Sex Drive

Last night was a lot of fun. We started watching that porno we picked up on Friday. We had owned it before, but love the series so wanted to pick it up again. We got through about two scenes before deciding to turn it off and head to the bedroom. He chewed on my neck for a while before slowly making His way down to eat me out.

There was something about the way He was fingering me while massaging my clit with His tongue that just completely lit me up from one nerve ending to the other. It didn't take long before I felt a burst of pleasure flood through me and then my orgasm peaked. He allowed me to catch my breath for a moment as He wiped His fingers off on my chest.

He put me on all fours and was pretty rough with me. As I said all my nerve endings were awake and so I was sensitive to absolutely every little thing He was doing. The way the head of His cock was hitting me just right. The way His fingers dug into my skin as He gripped my hips. The way His balls were spanking my clit every time He was slammed into me. That is such a delicious sensation, which is only heightened by the fact that I have a vertical clit hood piercing.

Have I mentioned how grateful I am that I'm able to get off many times during sex? I don't just mean the fact that Master allows it, but just that I am physically able to do so. I've heard of women who are just able to get off once and then that's it. I can't imagine that.

Anyway, after He had filled me with His cum we went back out to the living room for a couple of hours to relax and talk. I think it was about 4am when we finally decided to go to bed. It wasn't until that point that either of us actually felt tired.

That doesn't mean we actually wanted to sleep though. We haven't been fucking a lot lately. Stress and my being tired and/or not feeling well has put a damper on it, unfortunately. But this weekend has been 95% care and stress free. As a result our sex drive has been up and we're taking full advantage of it.

This time it was a bit slower. It was less rough for the most part. It was a little out of the ordinary for us. It wasn't quite "making love" but it was about as close as we get to it. It was wonderful.

This time we were both very tired afterward. We curled up to go to sleep. When He put His arm around me I slipped my arm down a little bit and slipped it under His hand. He wrapped His fingers around my wrist and snuggled up closer before we drifted off to sleep.

Perfect & Relaxing

Master and I had a wonderful day today. It's not like we did anything really romantic or anything like that. But there was just something about today that made it seem... perfect in an odd way. I'm sure that as I describe our day most people will read it and go... Really? Perfect? And yes, it seemed that way.

Lately our weekends have been one of two things. One being just sitting around the apartment and basically doing a whole lot of nothing. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that. And we've both enjoyed it. But it's been quite some time since we actually went out and did anything aside from basic errands. The other being family stuff. Again, nothing wrong with that and I've enjoyed it a lot. But it's just the fact that it's been either one or the other with nothing in between for so long. We were overdue for just a day of doing random shit and just being out and about with one another without doing a specific errand.

We were both up and about earlier than we usually are on a Saturday. And while we were waking up Master asked me what I wanted to do. I suggested that we just go bumming around. He was cool with that. So after a little while we headed out.

We had been talking about possibly replacing a rug in the living room, so we went to a local store. Now, rather than doing what we normally do we actually just kind of walked around and browsed. We are the kind of people that if we go into a store we are there for specific things and we get those and get out. We don't look around.

We didn't find a rug we liked, but we did pick up some random stuff. We bought three DVDs and one of them is the director's cut of The Exorcist! *happy dance*

We had walked by some really kick ass men's t-shirts and I pointed out one to Master. He ended up finding two that He really liked and that were in His size. But, while we were in that section I found two shirts that I wanted. Yes, they are men's shirts. But they had some really kick ass designs on them and they had them in mediums. I was going to pass on it but Master told me to go ahead and get them. I was going to pass well, because they are guy shirts. But He pointed out that I wear His shirts all the time. True enough there. So we both got some really kick ass t-shirts today.

After we checked out we decided to go to a pet store down the street to see if they had a dog backpack. They had them.. and the kind we were looking for.. but there was no way we were going to pay what they were charging for them. No way in hell. So we passed on that. We did browse again but didn't find anything. We did get to see a very beautiful parrot though that immediately said hello to us when we walked past. He was adorable. Too bad we don't have $1,700 to buy him and then whatever a good cage would cost.

We came home after that and sat out on our porch with the mutt for about a half hour. It was getting close to dinner time so we tried to figure out what we wanted to eat. That's when we said fuck it and headed out to Applebee's. It's been an extremely long time since we went to a sit down restaurant as just the two of us. When we go out to eat it's normally with one or more people from His side of the family. It's just easier to get everyone together since we are all kind of scattered in three different counties. And when it's just the two of us it's just easier to either eat at home or get something delivered or go through drive-thru.

Dinner was so nice. The food was awesome, the service was amazing and we just had a really good time. After dinner we just came home and have been relaxing ever since. Later on tonight we plan on watching that porno we picked up yesterday. I'm a very, very happy girl today.

Good Start to the Weekend

Today after work I stopped off at home just long enough to pick up Master and call my dad to let him know we were heading down. We had fun while we were there. We took some more pictures for my dad's eBay stuff and shot the shit for a while.

