of the infinity symbol.

Shortly there after, a couple of nights ago if my memory is correct, Master had mentioned how since I could make bracelets and key chains out of paracord I might be able to make myself a collar out of one. After all there is absolutely no metal, so there is nothing to irritate my skin.

Last night while I was taking my bath I was sitting there trying to figure out how to pull it off. I already knew that the length I would need would be longer than the jig I have for making the bracelets. But I knew I could pull it off. I also wanted to put the same infinity symbol that I put on His bracelet on the collar. Well, it's more of a choker but at this point there really isn't a difference.

After I got out of the bath I asked Master to help me measure the size I would need on my neck. He was smiling when I told Him that I wanted to make myself one. He suggested that I put the infinity symbol on it which made me laugh because that thought had already crossed my mind and I hadn't mentioned it to Him yet.

Once I had the measurements I got all of the supplies together and started making it. I used the same colored cord that I did for my bracelet. It is a red and black weave, which are my two favorite colors. (Yes, I know that black is not technically a color.)

The bracelet that I made for Master with the infinity symbol is black and purple but He said it was okay if I made the choker/collar out of the red and black weave so it would match my bracelet.

I am not kidding you when I say that I had to make this thing three times. At first I made it too small, so I had to take it all apart and start over again. Thankfully I hadn't cut it yet and had plenty of cord so I didn't have to cut off new pieces. The second time I made it that it fit but it was more like a regular necklace rather than a choker. So once again I took it apart and finally I got it right! *sigh* That took forever. But it is done and I absolutely love it. Master does too.

It has been far too long since I've had something around my neck. Thankfully the charm, which is metal, doesn't touch my skin at all because it is weaved into the front of the paracord. The buckle is plastic.

So while I finally have something around my neck again it isn't something that Master can pull me around by. The plastic buckle would just open or even worse, break. But I am still happy as is He.

November 25, 2014

Happy... Kinda

Well, it looks like my brother will be getting married. Not any time soon mind you. He has been with this chick for about two years. They aren't living together yet. But a couple of days ago he went to a jewelry store and picked out a ring that was on a huge discount. Yesterday he asked me to cut his hair for him. I don't really cut hair. But I know how to use clippers that have a guard on them. And that's what he wanted so that's what I did. I found it kind of odd that he wanted it cut though because he had told me that he wants to try and grow it out long. *shrugs* I guess because it was in that scraggly stage he wanted it cut so he could look nice for the "big question". He popped the question today and she said yes. He is very happy. I am happy for him... in a way.

I am happy for him because I want him to be happy. I say in a way because I don't like this girl. It's not really anything she has done to my brother. It's just that her and I clash on certain levels. She comes off as a snob to me. Like she is better than I am. I'm petite, I have tattoos, I swear a lot... you get the idea. Then there she is. Large girl, no tattoos, doesn't swear.

And I absolutely cannot stand her daughter. That child is a fucking demon spawn... She is four years old, isn't even remotely potty trained, doesn't listen to anyone including her own mother, screams as if you are literally beating the living hell out of her if you tell her she can't do something or have something, doesn't pick up after herself... and the thing that gets me the most is the fact that this little bitch is put on a pedestal while my two nephews, my brother's sons, are to clean up after her and give up any toys they are playing with so that she can play with them. I've brought it up to my brother before and he says he is correcting it. I'm really not sure if he is or not though since the nephews and that demon kid are hardly ever together these days. On the weekends my brother has his sons his now fiance is nowhere to be found which means that demon kid isn't here.

Oh well. His problem. But as my brother knows, and I have shown, I will not allow that kid to walk all over my nephews and if she wants to scream bloody murder I'll let her. I'm not going to give  into what she wants to get her to shut the fuck up. Nope. I've actually let her scream to the point where she can't scream anymore. And you know what happens? She fucking listens. I don't let my two nephews get away with that shit so there is no way in hell I'm going to let her get away with any of it.

So I'm happy for my brother because he is happy. However, I am not happy that this chick and her demon spawn will be joining the family.

Will I play nice? Yep. Will I show up to the wedding? Yep. Will I be part of the bridal party? I already told my brother that I won't be. I have declined in advance as far as that goes. Will I act all girlfriendish with her? Nope. Will I show more love and care to her kid? Nope.

That pretty much covers it.

November 23, 2014


I had made Master a paracord bracelet a while ago and He loves it. But yesterday I bought some charms to weave into the bracelets. He saw one He really wanted on a bracelet for Him. I was joking around and told Him I was going to charge Him. He laughed and acted all butt hurt about it. Then He smirked at me and said, "I'll pay you by eating your pussy." How can I turn that down?! Never mind I knew it was a joke from the very beginning of the conversation. He then asked me if He had to pay up front or after the bracelet was done. I giggled and said up front. Again He joked around acting all butt hurt about it. *smiles* It was pretty damn funny.

