On Repeat

I sometimes get songs stuck in my head and they normally come out of thin air. As in I have no idea why they all of a sudden smacked me in the face.

I normally have to play them at least three times to at least stop the song from swimming around in my head for a while. About a couple of hours ago for some reason one particular song just wouldn't stop playing in my head. And the shitty part was that it was just a portion of the song stuck on repeat. It wasn't even the entire song! That is worse to me. I'd rather have the whole song stuck in my head rather than just one portion of it. Normally, if a song gets stuck in my head Master either loves, likes, or doesn't mind the song I want to play. However, there are a few select songs that He just absolutely hates. And when He hears me play them He tells me that I have bad taste in music. *laughs* Never mind the fact that 85% of our tastes in music match up. But there are songs/bands on both sides of the fence that we just look at one another and go, "Really?" So when He says I have bad taste in music He is just saying it about those select few and I do the same thing to Him.

Guess what category this song fell on? Yeah.. He hates it.

So I hopped online, put in my ear buds, cranked it up, and grooved to it. I even went so far as to just close my eyes, bow my head, and completely focus on the song. As soon as it finished I took the bar and placed it at the beginning again. I believe I did that four times right in a row. It seems excessive I know. But that's just how my brain works for some reason. Which is part of the reason it sucks when I get a song stuck in my head at work. There is nothing I can do about it.

The song isn't even from a band I like! It's just one song of theirs that I heard on the radio one time and since then it has been popping up every now and again. I don't like the band but I love the song itself.

What is the song you ask? It's "Smells Like A Freak Show" by Avatar.




It's not my normal style of music. I'm into rock, hard rock, and metal for the most part. The me this falls outside of that area. I'm not even sure what the label it under. *shrugs* I think part of the reason I love it so much is well, one the subject of the song. I find it interesting. The second part is that the lead singer's voice is odd. It's different. And typically I love songs that have an interesting lead vocal. That's one reason why I love WASP and King Diamond. No, I'm not comparing those to this song. They are nothing like this song. I'm just saying that both bands have really interesting lead vocals.

Here is an example of a WASP song I love so you can hear his voice. It's "My Tortured Eyes".




And here is an example of a King Diamond song I love so you can hear his voice. It's "Life After Death".




So yeah, it's all over the board I know. But they all have very interesting vocals. At least they do in my opinion.

Hello, I Love You....

I am not talented when it comes to music. I don't know how to play an instrument. I sure in the hell cannot sing. Obviously, that doesn't stop me from trying when I'm by myself or it's just Master and I in the car. But, who doesn't do that? I mean come on now.

A lot of people seem to think that I have an odd taste in music for my age. I'm into rock, hard rock, heavy metal. Okay, so no real big surprise there. Although it does seem like a lot of people my age prefer more rap and boy band shit. *shudders* Anyway, the genre isn't really the surprising part. It's the fact that I prefer a lot of bands that have been around since before I was born or became famous around the same time as I was born. My dad listened to all of it and I love it.

I don't like grunge rock. I don't like punk rock either. I love some newer/newish bands. Disturbed being a prime example. They aren't really new, but they also aren't as old as the bands I'm referring to.

"So shut up and start naming bands damn it!"

Oh. Right. Sorry...

I love Alice Cooper, KISS, The Doors, Ted Nugent. Well, I like Ted Nugent musically... he's gone more and more guano over the years.(King Diamond is another rocking singer... not really along the same vein though and I didn't know about him until after I met Master.)

Basically the bands that were huge in the 70's and 80's. I'm 30 years old. So yeah, that doesn't make a shit ton of sense since my entire teenage years were in the 90's. And normally that's when people find the music they love and it's normally popular when they are that age.

Not me. My friends were listening to New Kids On The Block and Back Street Boys, which I had to suffer through. But then I'd pop in a one of my tapes or CDs and watch them squirm. *laughs*

One thing that I've always loved though is when people find out that I love those kinds of bands and they ask me whether I'm a Pink Floyd fan or Led Zeppelin. It's almost like you can't be a fan of both... The way they put that question. And yes, I've been asked this more than once. Now, while I do like both bands I prefer Led Zeppelin. However, my answer is always The Doors. I've always thought they were better than both Floyd and Led. That answer pisses a lot of people off though, which is funny.

I had a Doors song stuck in my head all fucking day, which is actually what prompted this post.

