More Questions & Daily Post

First, the questions and my answers. Then I'll do my normal daily post.

Has master ever hurt you or did something to you in a way that made you second guess your master slave dynamic with him?

*ponders this* No He has never done anything that has made me second guess the dynamic that we share. There have been times where I have wondered what our relationship would be like if we were just vanilla, no kink. But when I asked Him if we could try it and He agreed, I basically felt like my world was crumbling around me. I got very scared, and I honestly have no idea why. That same night I begged for Him not to make me go through with it. I was crying and shaking. He calmed me down and said that He wouldn't make me.

I’ve always been interested in your slave mat. What exactly is it? A yoga mat..a sleeping bag…? Would you be willing to show a pic? Or two or three..*giggle*

Honestly, it's simply a blanket folded over a few times with a few of those pillows that have arms on them tossed on it so I can prop myself up. That's it. It's a very thin blanket. And eventually it can get uncomfortable since it is so thin. I used to have a thicker blanket, but it got torn so we just grabbed another blanket out of the closet and used that. I'm thinking of asking Master if we can get another comforter, a thicker one, for me to use instead. The main the reason I would like a new one, is for comfort since that's when I normally stay unless I'm on the computer.

But for now it's just a simple blue thin blanket with two pillows with the arms on it. I don't have any pictures, unfortunately.

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And now for my daily post. :-)

Today Master and I actually got to sleep in. It was still sleeting out when we got up, so we decided to just make it a lazy day. We just sat up and relaxed in the living room. About mid afternoon our friend B called and asked if we would mind if he stopped by after he got out of work.

So he stopped by and told us about this new girl he's taken on a few dates. We talked about various things and watched Master play video games for a little while. We went out to dinner and had a good time telling jokes and what not. When we got home we watched some South Park. B stayed until about 9pm. Master and I continued to watch South Park and now I'm just doing my post and then it's off to take my bath.

We both have to get up before 7am tomorrow, but since we slept in we know we won't be ready to go to sleep by 11pm. It's amazing. We used to be such night owls when I was working 2nd shift. Now? We're in bed sometime between 11pm and midnight. Our "bed time" used to be somewhere between 2am and 4am. Weird. But I like 1st shift a lot more. I'm home before it's dark out. Master and I get more time together, and we can actually run errands after work if we need to. It's some what odd that stores and banks are still open when I get home. *gasp*

Almost The End

It's almost the end of March. So March Question & Answer Month is almost over with. But I have a few more questions to answer. :-)

What do you think is the difference between a masochist, bottom, submissive and slave?

I know a lot of people just go by a group definition, and honestly my opinions don't always match that. But I'll try to give a short description of what I think each is.

Masochist: To me this is just someone who enjoys receiving pain on some level. They don't necessarily have to be a bottom or a sub or a slave. Hell. I've heard of Doms/Masters/Mistresses who are masochists.

Bottom: A bottom to me is someone who is submissive only in certain situations. The first thing that comes to mind for me when I hear this, is someone who is only submissive in the bedroom, and even then it is not full submission.

Submissive: Someone who defers most things to the one who they have given most control over to. However they still hold the "power" to say no, to pick and choose when they will and will not submit or defer to their Owner.

Slave: They hand all things over to their Owner. However, of course, they still have to option to say "Fuck this I don't want it anymore." Why? Because thinking other wise.. thinking that a slave can never leave.. is a fantasy. I am Master's slave, however I could leave Him if I needed to or wanted to. Thankfully such a situation has never risen where I have felt that need or want, and I'm hoping it never will.

How do you (yourself or as a couple with your Master) explain/define the in-equality in a D/s relationship. How you (as the sub) are not equal with your Master (perhaps “lower”) yet you are not less of a person or less important, yet again you are sill not equal with/to him.

This is a bit difficult to explain. But I'll do my best.

I do not see myself as less of a person as Master, just as He does not see me as a lesser person. I usually define it mainly in the Alpha/Beta terms. He is the Alpha, and I am His Beta. I am not lesser of a person, I just have a different role in the pack. The roles (as all roles) are very different and can be viewed as "not equal" to the other's role.