Later on that night though, after my bath, I dressed up for Him. I put on a see through mini dress that leaves my tits exposed. He seemed very pleased by it.

As the night went on He got undressed and climbed into bed with me. He had me lay on my back before pulling me towards Him so He could lay on top of me and molest my tits with His teeth and tongue until I was whimpering. He stopped and told me to slide up. I love it when He eats me out. After I got off He continued to gently flick His tongue against my clit until I finally lifted my hips and moved up even more trying to get away since I was so damn sensitive.

He then knelt up and before He had to say anything at all I turned around and laid in between His legs so I could orally worship His cock. After a while I stopped and looked up at Him. I asked if He wanted me to continue. I wasn't sure if He wanted me to continue with a blow job or if He wanted to fuck me. He told me to lay on my back. He entered me and fucked me hard. He alternated positions quite a bit before eventually asking me where He should finish. This threw me off a little bit as normally He doesn't ask. He either just gets off or He stops and tells me to finish Him off with my mouth.

I asked if He would finish in my mouth. I haven't had a load of cum shot down my throat in a while. He smirked and pulled out. He sat down on the bed with His back against the headboard. I got comfortable in between His legs and waited for Him to gather up my hair. Since it is so long it always seems to get in the way. He gathered it all up in one hand and as soon as He did so I started sucking His cock.

When He got off I swallowed every single drop, just like I always do, and kept His dick in my mouth for a little while, feeling the last few throbs and twitches.

Originally we had planned on staying up a little bit afterward but by the time we were done we were both tired. But a good tired. The kind where you know the sex is damn good and now you just want to curl up and go to sleep. So that is exactly what we did.

It was kind of funny today though. Shortly after we woke up and He had His morning coffee He reminded me that He had already paid for the bracelet. I couldn't help but laugh and I promised to make it for Him today, which I did. He loves it. *smiles*

November 20, 2014

On A Date

I asked Master if I could do tomorrow's post early. It's only 11pm here right now. I could just wait to do it tomorrow but I wanted to do it now. I'm glad that He is allowing me to do so.

Today Master and I had some fun. It has honestly been quite some time since we went on anything that could really be considered a date. But we got some Christmas money early from one of my family members. When it comes to things like that we spend it as if we don't need it for anything else. It's what I call "fun money". It's just something to use to splurge. And this time we splurged by going on a date and buying a few things.

First we went to the store and looked at DVDs because we wanted a movie to watch for tonight. Our original thought was to go to the actual movies but decided against it. There isn't anything we absolutely positively had to see. So why waste it when we can spend just as much, if not less, by buying a DVD and watch it whenever we want.

We found Sin City 2. We loved the first movie and had wanted to see the sequel. We just never saw it at a good price. Now we did. We snatched that up in a heart beat. We had walked around the store a bit before picking out the movie to see if I could find a new winter hat and to see if we could find Master new winter gloves. But I didn't find any hats I liked and Master didn't find any gloves He liked for a price He was willing to pay. *shrugs* Oh well.

After that we went out to Applebees. Master and I love that restaurant although we hadn't been to the one down here yet. Normally we only went to one in order to meet up with family. But not this time. This time it was just the two of us. A date. We've gone to a Denny's by ourselves not all that long ago but Applebees is so much better.

I had such a good time. It was wonderful. We joked around and laughed a lot. Whenever we go to an Applebees I always get a strawberry lemonade. It is so yummy. But this time it was even better. Apparently they make different down here. Rather than just making a lemonade and then putting some strawberry syrup type stuff in it they made a lemonade and then put real sliced up strawberries in it. It was so good. Everything just seemed wonderful. The mozzarella sticks and our burgers were perfect. They didn't water down Master's Jack & Coke. In fact it was pretty strong. (It was a double.) Our server was extremely fast and very friendly. We tipped her a lot more than we usually tip a server, even if they are good. Like I said everything just seemed so wonderful in that little pocket of time. No worries. We didn't talk about anything stressful. We just focused on us and having a good time.

After that Master and I went to a game store. He picked out a video game set that He wanted. Then we went home.

The weather outside sucked. It was cold. But I was in such a good mood that I didn't care. I'm still in a really good mood. I had taken a short nap when we got home but after I woke up we watched Sin City 2 and it was actually pretty damn good. I personally don't think it was as good as the first one but it was still a kick ass movie.

Now we are just sitting here relaxing. Each of us on our own computers while still talking to one another. *smiles*

November 19, 2014


Last night I dressed up for Master. It is rather cold outside and the heat isn't that great here. So after my shower I put on a body stocking that leaves my tits exposed and then put on sweatpants and a hoodie. I know that sounds super sexy. But hey, it kept me warm. Once we were ready to turn everything off and settle in for the night I took off the hoodie and sweatpants, leaving only the body stocking on.

