Bummed Out

I've been rather blah the past few days. I'm not depressed or anything, just down. I've kept Master updated on it of course. He tells me what I already know. He tells me that my pills aren't a cure all and that I'll still have days where I have a particular mood and I won't know or understand why. Yes, I already know that but it's still nice to hear Him say it. It's nice to have Him reassure me.

I know that people don't always know why they have the mood they do. But I get kind of paranoid about it. I've been diagnosed for about two years now and still I'm paranoid about it. Am I acting rationally? Am I over reacting to something that doesn't even matter?

I don't cycle like I use to though. If I do cycle it's no where near as severe as it was a few years ago.

I just hate feeling bummed out like I have been. Having sex perks my mood right up though. *laughs* Although that's really nothing new.

Last night was incredible. And I fell asleep with a smile on my face. I woke up in a good mood as well. But as they day has gone on I just feel kind of bummed out. No real rhyme or reason to it.

Oh well, it has to end sometime.