My role in the pack is to take care of my Alpha, and to follow His lead. His role is to lead and to take care of His Beta. It is His role to protect the pack, however the Beta also has a part in this duty. The Beta must also know how to take care of one's self and how to make decisions when the Alpha is not with the pack. (In other words, if Master is not reachable because He is at work or something along those lines, I must be able to do things without His direct guidance.)

That's all I can really think of to say on this subject right now.

Another Question

Have you ever passed out or fainted during sex or rough play?

First I have to apologize for not answering this earlier. Thank you for reminding me! Also, if anyone else has asked a question that I did not answer, let me know! I probably lost track of it somewhere in the comments. Also, March is almost over.. so if you have any more questions... shoot.

On to the question it self. I have never fainted or passed out during sex or rough play. I have however come really, really close. And that's mainly due to the fact the we do breath play. Basically Master cuts off my air supply, usually with His huge hands. I have gotten to the point where I start to see black dots, or things start to fade in and out. But Master gages this and can tell when it's happening. So He lets up, and I can breath again until He applies pressure once more.

I have never come close to passing out or fainting due to pain or anything of that nature. It's only ever occurred during breath play.

More Answers... Again

Did you see/like the original Halloween and H20? I also loved these.

I've seen all of the Halloween movies that had to do with Michael Myers. (In other words I did not see Halloween 3.) That includes that Halloween remake that Rob Zombie did.

Master is not a big Halloween fan, so I haven't seen these movies in quite some time. But I found them interesting. I mean yeah, it's just some big guy who can't seem to stay dead going around and killing people, but *shrugs* it kills an afternoon, ya know? I do have to admit that they always seem to find a way to bring the fucker back. For instance, in H20, it turns out she didn't really cut off Micheal's head... it was an ambulance driver or some shit like that. Ugh. They should have ended it right there. When I saw that ending I was like "Finally! They killed him off for good." Yeah, er, no. Jaime Lee Curtis' character was the one who started it, she should have been the one to kill the son of a bitch.

I didn't care for the remake. But that's just me. Master liked it, He thought it made more sense than the original movies.

I'm more into the Hellraiser series, and the Nightmare on Elm Street series than any other horror movie franchise.

How do you handle it when you and your Master fight? I am newer to this kind of relationship and it seems like arguing has kind of changed, I am not sure what I can and can’t say. We have tried to keep any arguments we do have separate but it does seem to spill over when I am mad at Him for something, like I bite my tongue. Does this make any sense at all and if it does do you find it is a problem for you as well?

Please keep in mind that Master and I have been together for quite some time now. So we've had years of experience of learning how to deal with such things. And trust me, it took us a while to get to this point.

Honestly, Master and I don't fight all that often. Normally we just wait until we are both calm and can sit down and talk logically. Also this keeps my emotions (which can be like a fucking tornado, believe me) from getting in the way when I am trying to remain as respectful as possible. And it also keeps Him from screaming at me. We both have bad tempers. Or I should say we can have bad tempers. We both have short fuses, and of course after all of these years, we know exactly how to light that fuse. Why? Because as you get to know someone, you also get to know what their "buttons" are. Ya know?

In the beginning, especially when we first moved in with one another, we would do that (sometimes without realizing we were doing it) and then one or both of us would storm off and then eventually we would get over it and just talk. Now? We take time out from one another when things start to get heated. Master might go for a drive, or I might go into the bedroom. Anything so that we can cool down. Then He'll come home, or I'll go back into the living room, and we would just say "Okay, we're calm. Now let's talk about this."

Honestly, in regards to D/s or M/s relationship fights.. they don't seem all that different than vanilla relationships. It all depends on how you, as a couple, decide to handle it.

And yes, I am His slave and I am supposed to be respectful to Him.. does that mean He never pisses me off? Um, no. No it does not. He still pisses me off, just like I'm sure I piss Him off sometimes. But it's all in how you handle it. You can blow up and say things you may regret later, or you can go calm down and then sit down and talk about it when your emotions won't run your mouth. Although in the end, what He decides is what He decides, whether I agree with it or not.

More Answers

Whats your thoughts on a 24/7 D/s couple having children?

My thoughts are pretty simple on this matter. I look at it like I would any other couple (gay, straight, whatever). As long as they are good parents and want children, go for it. As long as they are not physically or mentally abusive towards the child(ren) then I have absolutely no problem with it.