I was sitting on the bed with Master in front of me. He asked me if I had a mood for the night. I said that I would prefer to be used. He smiled and said He could handle that.

He pushed me onto my back, gripped my legs, and pulled me further down the bed. He laid on top of me and molested my tits for a little while. He then knelt up with my legs spread and Him kneeling in between them.

He moved my pussy lips around with His fingers and fingered me a little bit before finally guiding His cock inside me. He kept me on my back and I lifted my legs up so that they were wrapped around Him.

After a while He knelt up and without pulling out flipped me onto my side while He remained kneeling on the bed. He pinned my neck down with one of His hands and used the other to hold my hips while He fucked me, sometimes moving my hips so that I was basically bounging off of His cock.

After He filled me He just knelt there for a little while I felt His cock twitch inside of me. Once His dick became limp enough to just slip out of me He laid on His back and told me to clean Him off. After I cleaned Him off I got changed into my sleep clothes and took my pills.

I know that some people may think it's a little weird that sometimes I prefer to not get off during sex. It's not that I don't enjoy having orgasms. Just the opposite. But sometimes knowing that it isn't an option without permission and then knowing for a fact, from the start, that I won't be able to cum at all is a turn on.

November 17, 2014

Early Winter Weather

Apparently winter is starting early this year. For the past week they had been saying it would snow. But nothing. It all seemed to be going up North where my aunt lives. She might as well be in Canada for fucks sake. But yesterday it finally hit. We didn't get a lot. Just two or three inches of snow all told. It did stick though. We had/have snow on the ground. However it was slick enough on the roads for them to send out the snow plows already. But it is never the snow that gets me. I mean, if my car fishtails yeah it scares the hell out of me. But honestly I would rather deal with snow rather than the bitter cold. Last winter we had both. We had quite a few days that were below zero and too many days where it was 40° below zero with the windchill. Honestly there were days where I was driving and I thought I would get frostbite while in my car. It was horrible.

About three or four years ago we had a blizzard. A full on can't get out my front door and there are snow drifts taller than my Husband blizzard. I would rather deal with that than 40° below zero wind chills.

I'm hoping that this winter is more mild than last winter. I really, really am.

However what I find amusing is that there are two people on a social media site that are already whining about the cold. Do we like the cold? No. Do we bitch about it? Yes. Do we whine about it? No.

Ya know why? Because we fucking live here. I have lived in Wisconsin my entire life. I'm petite and skinny. Cold really fucking sucks but I deal. I've been dealing with it for 31 years.

The two people bitching were born and raised here. Their problem is that they moved out of state for so long that I think they forgot what winter here is like. And to thing it's not even really winter yet. This is a taste.

One of them is my cousin. She was born and raised here but about seven years ago she moved to Oklahoma. She came back because her husband found a better paying job here.

The other one is the bitch my dad is living with/dating/whatever. She was born and raised here but thirty-five years ago she moved to Arizona. That is a long time to be in 100°+ weather. Welcome back to Wisconsin bitch. Master and I are both not so secretly hoping that the cold and/or snow becomes to much for her and she goes back. Hell, maybe she'll take my dad with her. I also think that my dad will remember how bad his back really is in the winter and possibly regret not moving out of state.

Who knows!

And yes, I'm feeling a bit bitchy. Thanks for noticing.

November 15, 2014


Yesterday Master and I went to visit with my father for a little while. And of course that bitch from Arizona was there since now she is apparently living with my father for good. Yay. Not.

It honestly kind of seemed like a waste of gas. All we really did was watch TV and I showed Dad how to use his new tablet. We joked around a bit here and there but that was about it. Master did mention to my dad that I am now making paracord bracelets and key chains. So my dad asked to see the ones I made for Master and myself. We showed him and my dad thought it was pretty cool. The bitch from Arizona really liked the one I made for myself which is a black and red weave. She wanted to try mine on. I so badly wanted to say no but I was trying to be nice since a) my dad is "dating" her and b) we were in my dad's house. So I let her try it on. It was too small for her which doesn't really surprise me because my wrists are pretty tiny. But she told me she wants that exact same one in her size. My dad looked at her and said, "Well when you have the money for it you can buy one."

I don't know if he expected me to chime in saying that I would make it for free but I didn't. *shrugs* I'll make one for her if she'll pay for it. I may not like the bitch but that doesn't mean I won't take her money. That would be rather stupid of me. We shall see. If she brings it up the next time I see her and she doesn't try to pay me I'll simply say I forgot or I need to buy more of that color.. I don't know. I'll think of something.