Ear Buds

Today has been one of those days where I don't quite know what to do for entertainment. I mean, we watched a movie I had specifically asked to watch and that was fun. I enjoyed watching it and all that. But before that and since then I have no idea what the hell to do. I'm bored. Now, the typical answer to being bored is to do something to entertain yourself but for some reason today I have no idea what to do.

Master has been suggesting things left and right but none of it sounds good. I don't wanna watch that show, or that one, or that one. I don't really feel like watching another movie either.

Reading a book doesn't sound entertaining either. I guess I feel restless yet lazy at the same time.

I'm not depressed. Just bored, restless and yet don't really feel like doing anything. Yes, I know that doesn't makes sense. Hell, it doesn't make sense to me. It's just where I'm at mentally.

Eventually Master suggested that I just do my nightly routine then. My nightly routine is to put in an entry for my mood tracker, do my blog post and then go take my shower.

My mood tracker entry is done. I didn't really have much to put there either. So now I'm doing my blog post while listening to music on you tube through my ear buds.

And honestly the music seems to be helping a bit. I feel a little more perked up now. Sometimes that's all I really need is to listen to some music and not have any other noise going on. Hence, the ear buds. Also, its' that band Master doesn't like.

Yeah, now I'm taking breaks from typing to bop my head a little bit and sway in the computer chair to the music. So I would say it's helping.

I don't know why I didn't think of this earlier. Sometimes, when I was a teenager, the best thing for me to do when I just wanted to get away for a little bit was to go to my room, turn on some music, plug my ear buds in and not focus on anything else for a while. That always seems to help.

It doesn't have to be stress related. It helps when I'm restless too. You wouldn't think it would help seems being restless usually means you want to move because you can't sit still but it really does. It has to be ear buds though so that's the only thing I hear.

Music Memorabilia

Ever since my dad started selling his memorabilia I've noticed that I've been wanting to listen to that band more. It's not really all that unusual I guess. It's a collection that my father and I bonded over. I helped him build his and he helped me build mine.

When I moved in with Master I didn't really have a place for all of it and I wasn't as much of a fanatic as I used to be either. But I didn't want to just get rid of it. My dad had a large collection and most of the stuff I had he didn't as it was newer stuff. He'd been collecting since 1974.

So I gave all of my stuff to him. Yes, some of that stuff has been sold and no I didn't ask for any of the money. The reason why is I had given it to him. *shrugs* I have no claim to any of the money anymore. It was given to him over seven years ago and it wasn't given to him under the condition that he never got rid of any of it.

To be perfectly honest I never thought I'd see the day he'd sell off his collection. There are some items that he is holding onto. Some of them because they are sentimental and others because he knows they won't bring in any money and he just likes them.

Right now I'm watching after a lot that I put up for him. So far so good.

The only down side to my wanting to listen to this music is because Master is not a fan of the band. In fact he finds them rather irritating. He likes a very few select songs and that's it. Where as I like almost all of their music. From the 70's to the early 2000's. They are still making music but to be perfectly honest I don't really care for their newest music. (My favorite era of theirs mainly being their crotch rock years.)

So to get around that I only listen to the music when I have my ear buds in. Like right now I'm listening to them on the computer, my ear buds in, while doing my post.

This way I get to hear the music and not annoy Master. It's not like he'd get mad at me or anything. I just think this is easier and makes more sense all the way around.

I'm not sure what the hell my dad is going to put up after this lot. Aside from posters and things of that nature his vintage stuff is pretty much gone. Well, the parts that he is willing to part with anyway. So it'll all be stuff from the late 80's to early 90's. Hopefully those will sell well.

I hope that one day my dad and I can to go another concert for this band. Just one more. Who knows, maybe Master will go just to hang with my dad and I. My dad has said that if we do ever get to go another concert he would like my Husband to go with us. Yes, he knows how Master feels about the band. He just likes my Hubby that much and wants to share that with Him. Dad would completely understand if Master declined though. He's cool like that.

But that's assuming that we have that chance. They are still touring but we don't know if they'll come around this way when we actually have the money, ya know?

Music To My Ears

I just got home from work. Shortly after I got home Master and I started talking and I realized that I had completely forgotten about an errand that needed to be done. Master was kind enough to go run out instead of me. It's not exactly a short errand as the place is a good half hour away. Blah.