I do have to say however, that I am against trying to teach the child(ren) that the D/s or M/s lifestyle is the path that they should choose. I look at that very much like I do religion. It is a personal choice, and one that should be left up to the child once they are older. Offering it as an option if the child is curious and they are old enough and mature enough (because let's remember, those are two vastly different things) to speak about such things, sure. That's one thing. But shoving it down their throat and threatening that if they do not follow the path or paths that you and your partner do, that they are wrong and will not be welcome.. well then.. fuck you very much. I've seen it happen in regards to religion with my friends when I was growing up. And I've seen posts on message boards stating that they are raising their children this way (meaning within the lifestyle), I can't say that I agree with that. But hey, that's me.

I know you like horror movies, and was wondering if you saw/liked the original and remake of Texas Chainsaw Massacre. (I LOVED both!)

As surprising as this may seem, I have honestly never seen the full movie of the original Texas Chainsaw Massacre. I have seen bits and pieces of it, but never the whole thing from start to finish. So I don't honestly have an opinion on it.

As far as the remake goes, I've only ever seen the previews.

You regularly mention picking up food, or going out to eat — what do you like to eat?

I am a very picky eater. I'll make a list of the main foods that I like. :-)

1. Hamburgers


2. Fries


3. Mozzarella sticks


4. Polish Sausage


5. Italian Sausage


6. Brats


7. Buffalo burgers


8. Tacos


9. Nachos


10. Pizza (Meat lovers preferably)


11. Chips


12. French toast


13. Scrambled eggs


14. Bacon


15. Some fruit and not a lot of vegetables. (Really the only vegetable I like is corn.)


16. Grilled cheese


17. Peanut butter and grape jelly open face sandwich on white bread (Man that sounds really good right now, but I don't have any bread. Damn.)

Well I think you get the idea. *laughs* Like I said, I'm a very picky eater. I like basic food, you know, nothing to fancy or anything. So if we go out to eat it's normally just a regular every day restaurant or a bar and grill. I would feel very out of place at an actual "fancy" restaurant and I probably wouldn't eat very much at all. In fact that happened not that long ago when we went to a "traditional" Italian restaurant. I ordered an appetizer, and that was it. And I didn't really want to even eat that. Part of the reason I am such a picky eater is because I have a very sensitive stomach. So anything with a lot of spices, and my tummy is mad at me for a very long time.

Crying Question

Has master ever hurt you unintentionally? I know during sex seeing you in tears turns him on so to speak but on regular occasions is he like most men and can’t stand to see his lady cry?

*thinks for a moment* Well if you mean like has He ever hurt me in a way He did not intend to during a punishment or something, then yes. The belt didn't quite land the way He thought it would and He stopped, made sure I was okay, and then proceeded. In regards to outside of something along those lines, then the answer is no. He knows how strong He is and if we're goofing around or something He knows how to handle me.

The only other instances I can really think of is like maybe during a blowjob, my TMJ started to act up and my jaw almost locked on me, but that's not His fault and He stopped and fucked me instead.

In regards to crying, honestly He can make me cry just by using a certain tone of voice that cuts through me. (This is when He is displeased with me.) He will tell me to collect myself, and give me some time to do so and then once I have done so, it's over.

As far as seeing me cry because I'm upset or just really stressed out or pissed off (yes I cry when I'm pissed off), He will hold me and tell me it's all going to be okay. He comforts me.

As far as not being able to watch me cry. He actually hates it. Why? Because I can't talk. When I cry it is like my voice box malfunctions or something. So if He is trying to get to the bottom of something that is bother me, and I'm crying and I can't talk it annoys Him because He is trying to help and I can't get it all out. During those times He will tell me to do my breathing exercises and calm myself. Once I'm calm we will continue talking.

** Just remember that it's March. So it is still Question and Answer Month. If you have any questions, ask away!

Scenting Questions

You have talked about “scenting” yourself. What does that mean? Why do you do it? I would assume you do this as your Master’s desires…..why does he want/like you to do this?

What scenting myself means is one of two things.