After we left I dropped Master back off at home so he could take the dog out and feed him while I ran out and got dinner. It just seemed a lot easier to get drive thru rather than going out to a sit down restaurant or hitting the grocery store. I mean, we have food in the house, but we had both agreed that none of it really sounded all that great. So fuck it. Fast food it is.

After dinner we were trying to figure out what to do so I suggested that we go sit out on the porch for a while as the weather was finally nice enough to do so. It's been so up and down lately. Tonight it was really nice out so I'm glad we sat outside for a a bit.

While we were out there Master had mentioned taking the dog for a walk tomorrow and that immediately made me remember that we wanted to get him a little doggy backpack so he could feel like he had a job or a mission while he is on his longer walks. And with that thought, we decided to go to the pet store and see what they had.

Well, they had a dog backpack but it wasn't really what we were looking for. It looked like two very small saddlebags attached by nylon. We are looking for the kind of back pack that actually lays across his back and has bags on the side of it to put water bottles and things of that nature.

That was a bust. We didn't really feel like driving to a different pet store tonight though, so we put that idea on the back burner.

And just to show that we have fucked up thought processes, while we were out we decided to go to the porn store. It's been a while since we bought a new porno, so hey.. why not. I'm sure we'll watch it later this weekend, if we don't pop it in tonight.

It's been a good Friday.

Stress? What Stress?

Sometimes I just need a small gentle push for my mood to change. I'm not referring to my being bipolar. I'm talking about normal day to day bullshit that absolutely everyone, who isn't independently wealthy, deals with. The stresses of work, of traffic, of just general fucking bullshit. Today I was experiencing more of those as usual and as a result I got ticked off and stressed the fuck out.

I got a hold of Master on my lunch break and He calmed me down. He let me do a quick rant and then in a very calm way told me it was okay. That shit happens. That there is no use in stressing out about shit that is out of my control.

It's amazing how many times He has told me those exact words in the past decade. And yet, in the heat of the moment, I always forget them. It doesn't help that I'm one of those "worst case scenario" people. If it can go wrong, it will go wrong.

I'm not that way all the time. But when stress starts to weigh down on me, yeah.. my mind goes there. Fun for me!

I was able to calm down. It was a lot better when I got home and got a nice long hug from Master.

It looks like next week is going to be a lot like last week. My supervisor approved me for 7.5 hours of overtime. *wide eyed* So it looks like I'll be getting there early as fuck all week. I'm going to tell the passenger in my carpool on Friday. Whether or not he decides to ride to work with me.. well... that's his problem.

I'm really glad that the weekend isn't that far off anymore. We are going to go down to see my dad on Friday. Other than that I have no idea what we're doing this weekend. I do know that there are few odds and ends we have to pick up that and go grocery shopping but other than that.. no clue.

Master gave me a nice long back massage tonight while we watched Fright Night. And now I'm just doing my blog post and listening to a couple of songs on the computer with my ear buds. Music is a great escape. A mental mini vacation.

I really don't know how I would get along without Master. He always calms me down when I need it. He doesn't just pick me up when I fall... He catches me when I'm about to.

Small Rant

Today I woke up with a small headache at the base of my neck. Okay, whatever. I'll just pop a couple of aspirin and it'll go away before lunch. Apparently, I was wrong about that though.

As soon as I got under those damn florescent lights my headache got worse. It was no longer just at the back of my neck. It was wrapping around to my temples like a vice grip. This also caused my eyes to hurt. And when the migraine gets to that point my eyes become light sensitive. And I sit right below a string of those fucking florescent lights. I was started to consider going home. I was starting to feel a little sick to my stomach from the pain in my head. But I pushed it off. Maybe I'll feel better after my lunch break. I can go outside and get out from under those lights. Plus, I could wear my sunglasses. Not to mention some fresh air might help.

But it didn't take long into my lunch break for me to realize that the aspirin wasn't kicking in at all. Never mind I had already popped more shortly into getting to work. The fresh air felt good and my eyes didn't hurt nearly as much being outside with sunglasses. But that ick feeling in my stomach wasn't going away and the throbbing in my head wasn't slacking off either.

I tried to call Master but He didn't pick up. So I sent him a text message to let Him know how I was feeling and that I would be leaving early. I didn't even ask the passenger in my carpool whether or not he wanted to leave. I just simply sent him an e-mail saying that I was leaving two hours early and if he wanted to I would still drop him off.

Normally I ask him and base my decision on that. Why? Well, gas money is a large part of it. If I don't give him the ride then I don't get part of that gas money, obviously. The other part is because I am trying to be a nice person so he doesn't have to scramble to find a different way home.

But honestly, I am getting sick of the whole carpool bullshit. I hate having to work around his schedule/preferences. For instance, if I want to/need to go into work early I have to hold back because he doesn't want to leave that early. That's when the whole, well I need the gas money thing comes into play.

