Too Long

Last night Master and I were trying to think of something to do. While doing so I asked if He wanted to watch a porno. He shrugged and said sure why not. I pulled out all of the dvds we have, which honestly aren't all that many, and asked Him to pick one out. I normally choose but He doesn't really care but I had already asked if I could go use the bathroom so I figured that maybe He would pick one out. He did. But not the way I thought. He simply stacked them all in a pile and picked the one on top. *laughs* It ended up being one where it is predominately anal sex. In fact one of the first scenes in it is a chick taking a baseball bat sized dildo up her ass after basically being fisted in the ass. That scene always makes me cringe. Master said that she must be made out of elastic. He's probably right.

Anyway, we both got undressed and curled up under the covers while we watched it. The next scene wasn't quite as horrifying and Master was kind enough to fast forward through most of the first scene anyway. Like I said, the entire dvd is mainly anal sex. We haven't done that in a long time. Longer than it should be. So I turned my head a bit and asked Him if He would like to try anal. He said, "You don't have to ask me twice."

And that started it off. He almost immediately moved my hair off to the side and just started chewing on my neck and shoulder. Sometimes He would dig His teeth in and actually pull backwards so that my entire shoulder moved back with Him. I do have to say I have very pretty bruises from it today.

Once He was done biting me He gently turned me over onto my stomach. After He entered me He asked me if I wanted the dvd to keep playing. I told Him that I didn't care so He reached over my head where the remote was and turned it off.

He commented on how dripping wet I already was. Biting like that will do that to me. He fucked me deep and slow, allowing me to cum several times. After I was nice and deep into my sub space He pulled out and told me to get the lube.

Well, the lube we normally use was still packed away. (Like I said, it has been too long.) But I had another one accessible. We had never tried it before but I opened it up and handed it to Him. I also grabbed my vibrator to use on my clit since that seems to help a lot when He is first sliding His cock into my ass.

He lubed both of us up and I put the vibrator to my clit. He tried to start slow but all of a sudden the head of His dick slid in and it hurt like hell. It felt like there was no lube there what so ever. I dropped the vibrator and Master immediately pulled out. I knew that He had lubed both of us up really well because He always does. The problem was that the lube dried out almost as soon as He was done putting it on. As soon as the pain stopped, which thankfully didn't take that long I hopped off the bed and went digging through my suitcase. Master was kneeling there wondering what the hell I was doing but finally I found it! I know how not sexy it was to just watch me digging around looking for something especially when it took as long as it did but damn it I was on a mission! As soon as I found it I handed it to Him and He lubed both of us back up again.

Round two!

And thankfully His cock slide in without much more than a small wince from me. I literally got off as soon as He slid halfway into my ass. He went very slowly at first. Very gentle. But from past experiences I knew that since it had been such a long time that I wouldn't be able to stay relaxed for very long. I told Him this and He said, "So what I am hearing is to fuck your ass hard." I nodded my head and He had absolutely no problem doing so. It felt amazing but it hurt a bit at the same time. I got off again and I didn't even need the vibrator against my clit that time.

He asked me, "Do you want cum up your ass slut?"

My response sounded desperate, at least to me, "Yes Master please cum in my ass. It's been too long."

As soon as those words were out of my mouth I felt His cock throbbing and I heard that familiar and wonderful growl coming from deep in His throat. It was intense in a very good way.

Today I told Master that I would like to try anal again soon. I know that my body has to get used to it. It really does. And it can't if it only happens once every six months. Master wants to push my body enough so that I can "handle it" for a longer period of time but He doesn't want me lying to Him and possibly hurting myself by not letting Him know when it really hurts.

Preview

You know how you can see something in porn but then still wonder what the hell it looks like when you're doing it? Yeah.

That's pretty much why I was curious as to what it looked like when Master was fucking my ass. He knew what it looked like, obviously. He literally has front row seats after all. But not me. My face is down resting on a pillow or the mattress. So far, I've found that it's the easiest position for me to relax during anal sex. I know we'll be switching it up eventually. And we have been playing with it a little here and there but only after I've relaxed fully.

It's taking some time but Master agrees with me when I say that all of a sudden I have made a lot of progress in that area in a short period of time. It was like a whole lot of getting me there mentally and once I was there.. boom. We were good. In fact since that time I haven't asked Him to stop the minute He starts sliding His cock into my ass. Maybe I'll ask Him to wait a minute to to add some more lube but I don't immediately throw in the towel if my body doesn't relax immediately.

