On Hold

Last night was a lot of fun at the bonfire and Master and I had great sex when we got home. But I have been mildly annoyed because we had plans for the weekend. One fell through right away on Friday, which was annoying enough. The second plan was pushed off and pushed off due to the other people involved and it took until today around noon for it to fully fall through. So one of them went south right away and that was irritating because well, fuck. That sucks. The second one pissed me off more because it did take three days to fall through completely because the other people involved didn't call me back and I would have to keep calling them to see what the hell was going on.

So today I've been irritable. I don't mean to take it out on Master and He told me that I've had a bitchy tone and I honestly haven't meant to.

But there were certain things I did during the work week to make it so we could go through with our plans and I was looking forward to it all week.

When the first one fell through eh, it sucked ass. But when the second one took three fucking days to fall through I was more than annoyed. It makes me feel like the entire weekend was put on hold for nothing. Yes, we went down to the bonfire last night but that was after I called the other people and left a voice mail to call me on my cell. Nothing. I figured they would call me back today. Nope. So I call down there twice, no answer and no return phone call. Finally on the third try I get a hold of them and nope.. sorry... not happening.

I know it's not Master's fault and I am honestly not trying to take it out on Him, although my irritability is apparently showing through more than I thought it was.

The other annoying part of it is that now that the second plan fell through completely I have no idea what the hell I want to do. When I make plans I tend to not worry about what to do in case they backslide. Why? Because normally I don't have to worry about it.

So now I basically don't know what to do with myself and when Master asks me I have no fucking clue. Basically the only things I could think of was watch a movie or sit outside some more.

We were outside earlier and it was just too damn hot so we came in to enjoy the air conditioning. It's only been about an hour and a half to two hours and I'm back to not knowing what to do. My options are limited.

I'm doing my post early to just kind of vent it out. It's nothing Master did and it's nothing I did. It's just.... fucking annoying. Master told me to not let it ruin the rest of my day and I'm trying not to but like I said I had everything lined up perfectly and for it to feel like I had been waiting three days to just find out.. nope. Yeah. It sucks ass.

Every Single Time

I hadn't spoken to Master about this yet because I didn't know if it would be feasible. But I had this plan rolling around in my head (there is a lot of room in there, so it rolled quite a bit..) that the week of Thanksgiving, since I have a four day weekend, we could spend that entire time having a grand old time flexing our kink muscles.

I'm not saying the leash is slack, because it's not. And I'm not saying that I have an itch that isn't being scratched, or anything along those lines.

It's just that I knew I had a four day weekend coming up in a few weeks and I was looking forward to doing nothing but kinky stuff and relaxing.

The problem being... that it's Thanksgiving weekend. Okay, Thanksgiving to me is not a big deal. Not in the least bit. When I was growing up it was, because my entire family.. including parts of it that live in different states, would come to my great grandparent's house and we would all spend time catching up.

But as the years roll by, that doesn't happen anymore and hasn't in a very long time. I would say at least 15 years. These days it's going to my mom's house for a while, then my dad's house, and sometimes we toss Master's mother into the mix as well.

Well shit. We do that at Christmas time. So why not just skip this Thanksgiving and call it done? I was planning on lying my ass off as it got closer and either telling people that I had to work, or that I was sick.

Yes, Master and I see each other every day. And yes, we have the whole weekend together. But normally there is mundane stuff that takes over, or we have plans with friends and/or family. So I was looking forward to lying my tail off and just relaxing all four days.

Especially if I used the sick card. Then I could say I didn't want to get anyone else sick and just skate through the whole four days.

Then tonight ST called. He lives about three to four hours away right now. When the phone rang and I realized it was him, I looked at Master and I said, "Do I have to answer this?"

To which He of course said yes. Damn.

So I answered. ST is a drama queen. And a self-loathing one at that. So ST and I talk for a while and he's telling me how he's going to be "home" for the holidays. And he hinted that he would be in our neck of the woods during the Thanksgiving weekend.

Joy.

I haven't seen him in quite some time, but honestly I don't really want to see him right now. I have problems of my own, I don't need to be fixing his.. or at least pretending to want to fix his problems. He ended the call by saying that he'd call us once he was in town to see what day/time we would be free.

Now, the sickness excuse might still work. But I don't know if Master is going to let that fly. I also don't know if ST is going to let us brush him off that easily.

Dealing with him is a chore and a half most times, and I'm just not up to it right now.

So yeah. Plans possibly ruined, even though they weren't technically plans because I hadn't even voiced them yet. Mainly because the whole "plan" idea just popped into my head today at work, and I didn't have time to really broach the subject with Master before ST called.

So we shall we what happens.