There is scenting myself before sex, such as through out the day. During those times I basically just dip my fingers into my pussy, get my fingers coated, and then wipe my fingers on a scar that is above my left breast. (The scar is something that Master gave me to before we moved in together. I think it was during the second year we were dating, before we were engaged. I don't know if you've seen posts where I am talking about edge play, since we don't do it very much anymore. But He gave me this scar with a knife. It doesn't show up very well in pictures unfortunately.) I also then wipe it over my tits if there is enough there.

Other wise I do it after ever time we have sex. So I dip my fingers into my pussy and collect both my cum as well as His and wipe it on the scar on my chest and over my tits.

As to why I do it, it is because Master wants me to. *smiles* As far as why He wants me to, it is because He has a very sensitive nose, and He greatly enjoys the scent.

And I love it when He grabs my hair and forces my head back while He sniffs my chest. And I also love the shudder, moan/growl, that He does while doing so. ;-)

Not Much Help

I am wondering… Looking at male subs, it’s nearly impossible to find any information on male subs that aren’t treated as little girls! (overstatement, but not by much.) Do you know of any sites/friends that are non-feminized male subs?

I am sorry that I am not of much help in this area. Male submission is not really something that I research, so I don't know of any sites that may be useful to you. Also, the only male subs that I have had interactions with have enjoyed being feminine, rather than not. So I am sorry, but I am not sure what to suggest. However, I'm hoping that if any of my readers out there know of any sites, that they will comment on this post for you. :-) I wish you luck in your search!

Love Thy Self

So here’s a question for you… you said that when you first met your M you were very shy and insecure. (my words) I’m the opposite, I am a bit of an exhibitionist but I dislike my body. (go figure) Yet, as I posted the first pix of myself on my blog tonight I found myself enjoying the look of them, enjoying what I see in that round-a-bout sense that I know it’s what my Sir likes. Not sure where the question is in all this, but any comments or whatever on that particular journey? Of learning to love ones physical self?

You are correct, I was extremely shy when I first met Master. I basically didn't think I was attractive at all and I was wondering why the fuck He would be interested in me. Why? Because He is sexy and handsome.

Here is a good example. The first time we had sex was in a hotel room. I asked Him to turn off all the lights except for the one in the bathroom, which would provide some illumination in the main room. Never mind that at the time I didn't know how well He could see in the dark. *giggles* And apparently He really liked what He saw. Who knew?

Another good example is that the first time He had me dress up in lingerie, it was a body stocking and I got under the covers and basically tried to hide myself from Him. I was embarrassed. Again, He liked what He saw.

Over time He helped me build up my self esteem. He still does. He would give me compliments and touch me all the time, and things of that nature.

Now look at me. I post pictures of me getting fucked, giving head, being totally naked, being in various states of undress, etc. And I love it. Hell I even used to be a stripper.

Learning to love yourself. *ponders this* The only thing I can say is that you are in the skin you are in, so you might as well learn how to love it. It seems that no matter what you do, there is always going to be something you don't like about yourself. It seems to just be human nature. Me? I hate my feet. Hate them! And I personally am not one who is for cosmetic surgery. Corrective surgery? Sure. Not a problem, I understand that. But cosmetic? *shudders* No thank you.

Over time I became more and more comfortable with my looks. I'm not a super model. I'm not someone who could make millions soely on my looks, and ya know what? I'm okay with that.

How did I become comfortable with my looks, as far as being an exhibitionist? Well, first I had to become comfortable with my looks as far as Master goes. When that happened, which took quite some time I do have to admit, the rest of it came easy.

It was one of those things.. "Oh? You don't like the way I look? Then stop looking at me. No one is making you. And my Master finds me sexy as hell, and His opinion is the only one that matters."

And it is. Does that mean I don't appreciate compliments from others? I do. As long as they aren't creepy. *laughs* But at the end of the day, Master is the only one who has to see my naked and look at me every day. He loves the way I look, and so I love the way I look. I can look at myself as Master would and go, "Yeah. I'd fuck me." (Which is by the way, something Master would love to see. Unfortunatley cloning is still not a very safe procedure and so He's stuck with just one of me. Pity Him.)

I hope that this answered your question. If not, let me know with some clarifying questions and I'll do my best to answer those as well.