Now that I've reached that place mentally everything else is sliding into place. No pun intended. I'm having orgasms during it, it's lasting a lot longer without my begging for Him to hurry up and finish, things of that nature.

Well, yesterday Master was able to snap some photos and He is allowing me to post a couple here, on this post. Yes, I know that I will be allowed to add a page of photos soon but I still felt the need to ask Him if I could put these in an actual post. Probably because He said it was okay for a separate page, rather than a post.

So here goes... (Note: Master was trying not to get lube on the camera and so if it seems a little blurred or whatever, that's why.)

So there you go... pictures of Master fucking my ass. I'm sure you are all very, very happy to see these pictures. *laughs*

I know Master loves them. And I really enjoy them too. I know there will be more in the future. Master is ever the shutter bug of perverted stuff we do.

A New View

Over the course of the past almost 10 years of our relationship Master has taken many, many pictures. Some of them we have lost over the years since we have gone through a few computer crashes/computers in that time span. But we still have a good collection.

However, there is one picture Master has never gotten before. He has never taken a picture while fucking my ass. We have pictures of me blowing Him and pictures of His cock filling my pussy, but none of His thick cock fucking my ass. Well, today that has been corrected. We had talked about trying it recently and I had brought it up again two days ago I believe. So late this evening we decided to head off to the bedroom. We were both feeling frisky.

I grabbed a towel and He grabbed the camera. My favorite vibrator and the lube were already on the headboard. I had turned on the lamp when I came in the room.

He got close to me and started biting my neck as I stroked His cock. He molested my tits before kneeling up so I could stroke His cock more and He could finger me. It wasn't long before He flipped me over and licked my asshole for a while, trying to get me to relax more. It helped.

He then ate me out. My orgasm was intense as hell. He allowed me to cum three more times by fucking my pussy. I was already tender there from earlier this morning, so it didn't take long. He slowly pulled out and had me get comfortable. So I got one my knees and bent over. Master lubed me up and snapped a couple of quick pictures of Him doing that. He set the camera down long enough to lube Himself up. I placed the vibrator on my clit and He started to enter me.

Almost immediately my body clenched up. I think the angle was wrong. So Master froze. I tried to just breathe and get comfortable but it continued to clench up. So Master pulled out. I think He believed that was that. But I wanted to try again. This time we adjusted a little bit and the angle was a lot more comfortable. It took a moment for me to get completely relaxed but it's not taking as long as it use to. But once I did there was no pain at all and I was able to get into it more.

He fucked my ass for a little while, then slowed down, and grabbed the towel to wipe His hands off before picking up the camera again. I believe He took about four or five more pictures. I was a little surprised that He didn't take more. But as He set the camera down He said, "Now to give your ass My undivided attention."

It felt great. I had a good four or five more orgasms both with and without the vibrator on my clit.

He had slipped out twice. We were both sweating, my pussy had been sopping wet before He even started fucking and then of course there was lube. So there had been a couple of times where He had went to adjust His weight of position and He had slipped out.

There used to be a time when if He slipped out that was it. It wasn't going in my ass again because it would iris shut immediately. But each time He was able to just slip right back in, with little to no resistance. That felt amazing. Just feeling His whole cock slide into my tight ass without any moment of hesitation. 

He asked me if I felt up to Him "raping" my ass. (We have a position that we do that we refer to as the rape position.) I answered honestly and said I didn't know. He knew the thought turned me on though and He said as much.

So He took the decision from me and had me lay on my stomach and put me in the "rape" position. It felt a lot different and made me more sensitive but I was relaxed enough so that it didn't hurt. When I'm in that position I am not allowed to cum. This was a pretty good test since I cannot really control my orgasms during anal. I had slipped so far into my sub space by that point though that I wouldn't have been able to get off if I wanted to.

I'm not sure why but when I'm deep in sub space I cannot get off. It still feels amazing. It feels absolutely incredible, but it's like that part of me shuts off.

He slipped out one last time as He knelt up to move His leg. He leaned over me and said that He wasn't sure my body could take much more and suggested that maybe He should just go clean up and we finish with Him fucking my pussy again. I insisted that He tried one more time. He did and sure as hell it slipped right back in with no discomfort.

My legs were shaking. My entire nervous system was electrified and I was flying high. He fucked my ass hard and He talked dirty to me almost the entire time. I eventually begged for His cum. I could feel my body starting to reach that point of sensistivity that it would overload my system to the point of it being painful.

He made me wait a little longer after that before He finally shot His cum into my ass and I felt His cock throbbing as He did so.