I made my first sale today! A woman contacted me asking me to make her two key chains and one bracelet. She didn't know what size she would need so I just made three identical ones of different sizes. I figured that after she picks out the one that fits her I'll just sell the other two. No biggie. So we met up today and she loves them. Rock on. This may sound stupid as hell but I was rather giddy about it.

Afterward Master and I went to splurge a little bit. It's the first bit of money that we hadn't planned on in a very long time. And every now and then you have to splurge at least a little bit. Nothing major. As a result Master and I went to a store and I ended up picking up all of the Saw movies in one collection for $10. Sweet. Master really doesn't like those movies but I do. I asked Him if it was okay if I bought it. He said yes. Normally when He doesn't like a movie and I know damn well He doesn't like it I don't even bother asking. But this time I really wanted it. I still asked and if He had said no I would have just bought something else but He was nice and said yes.

Something odd happened today though...

Yesterday I made a little page about my paracord bracelets and key chains so that if people ask I can just send them over there. It includes pictures of ones I have already made, a list of the colors I have "in stock", and instructions on how to size your wrist for a bracelet.

Somehow or another my mother-in-law saw it and actually started commenting on one of the pictures asking me questions. At first I wasn't sure if she knew it was me or not. After all she hasn't spoken to us since before we moved, which was the very first week of September. That verbal battle her and Master got into was pretty nasty. I had stayed out of it as I always do but since she doesn't want to talk to Him she doesn't talk to me either. She used to try and get me to plead her case when Master and I were first married but I don't play that shit and she quickly realized that. As a result when Master and her are not talking, by default her and I are not talking. Fine by me.

Anyway, in one of the comments on the pictures she asked if I could private message her a picture of the clasps. I thought that was a bit odd but okay. The thing of it is though is that I didn't message her from the page I made for my paracord. I messaged her from my private account. I sent her the picture and gave her the little bit of information she wanted. That way if she didn't know before that it was me, she did as soon as she received the message.

That was all last night. Today I finally got a response from her and it was very business like. No "hi how are you" or anything. Just business. So I responded in kind. Now she wants me to make two bracelets. She told me what colors she wanted and what sizes she needed. She then asked me if she sent me a check for "x" amount if that would cover the price of the two bracelets as well as shipping costs.


Honestly it was the shipping costs that kind of floored me. You can tell that woman is still royally pissed if she doesn't even want to meet up for the bracelets. She only lives 20 minutes away now that we moved. But nope. She wants to mail me a check and then for me to mail her the two bracelets. Fine by me.

I told her in the private messaging that I would wait for the check to come in the mail and then I would mail her the bracelets.

Master is rather upset with her right now. Well, in addition to everything else it comes across as her "punishing" me by not speaking to me except for about the bracelets. I understand what He is saying. Honestly though it doesn't bother me. Do I think it's rude? Fuck yes. Do I think it's fucking retarded? Oh yeah. But honestly I would rather that than for her to try and manipulate me into giving her information about her son, my Husband, while they aren't talking. Fuck that noise.

November 13, 2014


I got laid last night! *Hooray!*
Master's ribs are still bothering Him. Thankfully they are slowly but surely healing. We both wish they were healing faster obviously. But He is just now being able to lay on His side without pain. He isn't wincing whenever He moves. But they still bother Him quite a bit. As a result, our sex life has been on hold.

I completely understand. Trust me I do. I've been in really bad to horrible pain before and I know I wouldn't want to fuck either. Well, I would want to but I would know it would be a really bad idea.

But last night Master said He was up to it and that even if He wasn't He would just pay for it in the morning. *laughs*

He got me really really revved up. He sucked and licked my tits for a good long time before sliding down in between my legs and eating me out. It didn't take long before I got off. Afterward He knelt up and I laid down in between His legs and sucked His cock. I alternated between just holding His dick in my mouth and only moving my tongue to fully bobbing my head up and down.

When I pulled my head back and His cock was completely out of my mouth I kissed the tip of it before kneeling up in front of Him. He had me get on all fours and quickly entered me. It was intense to say the least. We were both pretty pent up.

We were both pretty damn tired afterward. Tired in a very good way and in great moods. I know that I passed out pretty quickly. I believe He did. 

It doesn't seem that His ribs are fucking with Him too badly today. I know that they are still sore but He doesn't seem to be favoring them or anything. That's a good sign.

Hopefully that means that they are closer to being fully healed. Not only because of our sex life obviously. I don't like seeing Master in pain, especially when it is that much pain. I think that as long as He doesn't do anything overly physically challenging He should stay on track as far as the healing process goes.