More Answers

More questions from March Question and Answer month. :-)

Since you follow the Medicine path do you know which Animal you are related most to?

Well, that depends on what you mean by related to. :-)

I was born under Wolf.

Also, based on when I was born I am part of the Frog Clan. What this basically means that I am elementally associated with Water.

The other two animals that surround me the most are Fox and Tiger.

Do you and your Master enjoy bondage?

Master and I do enjoy bondage, we just don't do it very often. Master does a lot of what you might term "mental" bondage with me. He tells me not to move, and so help me if I do my tail is in hot water. He positions me a certain way and that is how He wants me to stay until He either moves me again, or tells me to move, or tells me I may relax (relax = break position).

When He does decide to bind me, it is normally with rope or handcuffs. I love handcuffs. *happy sigh* And none of that fuzzy cuffs crap either. :-| Metal handcuffs. *nods* It's normally a quick and dirty job, the binding I mean. I don't really understand the whole "take an hour to set-up" thing. Okay. Yay. Pretty me up and then once we're done, it takes another hour to take off.

One of our friends, B, has done more intricate rope bondage on me before. I got bored rather quickly. And then it was mainly for display purposes. Not a lot could be done to me after it was all done. So I was sort of felt like I got all dressed up with no where to go, ya know?

Plus since I have a huge manhandling and control fetish, I much prefer the hands on approach. Grab me by the throat, toss me down, tell me that if I move I'll wish I hadn't. *purrs* And Master has nice big hands, and I'm petite, so it works out wonderfully. ;-)

Work Related Question

Here is another question from March Question and Answer Month. :-) Don't forget that this goes all month long, and you can ask as many questions as you like! Also, if you've ever wanted to ask my Master something, He is also doing it. You can find His blog here.

I know you would not want to be specific about employers etc but could you tell me the type of job you just left and the new one you are about to start?

I am going to be fairly vague in this answer, so I do apologize for that.

In regards to the type of work I just left, I was a call center rep. No, I wasn't one of those annoying people calling you in the middle of dinner or at 8am on a weekend. *laughs* I was one of the people that you call for assistance. I would rather not say what kind of assistance, but I'll tell you that it dealt with very sensitive information. So all day long it was people calling me, and my trying to help them as best as I could.

As far as my new job goes, I am going to be in accounts payable. :-)

That was the only new question I had, so now on to the rest of the post.

Today Master called me a little after 9am to make sure I was awake because there were some things He wanted me to do today. He wanted me to take all the trash out and also call His mother.

I had a few other things that I had to attend to as well, so it was a good thing He called to wake me up.

I called His mother first. We are going over to her place this Saturday for dinner and to celebrate my birthday as well as my new job. I don't know if we're also celebrating our up coming anniversary or not. *shrugs* It took a while to get a hold of her, but eventually she called me back and we made plans from there.

Then I took the trash out. After that, it was back to the phones. I called the state taxes again, because we still don't have our refund. It's taking fucking forever because it was selected for review. The guy told me that if it isn't here within two weeks, to go ahead and call back. I got transferred back to their automated system three fucking times before I got that damn answer. *sigh*

Then I called my former retirement plan. I regret signing up for that, beings that I lost quite a bit of the money I put into it. Fucking stocks. They told me I could roll it over into my new one, at my new job. But I'm not signing up for it at my new job. So they told me I could have the funds sent to me. So I asked them to send me the forms. Oh no, we can't do that yet because my former job hasn't sent in the paper work saying I no longer work there. Fuck me. So they told me to call back later in the week and go from there.

Believe it or not all of this took me almost right up until the time Master got home from work. He was sore and tired, but we needed dog food. Master didn't want to go anywhere so I hopped in the car and went to get it. Only one store around here sells the type of dog food Ghost can eat, and of course it is on the other side of town. If we feed Ghost anything else his skin starts to flake and his stomach gets upset.

From there, I came home and we ate dinner. We watched a movie, "Midnight Meat Train", which is a film adaptation of a short story by Clive Barker. I like the story more. Figures doesn't it?

We also watched some Rodney Carrington skits. He is going to be in town soon, and he's hilarious. Unfortunately we can't go, but at least we can find him on the internet. I took my bath and put on a cup less dress.