After He pulled out He told me that there was no mess, so I didn't have to worry about I got up. We were both drenched in sweat. I had felt His sweat dripping all over me when He was fucking me. That is incredibly hot to me. We caught our breath for a moment and He hopped in the shower while I cleaned up using the sink.

Master showed me the pictures. I really, really like them. I have obviously seen what a cock in an ass looks like. But because we never had any pictures of it before I had never seen His cock in my ass. It's fucking hot.

Now to spend the rest of the night enjoying the after glow. I am still in my sub space. I will be tomorrow as well. Every time He fucks me in the ass I am in my sub space for at least a day. Sometimes as many as three.

I do know He is proud of me though. Hell, I'm proud of myself.

The only down side to anal is that I can't really get immediate aftercare because we both have to clean up. But tonight after His shower Master was still extremely hot and so would have been very uncomfortable holding me. He apologized for it and I said it was okay. I know I'll get cuddles and hugs later.

That turned me on even more. He fucked my ass good and hard.

Fuck My Ass

I had told Master earlier in the week that I was in the mood for trying anal this weekend. Yes, I continue to use the word try. I think it mentally helps me to stay relaxed about it and not get so anxious. As if I were to say do You want to have anal sex this weekend it makes me feel like it has to happen regardless of what my body says. And yes, I know, Master would understand and would not push the subject at all. He is very patient with me in regards to this and extremely understanding. He told me it's because it is in His best interest to keep me comfortable about such things. Yes, He could just bend me over and fuck my ass and I could cry and beg Him to stop and due to our dynamic He could override that request unless He knew I was actually injured.

But He doesn't just want to fuck my ass. Oh no. That wonderful Master of mine wants me to enjoy it every time it happens. Which is the exact reason why He allows me to cum at will during anal sex. Now that I've experienced an orgasm while He's fucking my ass I have to say it is extremely intense and hits me very suddenly. The first time it happened I could barely breathe out the word Master. Thankfully He quickly said yes before the orgasm started.

Last night we were watching porn and there is a lot of anal in the one we were watching. So I just looked at Him and asked if He wanted to try tomorrow. He smiled and said "Sure." As if the man is going to turn that down.

Today we have spent most of the day just being very lazy and I was loving every minute of it. Then came a time where we just weren't sure what to do so I suggested watching more of that porno. He shrugged, said sure why not.

We got through maybe two scenes before we decided to go back to the bedroom.

I stroked His cock while He molested my tits. He then slid down, had me slide up and ate me out until I had a nice small build up to an orgasm.

Before I could fully catch my breath He was wrapping His arm around my waist and flipping me so I was on all fours. He slid His cock into my already dripping wet pussy. I was still swollen from yesterday. After the second orgasm I asked if we could try anal. So He pulled out and took off one of His rings that tends to slip off His finger when His hand has lube on it. While He did that and grabbed the lube bottle I grabbed my favorite vibrator and got back into position. Ass in the air and face to the mattress.

I started the vibrator on low and placed it on my clit. He lubed us both up and slowly started to enter my ass. I winced a little bit. He heard my quick intake of breath and stopped moving. He was still holding the base of His cock. I quickly grabbed the lube (by the way I am loving the fact that our lube bottle has a pump rather than a cap) and slid my hand underneath me so I could put more lube on the underside of His cock.

He then slowly continued to push His thick cock into my tight asshole. I then asked Him to please put more lube on the top of His dick. So He paused and did exactly that.

I put the vibe back on my clit and it instantly helped me relax. Before I knew it I got off and got off hard. It was then that I felt how relaxed I actually was and Master moaned and called me a good girl for opening up for Him.

That helped me relax even more. I put the vibrator down and simply enjoyed the sensation of every movement of His cock. Every motion. Every twitch. It was incredible. He did slip out once. He quickly slid back in. I winced a little bit, not as badly as when He first entered me though. My only reaction was to grab the vibe again and get off once more. After that I was fine. More than fine actually. It wasn't long after that, that I got off again simply from Him fucking my ass, no vibrator.

He continued to praise me. Every moan He made and every shudder of pure enjoyment I felt only heightened everything I was already feeling, in a very body tingling way.

As I felt Him getting closer to cumming I was on my way there as well. So I started to beg. I wanted to get off with Him. I really did.

"Please Master I need Your cum in my ass."

"Master, please pump Your cum into me."

It was the second one that tipped Him over the edge, combined with the fact that I had started to cum as well. He dug His nails into my back, putting more pressure on me as He did so. That caused Him to go even deeper into my ass which I, at that moment, didn't even think was possible.

We both gasped at the same time and peaked together.