There is some music that I enjoy that Master does not. It's not a big deal. It's just I know the songs I like that He doesn't. As a result, I try not to listen to them when He's around. I don't own the CD or anything. I just sometimes look them up on You Tube. If they come on the radio when I'm alone in the car I'll turn the volume up. It's not like Master has forbidden me from looking them up or listening to them when He's home/in the car. I just don't do it.

There have been a few times where I have asked Him if He'd mind, simply because it's stuck in my head. He always tells me I don't have to ask. I'm not sure why, but I feel the need to ask. I have no idea where this came from. As I said, it's not something He's ever commented on except stating at some point that He doesn't like that band or that song. For some reason I log that away in my head and just don't listen to it when He's around unless I ask permission. Weird huh? Anyone else got something like that?

So since Master is not home right now I decided to play some music on You Tube in the background while I type out this post. There is one song though that Master found that I absolutely love. It reminds Him of me and reminds me of Him. But it's in a weird way. It's not exactly a love song.

We both love Alice Cooper. He came out with an album not that long ago and there is a song on there called "I Am Made Of You".

Master and I have both had extremely rough times in our almost nine years of being together. They were independent. Meaning that we each had our demons to deal with where we had to lean rather heavily on the other.

This song makes us think of those times, but not in a bad way. To me, it reminds me of the strength He lent me and how He helped me drag myself up off the floor and eventually get back on my feet, all the while holding on to Him because I couldn't hold myself up just yet. In case any of you want to listen to it, here it is.

Fun At The Concert

My brother had purchased four concert tickets. One each for Master and myself. One for him and one for his friend. Well there was a lot of back and forth going on about the whole ride situation for my brother. The original plan was for me to pick him up, the three of us go to the concert and then he spends the night. This was before he bought an extra ticket for his friend.

So his friend said he wanted to go and that he would be my brother's ride up here. So my brother bought him a ticket.

Well Friday (the night before the concert) my brother calls me at 1:30 in the morning and he is pissed. Thankfully I was still awake or I'm sure I would have been pissed too. His friend had called and said he no longer wanted to go to the concert. This was after my brother had spent good money on his ticket. My brother had no one else who wanted to go, so he also didn't have a ride. I didn't have the gas to go get him either. I hadn't put as much in the gas tank because as of three weeks ago he had it all planned out.

My brother was really upset. He had spent all this money, he really wanted to go to the concert and he was pretty much fucked over at the last minute. So I told him to blow that guy's phone up. Call, text, whatever but get a hold of his ass and tell him that either he goes, or he gives my brother the money for the ticket so he can use part of that for gas.

My brother called me around 11am on Saturday to say that calling and texting hadn't been working so he had gone to this guy's house and pounded on the door until he answered. He said that he had to fork over the money for his ticket because he had cancelled last minute. The dude gave him no end of shit but my brother didn't back down either. So eventually my brother got the money for the ticket. He handed his friend the ticket and said that if he could find a way up he could use it. Apparently this guy's license was suspended so my brother wold have been driven to the concert by someone who legally shouldn't have been driving and he wouldn't have known until after the fact.

So I go down there and I picked up my brother. On the way back to my place we put gas in the car. When we got to the apartment we had time to kill so we ate dinner and joked around for a while. Then came concert time! We all piled in the car and headed on down.

We took a look at the merch booth because my brother said he wanted to peek at it. Master and I knew we didn't have the funds but were also interested to see what they had. So we stopped. Next thing we know my brother is asking Master which shirt He likes the best. Master gave him a weird look and my brother said, "No seriously. Which one?" So Master told him. My brother walks up there, gets the exact t-shirt Master had pointed out in Master's size, hands it to Him and says, "Happy early birthday."

My brother loves my Husband, and they have a great time hanging out. I'm very glad that they get along so well.

So off to the part of the building the concert was in! It was standing room only and the room was huge. I knew I wasn't going to be able to see much at all, but that didn't bother me. I just wanted the experience. The two opening bands go through their sets and they sucked. The three of us are yelling for them to get the hell off the stage.

Finally the main attraction! The music was amazing, we were all singing along and screaming and just having a blast. I was rocking out to the beat, my brother was pumping his fist in the air and Master was just having a blast as well.

We were all dripping with sweat when the concert was done and over with. I think we each must have lost like 5 lbs. We couldn't hear well, our throats were killing us but we were all grinning like fools.