November 11, 2014

Family Shit

Master has been reminding me that we should go see my father. None of us are really all that happy with him but given the fact that he has 75% control of what is going on with my grandfather and his finances we are all kind of just playing nice right now. I know that sounds horrible, but it's the truth. I love my dad. I really do. But what really gets me about it is that he's doing all of these things that no one else agrees with or is screwing people over and either a) doesn't give a damn, b) doesn't even realize it, c) a little bit of both depending on the topic. Anyway, I had been pushing it off and pushing it off but finally I just bit the bullet and sent him a text. About two hours later he responded. He said that we could visit this week but that it would have to be after Thursday because he's busy.

Keep in mind that before this bitch came up from Arizona he had always told us that whenever we want to come over is fine. And he wasn't kidding. We could pick basically any time of any day and he'd be cool with it. He may push it back a hour due to a doctor appointment or errands but that was it. Ever since this bitch came up though it takes him forever to get back to someone and/or make plans with. But when you talk to him or see him all he wants to do is talk about and/or show you all the things he just bought.... with Grandpa's money. Well, to be more specific the money that he got from selling Grandpa's house. The money that was supposed to be used to pay for Grandpa's care but instead my dad cashed out one of Grandpa's retirement accounts to pay for that and kept all of the house money.

And while he may not see it this way, to me it's pretty fucking rude to start talking about all these things you just bought when you know the person or people you are talking to are struggling. Example #1: I'm currently unemployed. I have no extra spending money of any kind. Example #2: My brother works a minimum wage job.

In both cases my father does not seem to notice and/or care that he is talking about all of this and showing us thing after thing after thing. And none of it is even necessities. Nope. It's all junk that he wanted. I get it. You have money. But not only are you not offering to lend a helping hand to either of your children but you are also rubbing our flat ass broke faces all of this shit your recently purchased.

*deep breath*


We're going to see him Friday. And I know I have to play nice.

Aside from that not a lot is going on. My grandfather is no longer have good and bad days. He doesn't have good days anymore. They are all bad. Either he is sleeping the entire time someone goes to visit or he has no idea who you are. Then there are the times where he is just flat out hallucinating. And there are also the times where he doesn't know what things are... such as a napkin. He'll ask you what it is. Or he'll ask you what the silverware is and why the fuck it is in his room. He has also told my mom that the little praying teddy bear in his room talks to him at night and that no one believes him.

I would rather be dead than be the way he is now. I just wish his body would give up the ghost. This isn't life. This is existing. And it's not even a quality existence.

November 9, 2014

Birthday Party

Yesterday Master and I got out of the house for a little while. It was His nephew's birthday party. The sad fact is that we hardly ever see His side of the family, in regards to His father's side. We don't really care that we hardly see His mother. In fact, currently, we prefer it. But we get along really well with His dad these days. But since His father's schedule is so erratic we don't see him very often. And really we only see Master's brother and eldest sister about three times a year. Once for each of the brother's three kids. This time it was His eldest nephew's third birthday. We got there a little late only because, given experience, we know that they are never running on time with such things and we were normally the first ones there. As a result we decided to be "fashionably late".

There is one weird thing about the birthday parties for the kids though. It seems kind of segregated. Everyone has these little pockets of people that they go to and that's it. The only ones who ever move around are Master's brother and his wife. They are hosting the party so of course we expect them to be everywhere but other than that everyone kind of keeps to their little cliques and that's it. Master and I don't really fit in with any of their friends so we are always around either my father-in-law or my eldest sister-in-law. Yesterday it was both. Master's two youngest sisters weren't there.

It was really nice catching up with them though. We only got to speak with Master's brother for a short period of time. On top of him hosting he also wasn't feeling that great. Poor guy. The brother's wife we talked to for about fifteen minutes all told. But like I said they are both hosting so they have to mingle with everyone, cut cake, open presents, run after the kids, etc.

Hopefully we'll get to see them again soon rather than waiting until His niece's birthday which if I remember correctly isn't until January.

We stayed for the mingling part and the cake part but we left before the presents were opened. We had stayed for about two and a half hours all told. And it was about that point where the groups started to break up even more so Master and I decided to bow out.

In other news I have been practicing my paracord bracelet skills and I'm getting better at it. I'm only doing the cobra weave right now because that seems to be the easiest. I've only been making practice ones. I haven't made any to sell just yet. I only had a limited amount of cord and clips anyway because I had bought a kit that only provided enough for eight bracelets. Tomorrow though I am going to buy more. I'm also going to see if they sell key chain rings so I can make a paracord key chain. I'm hoping to find some pretty cool colors too. I didn't really bother looking the last time because I knew what I went in there for and left right away. Same thing when I bought the kit. I knew that's what I wanted so I got it and left. Tomorrow I'll browse a bit and try and figure out what color(s) I think will sell best. Given it's Wisconsin I should probably buy some green and gold. I'm  not a fan of the Packers. Hell, I hate football. But I'm not making these for me. I'm trying to sell them and this state is nuts over green and gold. Aside from that I'll just see what they have and hope it turns out cool.