I was shaking a little bit as was He. He very slowly pulled out and collapsed next to me. I rested on my stomach. We caught our breath and then went to clean up.

Once we were back in the living room we were both grinning like fools. He told me that He's proud of me and that I'll be a butt slut in no time.

Picture Perfect

Master plans on taking pictures later. After my shower and the dog and rabbits are settled He wants me to put on a particular lingerie outfit so He can take pictures of me in it. We haven't done any pictures lately and I know how much He enjoys it. I do too, most of the time. *laughs*

He also eventually wants to take pictures of Him fucking my ass. I asked Him how we're going to do that since lube is involved. His answer was very simple. I would lube both of us up and He would simply handle the camera. That way His hands stay lube free. That's fine. I have absolutely no problem lubing both of us up but... I'm not sure how I'm going to get His cock in. Right now I pretty much rely on Him lining things up and pushing forward. If I need Him to He'll stop and hold still until I relax more. Once that is all said and done and I'm more relaxed fine. But I'm not sure how I'll be able to do all that by myself.

For me the easiest position is doggy style with me bowed down in front of Him. That's pretty much what we've stuck to since we're still trying to get me fully relaxed a little more quickly. He also wants me to eventually ride Him while He's in my ass. That sounds fun too but going to take some practice and for me to relax just a tad bit more.

I'm making a lot of progress with anal but I'm not quite there all the way just yet.

So I don't know how the whole taking pictures during anal sex is going to work. We definitely do not want to fuck up the camera by accidentally getting lube all over it, but I'm not sure how all of it is going to work without Master using His hands at all. *shrugs* We'll have to figure it out because Master really wants those pictures and to be perfectly honest I would like them too so I can see what it looks like when He takes my ass. I think it would be pretty hot to see.

I love the pictures we have of Him fucking me while I'm on all fours so I'm sure that ones of Him taking my ass from that angle would be even hotter.

Tap That Ass

Last night while Master was eating me out He fingered my ass and I was able to relax immediately. There was no real discomfort. Master commented on that afterward because we are still in the anal training stage. I didn't feel pressured or anything along those lines. It was more of a "Ya know what? You're right."

I was thinking about last night while I was at work. I tend to do that sometimes. If we have really great sex the night before I tend to think about it the next day at work at some point. Well, as a result I was thinking about the sex last night and that comment/realization entered my head. So while I was messaging with Master in the afternoon I bought up the fact that I would like to try having anal sex again. I asked Him if He was game. (Stupid question.) And He said definitely. (Exactly what I was expecting His answer to be.)

On the way home I didn't get nervous about it. Sometimes after I mention it earlier in the day I'll start over thinking it. What if it hurts? What if I can't relax? Which of course leads to my body wanting to fight it even more even if my mind wants me to be stubborn and proceed. Not this time. So far so good.

When I got home from work we ate dinner and relaxed for a little while. When I went into the bathroom to brush my hair real quick Master followed me in there and not so subtly hinted at the fact that He wanted to go fool around soon. Not right that minute, but soon. As in within the hour. He doesn't tell me a time frame or anything. I just can normally tell based on the words He is using, the tone of His voice and the look in His eyes.

I responded by giggling and rubbing His cock through His jeans a little bit while smirking.

About a 30 to 40 minutes went by (how did I know?) and He was ordering me to the bedroom. I got in there first and laid down. When He came in He asked if I still wanted my ass played with. I sounded a little nervous when I said yes, I'm sure of it. Why did He ask? I mean He is the Master after all. Well, He had to turn the light on and make sure we knew where the lube is. He leaves the light on in the bedroom if we're having anal sex.

He ate me out for a little while but I didn't get off from it simply because I didn't want to have a really strong orgasm and then be ultra sensitive. I don't know why but when it's a clit stimulated orgasm it's a lot more likely to make me extremely sensitive really fast. That would be counter productive. I sucked His cock for a while and then He had me get on all fours and fucked my pussy until I came a few times. After that He pulled out and grabbed the lube.

I had placed a vibrator on the headboard. This way I could use it on my clit to try and get me to relax if I needed to. So He lubed us both up and started pushing His thick cock up my ass. I did have to ask Him to pull out one time to put more lube on. After that, once He was inside me again I asked Him to stop for a moment. I grabbed more lube and reached back putting more on the underside of His cock. He then started to slowly fuck my ass. I  grabbed my vibrator and used it on my clit until I came and I came hard. It was like a shot had gone off. That's how fast and intense it was. After that one orgasm I dropped the vibrator. I was more than relaxed. I was actually greatly enjoying the ass fucking.