We got back to our place and we all stayed up until about 3am. Master and I went to bed and my brother crashed out on the couch. I ended up waking up at 10:30am. Master got up shortly there after, so I woke up my brother. We were all sore and stiff. Standing on your feet for 4+ hours and rocking out like we were will do that to you. Especially with people pushing, shoving and attempting to start mosh pits.

We sat in the living room and talked for quite some time. Unfortunately it came time for me to take my brother home. So I take him home and on the ride back down there my brother just kept going on and on about what a great time he had and how much he loves just chilling at our place and spending the night. I told him he's welcome anytime and that Master always enjoys having him over as well. That made him smile. My brother has a lot of stress in his life right now, some of it self inflicted. Master and I have a lot of stress but all of that melted away while he was up here and at the concert. We just concentrated on having a good time and not allowing anything to interfere with that.

My brother said that he wants to try and come up about once a month to spend the night, I told him that was fine as long as everyone's schedules mesh.

I came back home and Master and I spent the day enjoying our time together. So thanks to my brother we had the most stress free weekend we've had in a long, long time.

"Mein Teil"

As I'm sure some of your remember, I love Rammstein. This particular song is called Mein Teil.

"I Get Off"

I heard this song not that long ago on the radio. Not to bad.

Tool Kick

I am on a Tool kick right now. Why? Well, our entire relationship, I have always liked Tool. But I never listened to them unless I was in the car, alone, and they were on the radio.

The reason for that is because I thought, for whatever reason, that Master didn't like them. Well the other day, on the way home from work, Tool came on the radio and I was about to internally sigh waiting for Master to change the channel, but He didn't. In fact He started singing along. And I was shocked. Come to find out, He actually likes Tool! Six years later I learn this. *shakes head*

So here are some Tool songs that I felt like tossing up.

First, "Stinkfist".



Secondly, "Prison Sex"

"I Am The Spider"

This song is off of Alice Cooper's latest album. The song is called "I Am The Spider". It includes the Epilouge as well, but I just wanted the song.

It is my favorite one off of the entire album, mainly because it feels like a bump and grind type song.

"I Hate Myself For Loving You"

Okay, I'll admit it. I love Joan Jett. I don't know a lot of her songs to be perfectly honest. But the songs I do know I love. I have to crank them whenever I hear them. That, and I think she's hot. *nods*

So here is Joan Jett with "I Hate Myself For Loving You". This is one of my favorites by her. Just so you know, the lyrics that show up during the song are um... off. I don't know who put them there. But I put the actual lyrics behind the cut.

"I'm Afraid Of Americans"

I've noticed a trend lately, where people are posting NIN videos. So I thought I would take a slightly different route. This is "I'm Afraid of Americans" by David Bowie featuring NIN.

Apparently Trent is stalking Bowie. :-| If I were Bowie and I had Trent stalking me, I'd probably be afraid of Americans as well.

"Something In Your Mouth"

Okay. I had to do it. We bought this CD for my mother in law's birthday. Honestly I was shocked as hell when she wanted it, because well.. this is the first song I heard off the album and she's a prude. After hearing the rest of the CD, and noticing how whiny it is.. it made a bit more sense. Well since I like this song Master also bought a copy of the CD for us. :-D So I listened to this song, I kid you not, four times today already. So I have to post it here. It makes me think of getting a little tipsy, dressing down, and having a hell of a lot of fun. Not to mention the fact that I have an oral fetish.

Star Wars Meets The Muppets

Can you tell I'm on a Star Wars kick lately? *giggles* I think it may be because I'm surrounded by Boba Fett. I found this at I Can Has Force?

Star Wars Fix

Yes. I admit it. Master has transformed me into a Star Wars geek. *hangs head* I can't help it! Honest. It's His fault... er... sort of. When I first met Him I liked Star Wars (the movies) but now.. I love the movies and the books and I'm a much bigger fan. So, as I was browsing You Tube, I found some hilarious videos regarding Star Wars.

Kaya, if you're reading this... this first video is your fault. You mentioned Michael Jackson. Wait until the last group performs. Oh. My. Gods. Here is the 2008 Star Wars Dance Off. It's strictly 80's music. And since I'm an 80's child.. I can appreciate it.



This next video is the 2007's dance off. I think 2008 is better, but this is still pretty funny. Get ready for some disco.

"Cemetary Gates"

I'm not a huge Pantera fan, but I love this song. And lately it's been stuck in my head for apparently no reason. As a result, I figured I should post it. Here we go..