November 7, 2014


I got some really sucky news yesterday. I had literally just gotten home and checked the mail. I saw an envelope addressed to me from the place I had applied to. I figured it was a confirmation of the background check. I was mistaken. It was a letter basically telling me that while they were "very impressed" by my work history and skill set they have decided to go with someone else.

I was honestly pretty damn upset. I know it probably sounds dumb because it's one of those "don't count your chickens before they hatch" situations but I truly thought I had this job locked down. I'm not joking when I say that I thought that I would receive a phone call any day now telling me that I have the job. I have never been that sure about having a job locked in prior to being told I have it. Never.

Master told me to just keep doing my best to find a job. I will. And I have been applying and applied to two more yesterday. Devastated is too strong of a word but it hit me kind of hard.

I had applied to the job via e-mail with a copy of my resume. I do a forty-five minute first interview. I then get a call about a week later asking me to come in for a second interview. They send me an e-mail with the paperwork I had to fill out for them. It was asking for all of my job history, which is on my resume, as well as my prior salaries for each job, my social security number, and two pieces of paper giving them my permission to do whatever checks they needed with my former employers as well as a background check. I filled that out and sent them an electronic copy via e-mail. I have the second forty-five minute interview and hand them a hand signed copy of the document I had sent to them via e-mail. A week after that I receive an e-mail about the background check and have to fill out an electronic form online in addition to what I had already given them. I wait on pins and needles just to find out I don't have the job.

At this point I'm just bummed the hell out. I'm not giving up. I can't give up. But I never in my life thought I would be unemployed this long. Especially with my job history and skills.

I am applying to jobs and will continue to do so until I land a job. I don't care if it's full time or part time. I truly don't. I just feel so useless. I do what I can around the house. I have found little things to do to keep myself busy and at least partially entertained.

And then yesterday I had a thought. I think paracord bracelets are pretty awesome. People can actually sell them for a half way decent price. I had always thought they were expensive to make. But I looked into it and honestly it's not all that expensive. The thought occurred to me that if I could learn how to make them maybe I could do it as a hobby and sell what I make. People do those kind of things all the time. One of my cousin knits and sells the things she makes online.

Today I went to a local hobby store and bought a kit so I can learn how to make them. I bought a kit that includes enough to make eight bracelets. I've made two. The first one I made was kind of eh. But hey, it was my first one... What do you expect? But now that I know I can do it, at least in the one weave, I plan on moving forward with it. I'm going back to that store tomorrow because I have a coupon for 40% off one item and they had something I wanted at the store for the paracord bracelets. I also would like to make key chains but one step at a time. I also want to learn how to do them with more than just one color. Baby steps I guess. For now I'm just practicing by making some for people I know. Once I get decent at it I'll start cranking out ones to sell. Hopefully it'll work out.

I'm going to continue looking for a real job but this would be at least a chance to make a little bit of money, hopefully.

November 5, 2014


This post isn't really about anything in particular. It's just random things that have happened in the past couple of days.

It has been a full week since that place I applied to started the background check on me. They had told me that it can take anywhere from seven to fourteen days. So I'm sitting on pins and needles about it, keeping my phone on me at all times. I'm really hoping to hear from them soon. And obviously I'm hoping to hear that I got the job. I'll know when I know and I won't be contacting them about it any time soon. I figure that it will come across as bothering them. *shrugs* So that's all I can do. Sit. Wait. Repeat.

Yesterday my brother contacted me asking if we were bored. Yep. We were. So he asked me if we would want to go to see a movie. Sure, which one? He wanted to see Annabelle. I had no problem with it but I thought Master wouldn't want to go because He hates porcelain dolls. They creep Him out. Surprisingly He said He would go. I think it was more out of boredom than anything. We got there super early like we always do but we got awesome seats. Thankfully, because the movie has been out for a while now, there were only a few other people there. I always prefer it that way. It is a lot less likely to be annoyed by other people there if it isn't jam packed.

I can't say that the movie was great. But there were a lot of jump scares. I mean old time horror movie type jump scares. You know the ones where it does a very sudden loud noise along with something visual that is very sudden? Yeah. That kind. And they were cheap jump scares at that. However, we all had a lot of fun because we were laughing at each other and ourselves. It has been a very long time since any of us have literally jumped during a scene like that in a movie. The first jump scare they had we all jumped pretty badly. *laughs*

It's always fun to go see a movie with Master and my brother. We've done it several times over the years. 

After that was done we had dinner. My brother went home and Master and I chilled the rest of the night. It was nice to get out of the house and to have some fun.