Eventually He had me bow down so that my ass was in the air and my head was on the mattress. I had three anal stimulation only orgasms. I am very thankful that Master allows me to get off when I want to during anal sex. Normally I have to wait until He tells me I can or orders me to cum. During anal He just lets me cum when I want to/need to. Why? Well first off they are a really new experience to me. It only happened once before and this time three? Wow. Secondly I can't really control them. They are very sudden and when it hits it's out of no where.

Lately during anal within 10 minutes I'm begging Him to cum because I just can't take it anymore but not this time. He fucked my ass slowly and enjoyed the view. He talked dirty to me and I just simply melted into sub space.

He did slip out a couple of times. Apparently I moved when I didn't even realize I had and that on top of a lot of lube caused Him to slip out. Now, up until today if He slipped out that was pretty much it. My ass would iris shut and there was no way it was relaxing again. Today He was able to slide right in like a hot knife through butter. It was amazing. And each time it happened He praised me even more.

He had me lay on my stomach and pinned me down. After a little while I will fully admit that I started to feel overwhelmed and started begging for His cum. He said no and that now that He had what He wanted He was going to take full advantage of it. That turned me on more to be perfectly honest.

When it did feel like He was getting close to cumming I started to beg again. "Please Master I need Your cum in my ass." I know that it really turns Him on when I beg like that. We both enjoy dirty talk after all. He moved one leg up, pressed down on my shoulder with one hand and my hip with the other and pumped His cum into me.

He cleaned Himself up afterward and when He was done I was still laying on the bed. There was no "mess" aside from the lube and I was still on my stomach. He laid down next to me and called me His butt slut. *giggles*

He has told me repeatedly, after I got cleaned up, that He is very, very proud of me for not only taking it like a good girl and taking it for as long as I did but for also cumming from it. He is thrilled that I am getting off from it as He knows that will only make me want to do it more frequently and the added sensation it gives Him. Not to mention the satisfaction of forcing me to have an orgasm. *laughs*

So, my ass is a little tender but I love the lube we are using now. It lasts a long, long time and isn't sticky. It's more comfortable. That's really the best way I can describe it.

Now? Now I'm out of it and just very relaxed and pleased. He told me at one point that one of the reasons He loves anal so much is because to Him it is the ultimate form of ownership.

As He oh so delicately put it, "If I'm in your ass, I own your ass."

*smirks*

Butt Slut

For the past week one or both of us haven't been feeling well. It's either been my shoulders, my neck, His back, His neck, one of us just not feeling well in general or both not feeling well at the same time. As a result, we haven't fucked in a week.

Well last night I was horny and so was He. He was playing a video game and when I went to take my shower I asked Him if He wanted me to dress up for Him. He said yes. So before I hopped in the shower I picked out some lingerie and put it in the bathroom.

I took a longer shower than usual just to loosen up my shoulders a little bit with the hot water. Once that was done I put on the lingerie I had picked out. It wasn't anything special. It was fishnet stockings that are crotchless and assless. I then tossed on a pair of heels. That was it. Nice and simply. I also put on a little bit of eye shadow. Why? I'm not sure. It was just once I had that on I looked at myself in the mirror and for whatever reason decided that it would be nice to put on a little bit of make-up for Master.

He was still playing His video game when I walked into the living room. As I'm walking down the hallway He is telling me about something that is going on in His game. When He looked up He stopped mid-sentence and said, "Hello there..." I giggled and stood in front of Him. He was very pleased.

A little while later we went to the bedroom. I took the heels off just to make things easier so we wouldn't have to worry about my heels digging into His leg or tearing the sheets or whatever.

He had me lay on my stomach and ate my ass for a little while. It does turn me on but it also relaxes my entire body. I'm not sure why and I don't know if anyone else experiences that, but that's what happens.

The way that He was positioned I was able to use my feet to play with His cock. Neither of us have a foot fetish but every now and then it's kinky and fun.

When He was done He opened one of the three anal toys that I recently purchased. I had asked Him to pick one out because He normally has me do it. So He picked up, put some lube on it and slowly inserted it into my ass. He moved it around a little bit to make sure that I wasn't uncomfortable. He asked me if I wanted Him to fuck me while I had the anal toy in. I of course said yes. This is all part of the training in my eyes.

He started off gently at first. He kissed the top of my head and I nuzzled the side of His face. It was more romantic and erotic and than our usual rough sex but I really enjoyed it. It's a rare treat that we both enjoy every now and then.

However I did reach a point where I asked Him to fuck me harder. He apparently had no problem with that because the minute I asked He started pounding my pussy. It was delicious.

