There are things that I honestly feel would never happen in someones life, that is until they meet the right person and it is a natural reaction. I had self image issues when I first met Him. But even though I had those issues, along with going through mental and emotion abuse, I was still a strong willed person. Some how, some way, that had remained intact. And I think that is one thing that attracted Master to me. I know it was something that attracted me to Him. He was/is a very confident person. He carries and portrays Himself a certain way that just clicked something in my mind in the most pleasant way.
I was highly attracted to Him not only because of His looks but because of the way He carried and Himself. It was an immediate and surprising reaction. It was surprising because I had never met someone like Him. I was fascinated by Him. I was fascinated by the way I acted by simply being around Him.
At first it was almost purely sexual on both sides of the coin. Don't get me wrong, I really loved being around Him. We clicked in ways that I didn't even think was possible. And I'm not just saying that because I was young.
Although it didn't take long for us to have deep and strong feelings for one another. It was a very fast progression. And as soon as we started to delve into a romantic relationship the natural reactions in so far as the dynamic began to peek through.
It was so far away from where we are now. We have experimented with a lot of different things in the course of our relationship. Different kinks, different forms of etiquette.
Since I first met this Man I felt naturally submissive to Him. I have never, ever felt that way before and I know for a fact that I will never react to another person the way I do to Him. He makes me feel a way that only He can. He has my heart, mind, and soul. And He knows it. He doesn't abuse that. And He has told me in the past that I have Him just as much as He has me. We are mates and I mean that in every sense of the word.
He has also told me that while He has always had an Alpha male mentality, and kinky thoughts, He never thought that He would be a Master. Just as I never thought I would ever be a slave.
This was very new to both of us. There have been ups and downs. We were learning together and pieced it all together ourselves. We stumbled sometimes but we found our way back.
I honestly think that we both react to one another in this way on a very natural and primal level. It's not just about the kink. It's not just about the sex. You could take the kink and sex out of it and we would still fall into the routine that we have. He would still lead and I would still follow.
I love that about us. And it sometimes, I feel, it causes jealousy in others. I know for a fact a couple of His friends have felt that way. One was only because he wanted his wife to basically be less of a bitch. The other is our friend BC. He has kink tenancies and wants to be a Dominant. Which you would find hilarious, if you ever met the man. He has always been jealous of it. He has tried to convince his now wife to try it and she basically shoots it down before he can fully get the words out of his mouth. He has complained about such things to Master and asks how He convinced me to go along with it.
And that's the thing. He never tried to convince me or trick me into anything. As a I said it's very natural for us. He didn't drag me kicking and screaming. In the beginning we didn't even have to talk about it. As it grew we did talk about it simply because we noticed the way we were reacting to one another and to see how we could fan that flame. We both wanted it to get stronger.
And so here we are. I wouldn't have it any other way.
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