Today however was annoying. I had got a new cell phone earlier this year. At the time I bought it I also bought a new cell phone case. I hate having a cell phone without a case on it. Especially with how thin smart phones are these days, I just feel better with having a case on it. Well about a month and a half ago the phone just popped out of the case while I was using it. What the fuck? The phone dropped but thankfully didn't break. I figured it was a fluke so I just popped it back into the case and thought nothing of it. Since then it has happened a couple more times. This last time I finally had enough and I called the store where I bought the phone and case at. I asked if I could exchange it. They said I could trade it for the same one. I asked if I could just get a store credit towards a different one instead because I didn't want the same one due to the problems I've had with this one. They said it wouldn't be a problem.

So I got a hold of my mom to see if she would come with because her name is the one on the account. It's a family plan so that everyone saves money. She had no problem with that. We get over there and I very nicely talk to an associate there. He told me that they can't give me store credit. I informed him of what I had been told on the phone and he said he would be back in a moment and that he would check on it for me.

Thank you, I appreciate that. I wait, and wait, and wait some more.

He comes back over and tells me that since my phone is last years model they no longer carry accessories for it, but their website does. Okay, that's great. Did you talk to someone about the store credit? No...

Seriously? That was the whole reason you walked away in the first place. If you weren't checking on it what the fuck were you doing for so long? I immediately asked for a store manager. I was pissed but I remained calm.

The store manager comes over and the employee I had been dealing with stands right behind him. I start to explain the situation. As soon as I bring up the fact that the employee had told me he was going to check on it for me and came back and hadn't I was cut off by the other employee. He starts cutting me off and talking over me. I had enough. I started swearing and telling him to allow me to finish talking and that he was basically calling me a liar when I'm not. Meanwhile the store manager is just standing there allowing this employee to be disrespectful to me. I then turn my attention to the store manager and ask him basically what he is going to do about it.

Long story short they told me that all they could do was ship me a free phone case that was the exact one I have now. I explained I didn't want it. They basically told me I was lying about what the person told me on the phone and that I was lying about what the employee had said. I was getting so pissed off that my voice was literally shaking. I had my last word and walked out. My mom stayed behind because it is her name on the account and she wasn't going to allow them to treat me that way. About ten minutes later she walks out and told me that she didn't get any further than I did and that she would be calling corporate. She has all the cell phones, her cable TV, and her internet through this company so for two of their employees to act that way towards either of us is unacceptable.

When I got home and had calmed down a bit I looked online and found a case I wanted. I ordered it as soon as I found it and will now wait for it to come in the mail. For now I'll just have to be extra careful when handling my phone.

Apparently my mom called corporate and corporate is pissed at the two employees and told my mom that they would be calling that store and that they would get back to my mother within the next 24 to 48 hours with a resolution.

When I vented to Master about all of this He said He was sorry I had to get that pissed off. And I know it sounds stupid because it was over a cell phone case but for two employees to be so disrespectful, regardless of the subject at hand, is unacceptable. We'll see how that goes.

But at least I have a new one on the way.

November 3, 2014

Dry Spell

Master's ribs have still been really bothering Him. As a result our sex life has been in a bit of a lull. It's not that neither of us want to, it's just that His ribs hurt. I'm not mad or upset about it. Hell, when I'm in a lot of pain I know I don't want to fuck. Well, I do but I know damn well it wouldn't be a good idea at all. So I completely understand. His ribs are still bothering Him, but apparently last night He didn't care.

I asked Him earlier than usual if I should go ahead and take my meds. I originally asked because I didn't know what time He wanted to go to bed. He told me that I shouldn't so I assumed that meant we were staying up for a while. I was wrong.

He started to get undressed and as a result so did I. He had me kneel on the bed with my back to Him. He reached around and cupped my tits in His hands while He chewed my shoulders, neck, and parts of my back. And when He wasn't chewing on my flesh He was grazing His teeth across it.

Once He was done doing that He had me get on all fours. He placed one hand firmly on the back of my neck and His other hand firmly on my right hip. He fucked me pretty roughly at first. Not overly hard but rough as in forceful. I greatly enjoyed it.

He had me put my upper body to the mattress with my ass in the air and at first it was fine. Hell it was great. But then, I don't know what happened but a few times when He pushed forward something happened with my clit hood piercing. It didn't rip or anything. And honestly I'm not sure what the hell happened. All I know is that it hurt in a not good way. Something moved against something and owie.

It happened three or four times in a row. It wasn't the kind of pain that warranted me screaming or anything. But it did hurt, that's for sure. It was enough to make me dry up a bit. I reached down and adjusted the piercing a couple of times which made it feel better. But it did take a little while to "recover" from the dryness. I hate it when that happens.