Then I wanted to take it a step further since I had the anal toy in. I asked Him to "rape" me. We have a particular position that we refer to as the "rape" position. Basically I lay on my stomach, His feet and ankles hook under my legs and He pins my wrists to the bed with His hands. This time though He had me prop myself up long enough so He could tuck two pillows under my hips, forcing my ass in the air. It felt amazing. When I am in said position I am no longer allowed to cum. It's all about Him. That doesn't stop me from enjoying the hell out of it though.

After He came He slowly pulled the toy out. Just to be on the safe side, in case some of the lube had dripped down He washed up and so did I. There wasn't any "mess" or anything, we just err on the side of caution. I then cleaned off the toy. Master allowed me to stay up an extra 15 minutes afterward. I had a whole body buzz going and was wired. So He let me sit in the living room with Him for 15 minutes and then I had to go to bed since it was almost 1am already.

I went to sleep very happy. I was surprised that my ass didn't hurt this morning though. I know it was just an anal toy but every time He pushed forward with His hips the toy pushed in deeper as well. In other words while He fucked my pussy the toy fucked my ass.

He told me last night that He'll turn me into a butt slut eventually. I'm really enjoying the training so far. Hopefully it won't be long before we can try to move from the training to anal sex and not have me be too uncomfortable to continue.

More Training

At some point last week I ordered an anal training kit. Master and I are trying to work on my being able to have anal sex more frequently and, more importantly, enjoy it.

So when I got a gift card I decided why the hell not, I'll just order an anal toy. So I looked around and figured why just one anal toy? Maybe I can find a "kit" of some kind. And sure enough, I found one that I could afford.

It's three toys. They are all smaller but have a wide base, thankfully. I feel really uncomfortable when an anal toy doesn't have a wide base. I don't want it getting "lost", if you know what I mean.

It showed up yesterday. So when I got home I opened it up and they aren't tiny but they aren't all that big either. However, they are different shapes. They are all plugs, just... different angles I guess is that way to put it? I have not idea. It's kind of hard to describe.

I put them in the bedroom for when we decide to use them. I'm hoping to try them out soon. Maybe Master will pick out the one we use first. Normally He has me pick the anal toy, just because we're still working on things back there but I really want Him to this time. I haven't talked to Him about it yet as the thought literally just went through my mind while I was typing.

Part of this whole anal training thing that is annoying to me is not that fact that we are working on it but the fact that I used to be able to have anal sex at least once a month. I never got off from it but I did enjoy it. And if I didn't completely enjoy it as in get incredibly turned on I at least was able to "handle" it.

Master knows this, obviously, but He has never shown any annoyance or irritation regarding that fact. I think He's just glad that I want to be able to have anal sex more frequently and get off from it. He loves anal. I know this and I have apologized to Him in the past for not being able to do it as frequently as I know He would like, at least not yet. You know what His reaction is? "It's okay, it's worth the wait."

How awesome is He? Very. That's how awesome He is. *nods*

It means a lot to me that He is willing to take it slowly and listen to me and my body... even when I don't. His number once concern has always been for my health, whether it's physical or mental. So He is just trying to help me work past this mental block of mine as well as help me get my body to relax.

Even though He is a sadistic son of a bitch (and I say that with love) He doesn't want to hurt me like that. I know it's probably tempting.. *laughs* But He doesn't want to do that.

I am trying not to get frustrated with this whole process. I want to just enjoy what we are doing so that I won't be tense or get a sense of pressure, that I would be putting on myself. He isn't pressuring me at all. Not one tiny bit.

So I'll just take His thought process and run with it. Just enjoy what we are doing and eventually it'll pay off.

At Least I Tried

Last night I dressed up for Master and we ended up finishing one of the recent porno movies we had bought a while back. After that Master and I went to the bedroom. He nipped my neck and got me even more geared up by sucking and licking my nipples. That drives me absolutely crazy (in a good way).

He then moved down my body and ate me out. He started off fingering my pussy but then slowly but surely started to finger my ass. The orgasm I had was insane. It was like my entire body burst into sensation all at once.

He knelt up and had me suck His cock. My oral fixation was in over drive and for the first time in quite some time my jaw wasn't bothering so I made the most of it. He didn't want to finish in my mouth though, He wanted to fuck me. But He allowed me to keep going after pulling my head back once. I whimpered and He chuckled and let me continue to orally worship His dick. It was delicious.

Finally He did end up pulling my head back and tossing me down. I was still very sore and swollen from our sexual escapades over the past week or so. It hurt so damn good.