I don't know why, but I feel so damn tired today. I didn't do anything really physical. It must be the weather. I just feel like I have no energy. Blah.

Show & Tell

How did you discover your exhibitionist self? My Master will love me to get into it… and he tried me a couple of times… but he tells me i have to practice. So, any advise? Thank you.

Well before I met Master I was very shy about my looks. I had a very low self esteem. But once Master started to boost my confidence, I discovered that I really enjoyed being looked at. Now honestly, I don't think I would be such an exhibitionist if I were single, if that makes any sense. But I guess it is because I am Owned, and I am married that it is sort of like, "Look if ya want, but you can't have me." So it is a sort of mix of exhibitionism and a tease in a way? It stirs a certain sort of pride within me, not just for my looks but because I am Master's property. And I see the pride in His eyes when He is showing me off, which stirs that pride in me, as well as a sexual hunger.

My advise is this. Your Master finds you beautiful. Take joy and pride in that. He wants to show you off, he wants others to see what he has, that they can never have, at least not fully. (For instance my Master shares me sometimes, and yes they are "having me" for that very brief period of time, but only because He allows it.) Also think of the control aspect, if control is a turn on for you like it is me. He is taking control of not only me, but in a small way of the other person or people who He is allowing to see me.

Favorite book? movie? music? tv show?

My favorite book is "Sacrament" by Clive Barker. Lord Fox kicks tail! :-D

My favorite movie? Oh hell. *thinks* It's hard to pick just one. Seriously. But if I have to pick just one I would say it would be "Hellraiser".

Music... Hm. Well as far as favorite genre goes, it would be hard rock/heavy mental. My favorite band is WASP.

TV show.. right now it's Solitary 3.0 although that season just ended. Well it just ended for me anyways, we watch it on the internet so I don't know when the season actually ended.

Why didn’t you like Watchmen?

Well, I never read the graphic novel so it wasn't like I was comparing it to that. But I think my problem was that even though the graphic novel for Watchmen was out way before these other things were popular, I couldn't help but go, "Okay then.. this is a fucked up mix of Batman, The Justice League, and Sin City. Yay." I think I may have just been overloaded on comic book movies, ya know? So when I was sitting there watching it, that's all I could compare it to. I couldn't just sit there and enjoy it for what it was, it's own thing. I'm sure Master will want to see it again once it comes out on DVD, and maybe by that point I'll be able to enjoy it for what it is, rather than comparing it to everything else.

I love wearing bangle bracelets that clack together when I move. Will having two of the wrist cuffs do the same thing? I guess that I am also looking for an audible noise to remind me that they are there if that makes any sense?

I only have one on, but I've seen pictures of people wearing two, or three, or more. I would think that as long as you got the correct size(s) it would probably have a similar effect as bangle bracelets. The one I had slides every now and again, like when I move my arm, so I would assume that if you had two or more on, they would "clack" together. :-)

So I’m curious. Your M calls you “Kitten” and I’ve read you doing thing such as “taping paw.” So, my question is this: do you engage in pet play at all? Why yes, why no?

Not really, no. The closest that we get to pet play is the fact that Master has me crawl on my hands and knees, for sexual positions we really enjoy me being on all fours, and I do actually purr. *giggles* Oh, and He gives me pets. In other words, I ask Him to pet me, and He'll run His fingers through my hair or slowly run His hand up and down my back.

But Master and I never really got into the whole having me eat out of a cat food bowl, or drink water that way. Yes, I wear a collar and He used to lead me around on a leash but that was more of a control kink than actual pet play. As for a the whys? We just never got into it, it isn't something that really "does it" for us I guess.

Cuff Question

How’s that eternity cuff/bracelet working out for you? Comfy? I’ve always wondered about those.

I was a little worried when we first got it because as He was putting it on my wrist I thought I had gotten it too small, but thankfully it fits perfectly.

It took a little getting used to, but it is very comfortable. I barely notice it anymore, just like my collar. It basically feels like it has no weight to it at all once you have been wearing it for a while. The only time I notice it now is when it gets cold, like when I'm outside for a while, and it slips back down to a part of my arm that hasn't been exposed to the weather. Then I'm like, "Why is my arm cold? Oh yeah. Duh."