I have talked to both my mom and Master about it and they both understand that I need the gas money but they also see how frustrated I'm getting now that I'm swamped and am staying swamped. I don't know. It's not really feasible to drop him yet simply because gas is so expensive. I could try to find a way to make sure I can cover what he would normally give me, but I'm not sure yet.

Anyway, I dropped him off and then dropped off our rent check since it was on the way home. By the time I got home I just felt shitty as hell. Master asked me what I wanted to do and I said I didn't really care. I think He had a feeling that I would pass out at some point so He just started playing His video game. I wrapped myself in my throw blanket to get comfortable and then the dog and I both took a long nap on the couch. It's a good thing we can both fit on it. It helps that I'm petite as he is a pretty big dog.

Master woke me up right before He started cooking dinner. It felt a lot better, especially after I ate. My headache is gone now. There is still tension in my neck and shoulders. That's part of my problem is that if I feel pain in one area of my body it doesn't take long for it to settle in my "usual" areas. That would be my neck, shoulders and lower back.

Nice Slow Walk

You know, it's kind of weird. Master and I get a lot of time together, in all honesty. I mean we see each other every night after work and we see each other every weekend for, normally, the entire day. Lately a lot of that weekend time has been eaten up with family stuff. I'm honestly not complaining. It's just that as a result, we have time together but we don't really do a lot with it.

Normally by the weekend Master and I are just wanting to laze about the apartment unless we go visit family. It doesn't help that the weather hasn't been the greatest lately either, so we haven't even really been able to go sit on our porch.

Today though we decided fuck it, let's go for a longer walk with the mutt. It wasn't nice enough to hop in the car and go to the park for it or go down by the lake. It was actually somewhat cool out. So instead, we just went for a normal walk around where we live.

We took turns handling the leash. My turn wasn't all that long honestly. But it didn't matter. We got to talk and just enjoy walking with our dog while we did so. I mean, we can easily talk in the apartment, but this way we get out of the apartment and get some exercise while we do so.

At the point where we decided to turn around there was a small grouping of mom and pop shops. Nice small family owned businesses. In that small grouping was a mom and pop ran cafe. We obviously couldn't stop in with the dog but man did the food smell good. So Master and I decided that one day when it's nicer out we'll walk down there without the dog and eat there.

We could easily just take the car, but a nice slow walk together before and after will be nice.

Our walk today was nice. I really enjoyed it.

Right before I hopped on the computer to do my blog post I suggested we look into movies that would be playing this weekend. I looked them up and honestly there is nothing playing that we are willing to pay to go see rather than just waiting for it to go to Netflix.

Yes, we want a date night but there is no fun in it if it's not something we really want to see. I guess those plans will have to wait. Although we found out that Riddick is coming out in September so we will be going to the movie theater to see that.

I guess we'll have to figure out something else for date night.

Stagnant

I feel like I'm treading water. So many things are just.. stagnant. I'm still looking for a new job. No luck so far. The only companies contacting me so far are insurance and realty companies. I'm no good at sales. No good at all. Add to that the fact that we can not afford for one of us to be doing a commissions only job. No fucking thank you on that one.

As a result, I'm nervous every day I go into work. It's weird really. I mean I haven't done anything wrong. I have no direct reaction from my job to make me feel like my head is on the chopping block. It's just a feeling I have. I had this feeling at my last job, which is why I hopped on over to where I am now. And it's honestly not because I am hiding something or waiting to get in trouble. It's just the fact that it's at will employment (like every other job that has no contract) and they can fire me with absolutely no reason what so ever.

And honestly, up until recently I felt very safe at my job. I felt secure. But since the mumblings of not having money in the budget for a million and one things and them firing more people in a two month time period than I've seen at any point in my four years there... yeah. Not a good sensation. My review still hasn't been done. It was due back in March. We are now in June. And it doesn't look like it's going to happen anytime soon. One of the trainers in my department told me yesterday that she hasn't had her review yet either and her's was due back in fucking December. I really hate that shit. Ya know? I come to work everyday and I do what I'm supposed to do. So why is it that I have to wait forever and a day to get a couple hours of time to get my performance review and hopefully some kind of raise.

Yes, I know what I just said about not having a budget, but they have confirmed that we are not on a pay freeze. And while, yes, I am looking for a different job making a little more while I'm still there would be nice. Normally I would just shoot an e-mail off to my supervisor very politely asking for a status update on my review, but right now I don't feel comfortable enough to do that. I don't want it to seem like I'm fishing for more money, even though I am.

There are no moving plans in sight. There probably won't be for quite some time. I know that Master wants to move just as badly as I do, but we have to be smart about it and right now it's just now feasible.

Some good news though.. Master and I plan on having a date night at some point this month. We haven't had an actual date night in forever. Dinner and a movie sounds good. Master suggested that. What movie? No idea. Hell, I don't even know what's playing right now. Hopefully there will be something we actually want to watch. Otherwise it'll be dinner and whatever the fuck we figure out before or after it.