He allowed me a few more orgasms before I asked if He wanted to try anal. I always put that word try in there because I have no fucking idea what my body is going to do. But I had that amazing orgasm while He was eating me out and fingering my ass that I really, really did want to have anal sex. I really did... no really. (Okay, I'll stop now.)

He turned on the light and grabbed the lube. He lubed Himself up first and then me. He very slowly pushed in and at first I thought it was going to be okay. Then all of a sudden a shot of pain. Mother. Fucker. He pulled back out. I honestly don't think He even got past the head of His cock. I think He thought that would be the end of it. But I still wanted to try. So I grabbed the lube bottle and put some on my hand. I was on all fours anyway so I just reached underneath me and put more lube there.

He tried again. It hurt again. But I didn't want to stop. However, it didn't take long before I knew I wasn't going to be able to handle it. Again I don't think He got past the head of His cock. Edit: Apparently I was mistaken. Master read this post and said that the second time He was actually balls deep. And He was still so understanding. I love that man of mine.

He stopped and said it was okay, that He would just go wash up and we'd finish with regular sex. I was upset. I knew He wasn't. I think He was pleased just by the fact that I had honestly wanted to try and hadn't given up immediately and the fact that I had brought it up at all.

After He had washed up He continued to fuck me but then grabbed my small little anal toy and inserted that. Obviously it's a lot smaller than Master's thick cock. It was uncomfortable at first but as He continued to pump in and out of me it didn't hurt anymore. But again, it was small. I know that if we had continued to try for Him to fuck me in the ass it would have hurt like hell and not in a good way.

After He came He rolled off me and slowly pulled the toy out. Almost immediately after I collapsed onto the bed and started crying. I was overwhelmed and a little upset with my body. I sub crashed basically. He covered me with His arm and gently petted the back of my neck. He knows when I need some after care. And just being held close by Him and Him petting me like that is enough for me. In fact it's perfect for me.

I apologized to Him about not being able to go through with the anal sex. I kind of felt like a tease ya know? But He didn't see it that way at all. It's a lot of progress for me to even bring it up. He was pleased. He wasn't mad or upset.

I stopped crying and cleaned myself up as well as the toy. After that I came out into the living room long enough to get a hug and kiss from Master before I went to bed and drifted off.

I told Him today though that I want to try again soon. I will do this damn it!

A Little Bit of Everything

Let me get the mundane work stuff out of the way first.

This is the week that I was originally told I would probably be starting my new position at work. As a result, I e-mailed my business manager. And guess what? My jackass of a supervisor is still holding me back. She said that she's ready to go with everything, she is just waiting on my supervisor to tell her when he'll have a replacement for my current job ready to go. By ready to go, I don't mean trained for the position. I just mean ready to go as in he's selected someone. The job was offered to me three weeks ago. Get off your ass mother fucker!

Okay. I feel better now.

Now on to the fun stuff.

It has been a really long time since Master and I have had anal sex. So we are started to work our way back to it. Yes, He could just lube Himself up and shove His dick inside me, but my body has never really taken to anal very easily. I don't know why, perhaps it's because Master's cock is very thick. I have no idea. But it takes prep work! *giggles*

So last night He tosses me on the bed and eats me out for a nice long time. He started off with His fingers in my pussy before switching them to my ass, freshly lubed up with my own juices. It felt amazing.

He then proceeded to fuck me good and hard. We had a cigarette afterward and then curled up and fell asleep.

Today, all day, while I was at work we were sending each other messages (on my cell phone) that were kinky as hell, and had me wet all day long.

So I get home from work and Master bends me over, strips my pants off, and fingers me a little. He then tells me to strip and orders me to the bedroom. He pins me down and molests my tits for a while, before flipping me onto my stomach so He can lick and finger my ass. More anal training. I was able to relax 95% of the time. Again, it felt really good.

Master said that all this week will be anal training of varying degrees, so that hopefully soon my body will happily, and easily, relax for anal sex.

He had me lay on my back once more and He used a vibe on me while I stroked His cock until I came.  He had me clean off the toy using my mouth, and then fucked my face for a little while.

He then bound my hands to the headboard and fucked me until I was blond. (I'm a brunette. And nothing against blonds, it's just what we say when He fucks me so hard that I can barely think straight.)

We ate dinner afterward, and watched some Netflix. He had me take my bath and put on something nice for Him. It seems He's not done with me for the evening just yet.

I also have orders to clean the bedroom closet. It's basically my closet. I just shove everything in there. So I have until Friday to get the closet organized.