I highly recommend it. It is very durable, it "fits in well", and is light weight. By fitting in well I mean, just like my Eternity collar, I can wear it in an office environment and no one mentions it. If anything they compliment me on my "new age" jewelry. *laughs*

Another Question...

Yay! :-D Another question!

It would seem to me that during the course of your involvement in your current lifestyle, you might run across someone at work, close to you, or even a casual encounter that knows about your blog. Other than the people that do currently know, what would happen if this situation came to pass? Or has it already and how did you handle it?

Honestly the only person who does know about my blog that I also know in real life is Master. Well, I met Kaya once too and of course she knows about the blog. *laughs*

I've never really worried about this particular situation. If you stumble across this blog, and you actually took the time to read it instead of going, "Oh my fucking god what is this?!" and click off the page right away, then you're most likely into the same things I am, or at least similar things. So um, yeah. *laughs* If someone I knew brought it up to me I wouldn't be embarressed, because in a way they would be "outing" themselves as well.

Plus, what I do in my private life, as long as it does not directly effect my job, is really no one's business. That's if a coworker were to talk to me about it of course. I'm not hurting anyone.

In regards to someone close to me, I don't really know what I would do. I can imagine if some of our friends stumbled across this they would flip their lid. And I would hear lectures, I'm sure from them. But then, I don't need that person in my life if they want to slam me for something that doesn't involve them.

Family? Oh man. I'd be embarrsed mainly due to the sexual nature/pictures. Who wants their parents to see them naked? *shudders* I don't want my parents stumbling across this, but I don't really have to worry about it. My father doesn't have a computer. My mother? Well, she does have a computer but she uses it mainly to check her e-mails. I think my mother-in-law would have a heart attack or try and get me exorcised or something. And then she would probably blame me for corrupting her son. Which is a fucking hilarious thought. If it didn't go that way, then she would blame Master for corrupting me, which of course He has but I enjoyed it. ;-)

A casual encounter? Hm. I'd probably be a little freaked out unless it was in that sort of setting (like a munch or something) or they said, "Hey I'm "so and so" and I've commented on your blog!" If I recognized the nickname I'd probably be like, "Oh cool! Nice to meet you!" But other wise I'd have red flags and alarms going off in my head. "Stranger danger! Aaaahhhh!!!" *giggles*

It has not happened. No one has ever brought up my blog. Well, okay Kaya and her Master did but um.. that was to be expected. When I met Kaya I remember sitting there going, "She's seen me naked, among other things." But it didn't bother me. I've seen her naked too. ;-)

Answers

Okay so here it is. Time to start answering some questions. :-D

Who brought up D/s subject first? Were you already into it and just found out that you both were after you started seeing each other?

Well, it was something we just kind of fell into to be perfectly honest. We were dating for a little while (it all seemed to happen rather quickly) and we were discussing things that interested us both, sexually speaking. And He brought up light bondage and I said that that had always interested me as well. Based on that small little tid bit, we then started talking about how it seemed I naturally was submitting to Him and He was picking up on that and so becoming more Dominant towards me. So we basically talked about it together. I think He initially brought it up as far as bondage goes, but as far as the D/s and then the transition to M/s it was a mutual exploration. Neither of us had been in this type of relationship before and so we started looking into it on the internet and kind of went, "So that's what we've been doing." *laughs* And it just sort of progressed from there. :-)

Also, can we see a picture of your Husband? I have always been curious.

Yes you can. :-) Master has a page on His blog with various pictures of Himself. You can find it here. He is usually behind the camera, so pictures of Him are somewhat rare. Thankfully He couldn't get out of it at our wedding. ;-)

I am wondering how you met your Master? And to indulge my more romantic side….when was the moment you knew this was the relationship for you?