Master then had me lay on my stomach. He allowed me to cum one more time before filling me with His cum. After He was done He laid on top of me for a while, totally comfortable and relaxed. After He moved I cleaned Him off and we went to bed.

The last thing He said before we curled up to go to sleep was that He had a feeling His ribs would pay Him back for all that tomorrow morning. *laughs*

November 2, 2014


I'm not due for a post today. I'm not due for one until tomorrow. However, something awesome happened today so I wanted to due a quick post about it. Well, it's awesome to me anyway. Unfortunately it doesn't have to do with the job I'm waiting to hear back from. Nope. This is completely unrelated.

Master and I use to have our own computers in the house. But at one point one of them died so we were down to one computer. We said we would buy another one so we could both have our own computers again but while we were saving up and waiting for a good deal the second computer died. As a result the thought of buying a second computer was abandoned. We simply had to buy one because we didn't have any at all now. And that's what we did. Unfortunately at the time there wasn't a good sale going on either so we paid more than we wanted.

And it has been like that since. If I am remembering correctly it happened shortly after we were married. So we've only had one computer for about seven years, give or take a few months. We could just never justify the price of buying a second computer when we could use the money for other things. At the time a second computer seemed more of a luxury.

We both spend quite a bit of time on the computer when we're at home. He has His projects that He has going on as well as games and social networking. I have this blog, social networking, and games as well. So sometimes when we are both home it does get a little annoying for one or both of us when we are waiting on the other to get off the computer mean while not wanting to rush one another.


Then a year ago or so I got a smart phone which is basically a mini computer. I used it a lot simply for the things I would use the computer for. Admittedly if it is just something really quick it is a lot more convenient but since being unemployed I have basically been using it 90% of the time. Really the only time I was using the computer was to do my blog post.

But now we have two computers again!


My mother had been looking for a new laptop for herself because her old one was getting pretty bad before finally crashing yesterday. Lo and behold there was an amazing sale on a laptop today at Best Buy. She asked if I wanted to go with her. Hey, sure why not.

I went with and amazingly she told the employee to grab two of them. I looked at her a little weird and she told me that it is my very early Christmas present. She wanted me to have my very own laptop so that neither of us had to worry about who was online when and we could both be browsing at the same time, without me trying to do it all on my phone.

When I got home I got everything set up. It took a little while. Thankfully Windows 8.1 isn't as horrible as I thought it would be. This is the first laptop I've ever owned in my life. I'm loving it.

Master is happy for me. He is also happy that I won't constantly be on my phone. He would prefer me to use a computer of some kind. So now I have my laptop and Master has the desk top computer which is still in awesome shape. Once I get a job we'll probably buy a replacement though. Just so Master has a new computer just like I do now.

I also got a really slick looking wireless mouse. It's blue. *grins*

I'm giddy and being extremely careful with it. *laughs*

November 1, 2014


Well, my favorite holiday of the year has come and gone. Unfortunately it was highly uneventful. To say I'm disappointed is a bit of an understatement. We had plans to dress up and go trick or treating with family. This is due to the fact that my father hadn't asked for our assistance to do his haunted house like we normally do. *shrug* But when we woke up yesterday morning there was snow on the ground. A few hours later all of the snow was gone but the temperature was still really low. Not low for Wisconsin but low for Halloween. Apparently it was the coldest Halloween since 1996 for us. It was in the mid 30s. It wouldn't have been so bad had it not been for the really high winds that actually had the lake doing about 20ft waves, if not higher. I mean the wind was strong. There were a few times when I left the house that I had to lean into it because it felt like it was pushing me.

Due to all of this we cancelled the plans to go trick or treating. We didn't want anyone getting sick and we really didn't think a lot of people would be out and about doing trick or treat anyway. Not when it was like that. We didn't even bother to watch a horror movie. It just didn't feel like Halloween at all.

So now here we sit. It's now November. It was the worst Halloween I've had in a very long time. I'm truly hoping that next year is a hell of a lot better.

But now that it is November I'm hoping even more to hear about that job sooner rather than later. They had said that the job would start in the middle of November, but that if they could get someone in sooner that would be ideal.

I told Master that I hope I hear from them some time this upcoming week. I know that they only started the background check this past Wednesday, but this is how I get when I'm past the second interview and I'm waiting to hear back from them to see if I have the job or not. But all I can do is keep a close eye on my e-mails and have my cell phone at my side as much as possible.

Master's ribs are still bothering Him. Some days are better than others. You can tell that it's not nearly as bad as it was the day after it happened. I know that bruised ribs take a long time to heal as well.

The weather isn't helping either of us. My joints and shoulders are bothering me and Master's sinuses are ready to explode in the morning.