It seems we're going back to how things should be, getting back in touch with our Master/slave dynamic. And that makes me a very happy Kitten.

Disappearing Act

This counts as Feb. 07th's post.

I know that some of you may have noticed that my blog was gone for a short period of time. Trust me, I was just as shocked as anyone else. I love WordPress. I truly do. I admittedly call myself a WordPress whore. *laughs* I love this site over any other free blogging option out there. I've tried a few, this one is the one I stuck with because it is so user friendly. Well at least to me it is.

Well when I logged on and saw that I didn't have access to this blog, I quickly shot off an e-mail to WordPress support. I asked what I had done wrong basically and told them that I would remove any content that had violated the TOS. I've had this blog here for most of the time that I have been blogging. I pay for the CSS upgrade here because I love it! There was no way I was going to let that go. They responded and said that I had not violated anything and quickly turned my blog back on. They stated that it was a mistake, and that it would never happen again. They even apologized.

Now a lot of free services could have said, "Yeah and? It happened. So what. You get what you pay for." Not them. They turned it back on the moment I had received the e-mail and apologized. I'm not bitter or anything like that. Although I do admit that when I first saw that scary white screen I was like, "Oh my Gods no! I love my blog!" It seems silly doesn't it? Getting so attached to something like a blog?

But I am. I love my blog. I have almost two years of history stored here and I am addicted to it. But here I am! I'm back! :-D Hopefully no one was applauding when they saw that it was down. ;-)

Also just so everyone knows, I've bought a domain name for this blog. It is now http://pawprintsinslavery.com. It's a present from Master. :-D I'm so happy. The old link will still work, but it's still cool as hell! If you want to update your links, go for it.

Okay so on to other things.

Today was pretty boring. Well, that is until after I had taken my shower and put on fishnet stockings with a matching top. We were watching a movie that we had previously seen just to kill some time and relax. Well at one point during the movie, Master was sitting in His recliner and I knelt at His side. We had been touchy feely all day but I kept nuzzling Him and licking His neck. He said, "Remember Kitten, you wanted to watch this movie."

So I shrugged and pulled on His arm as I knelt beside Him with a smirk on my face and said, "Come play with Kitten, Daddy." He laughed and ordered me to the bedroom.

I ran to the bedroom and Master met me there. We laid on the bed and He bit my neck as He molested me. Eventually He forced His cock into me and allowed me to cum several times before having me get on all fours with my head bowed down and my ass in the air.

Again He allowed me to cum several times. Then He started fingering my ass as He was sliding in and out of me. He said, "It may not be tonight Kitten, but I have to have your ass soon."

I then got very quiet. I do enjoy anal sex, but my body does not always agree. Well as He progressed He became more forceful with His finger as He bounced me off of His cock.

Then He said, "I have half a mind to just take your ass now."

Again I was quiet. But when He started to pull out I knew that the "half a mind" had gone to "going to".

He started to push His cock into my ass, and I did my best to not pull away. That is still my first instinct when it hurts. Only with anal sex, for whatever reason. And it did. It hurt. So Master said, "Lube?" And I said yes.

Now this kind of took the spontaneity of out of because the lube was on the dresser, but I was very thankful for it.

Even with the lube, it hurt. Master's cock is thick and I'm a petite girl damnit. *laughs*

Again I did my best to not pull away. Eventually He stopped pushing forward and stroked Himself while the head of His cock was inside me, maybe a little bit more then the head. That for whatever reason, coupled with me rubbing my clit, helped me relax and before you know it He was in to the base of His dick and able to move without me wanting to lunge foward. Oh. It still hurt, just not as badly.

So He became rough with me and finished off in my ass. I stayed in position as He pulled out. He went into the bathroom to clean up and I started crying. I don't know why, but I always get emotional after anal sex. Master is the only one I have ever done such things with, and it feels so primal and submissive all at the same time. I just become emotionally overwhelmed.

I admit it doesn't help that for health reasons, which I completely understand, Master gets up and goes to wash up immediatley after. Normally however He does at least kiss the top of my head or pat my back and call me a good girl before getting completely off the bed. He didn't do that this time. I asked Him later why that was. He said that His hip was about to lock (due to the position we were in) and when that happens, as I well know, He has to get up and walk or it will lock.

But after anal sex I want to cuddle due to my emotional state. Yes, after we're clean. However when I was done washing up Master was sitting back in His recliner. No cuddling for Kitten this time. Although again, I think that had to do with His hip.

So after we were both cleaned up we relaxed and watched the rest of the movie. Now, I'm tired and ready to just let my brain shut down. So until later...