I met Master through a chat room. Sappy huh? *giggles* We were in a chat room and honestly we found each other annoying and He would threaten to kill me and I would threaten to kill Him, you know. The usual flirting. Seriously though, the whole death threat thing was all fun and games. We would from time to time have serious discussions. When I say we found each other annoying I mean that sometimes I would put Him on "ignore" and sometimes He would put me on "ignore" cause well, we were just annoying one another that day. I have no idea why, and can't remember specifics. But from that point we realized that quite a few of us in the chat room lived in or around Wisconsin. So a group of us decided to meet up at a mall. Well Master and a friend of His outside of chat were there first. I showed up second. So we sat down and talked and basically it was the whole immediate lust thing. Others from the chat room showed up later on and we all hung out for a while. I was to chicken shit to walk up to Him and ask for His number in front of everyone, and apparently so was He. Although He talked about my ass the entire ride home to His friend. *laughs*

Later that night we privately messaged and exchanged numbers and decided to meet up. We went to dinner a few days later, went to a park, and then... a hotel room. We started out as "fuck buddies" and then realized shortly there after that we really enjoyed our time together and loved one another so we started dating. And now here we are. :-)

In regards to how I knew this was the relationship for me, I'm assuming you mean how I knew Master was the one I wanted to be with always. Well, that happened rather quickly. We were dating less than a year and I knew that I loved Him very much and couldn't see my life without Him in it. I don't really know how to explain how I knew. I would become very sad if I couldn't see Him or talk to Him. We talked constantly. I loved the way He made/makes me feel and who I am when I am with Him. It was just one of those things where I woke up one day and went, "I don't ever want to be without this man." And I haven't been. :-)

If I have understood you right, both of you are follow the North-American Indian Path as a religion. (Although I am not quite sure from what tribe as there were a multitude of different religions all over North-America). From what I understand, respect of nature, animals and only taking what you need from it and living sustainable is a big part of that. So how is your take on industrial meat and the environmental issue, according to your spiritual belief?

I am curious about this since I myself find nothing wrong with killing and eating an animal as that is how the nature works, but I do have a problem with the way animals are treated and exploited in the meat industry - which is neither sustainable nor respectful towards the animal and nature in general - so I was wondering what your thoughts on this were.

You are correct, my Master and I follow the Medicine Path. We are both part Blackfeet. Hell of a coincidence isn't it? I am going to try and not go on a tirade with my answer, so forgive me if I babble.

In regards to the environmental situation, it sickens me when I see beautiful fields and wooded areas being destroyed to build more fucking condos. Especially when right across the street there are already condos that are mostly empty. For fucks sake buy a house or condo that is already built, you don't have to build one. We bitch and moan, "Oh my god the animals are coming into our neighborhoods! They are such pests. What are we gonna do?!" Um, no asshole. You came into their neighborhood. You're the one who decided to clear that land and claim it for yourself. They are the ones running out of places to go to "stay out of our way" not the other way around.

In regards to the meat industry, I eat meat. That is the way of nature. Animals eat other animals. However, I am all about the humane treatment of animals. And yes I know, you're killing them to eat them and killing isn't exactly a humane thing to do. But that doesn't mean you have to make their entire exsistance absolutley miserable. I also do not agree with testing products on animals. Another thing that I do not agree with is people who hunt and do not actually eat the animal. Then why the fuck did you kill the poor thing?! Fuck!

Not to mention all the people who keep breeding animals when there are so many animals being put to sleep every single day, who need loving homes. That's a whole different rant though.

How did you and Trickster handle family asking you about your childbearing choices?

We didn't. *laughs* We basically told our families, "We're not having children." I think that some of the family members may not have believed it until I had my tubal ligation done. No one really protested it or tried to convince us otherwise. It was fairly simple. "Nope. No kids."

There were of course a few questions of, "Are you sure?" but that was mainly from our friends, not our families. And then there is the one couple that we hang out with that said, "Well what would you do if you did get pregnant?" We basically told them that we would handle it when and if that happened.

Now, since my tubal ligation, it would have to be abortion, because it would most likely be a tubal pregnancy which could kill me.

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Okay I think that was all of them so far. If I missed one I am very sorry, please let me know and I will answer it of course. :-)

March Question Month

I totally spaced on this. I did this last year and had a blast!

What reminded me of this was when I was reading Danae's blog, and she did a post about it.

The rules are simple. You can ask me any question by leaving a comment here on the blog and I will answer it in a post. There are a few exceptions. I will not give out my real name, my mailing address, phone number, or the name of the place I work. This is due to privacy concerns and Master will not allow it.

This will go on for the entire month of March. I will keep up with the questions as best I can. :-)