New Heels!

Master and I never have a lot of "mad money". In other words, we can't go buy shit we just want rather than need a whole hell of a lot. When we can, I normally want to get Master something or go out to eat or something along those lines.

This week though we did have a bit of spending money. Not a whole lot, but some. When I told Him, Master reminded me that I have been wanting some new heels for a while now. He has seen me randomly browsing the internet torturing myself. I never really ask for a lot. Don't laugh. You can even ask my Master! I'm really hard to shop for during the holidays and special occasions. I just don't want a lot of stuff and when I do it's mainly practical stuff. You know, stuff for the apartment. Master hates those kind of answers when He asks me what I want for my birthday or our anniversary, etc. He says it's a cop out answer. He just doesn't want me being practical all the time. He loves the fact that I'm not high-maintenance, but He still wants to get me things I want rather than need.

So when He suggested the heels I was a bit hesitant at first. I asked Him at least three times if He was sure. He said yes. Now while I could have bought some new clothes to wear to work, where is the fun in that? Plus it's not like I really need them, it would just be me expanding my work attire. And as Master said, He wants to get me something I want. Heels or work clothes? Heels win.

So off to the mall we went! I don't like going to the mall often because it's so damn crowded and people are inconsiderate assholes. Today though I didn't want to buy the heels online and pay shipping and I didn't want to go to like Walmart or something like that. There were a few different stores I wanted to check, but I knew that at least two of the three I wanted to go to were expensive. I didn't want to spend a lot of money so I told Master we should get out Payless first. Now, going to Payless may not sound like a step above Walmart but to me it is. It's shoes at a reasonable price. I'm all over it.

I was afraid that it was going to take a while as I'm picky about my heels. I must love the heels if I'm going to buy them. Heels are not a necessity so if I'm going to buy a luxury item I'm going to love it damnit. *stomps foot*

I was worried that if it took too long Master was going to become bored and I would become aggravated. It doesn't take me long to become aggravated when I'm buying a luxury item. I don't need it so I don't want to take forever finding it.

But all I had to do was walk into the aisle for my size and there they were, calling out to me. I picked them up and asked Master if He liked them. If it's heels Master has to love them as well, since I'm wearing them for His pleasure and to look attractive for Him. I loved them and as an added bonus they were on sale! Bonus!

They were normally $49.99 and I got them for $29.99. Hell yeah!

So what did I buy? These beautiful heels. I think I like them so much because it looks kind of like bondage shoes. I mean, obviously they aren't, but they zip up, have a tie up front and two buckles. It's probably the buckles that do it for me. It's a thicker heel than I'm used to but it still looks great.

So I'm a happy girl! Master grins at me whenever I tell Him how much I love them. He is happy that I am happy. Plus, how can He not be happy to have His slave in heels?

Pretty Please?

I want these! They are screaming at me to buy them!

Now I just need $50 that I can spare just to spend on heels.

That is all.

Heel Whore

Last night Master and I were sitting around talking. This was before we went to bed and I had dressed up for Master. He told me to surprise Him so after my shower I came out in nothing but heels and leg warmers. Honestly, it's one of my favorite looks. I really need more leg warmers! Seriously. The kind I have are straight black and they are sexy as hell.

I've only ever worn them as lingerie. I have thought about what it would look like it I wore them with my black skirt, heels and a black top. I'm sure it'd still be sexy, I just don't know if Master would think it would be good for a "out of the house" type thing. *shrugs*

Anyway, I'm getting off topic here.

Master had commented that I never wear heels to work. I did a double take. He asked me why I never did. My answer was simple. "I'm not with You so there is no body to impress or look nice for."

I think I saw Him smirk at that. But He also had a good point. They are somewhat... bondage looking. I mean they are normal heels. They aren't "obvious" as far as bondage goes. But it you are into kinky things... you'll probably look at them and go.. "Hey...."

I tried to look them up online at the website I got them from, but they don't seem to be selling them anymore.Good thing I got them when I did.

So Master said that if anything I could wear them to work as another reminder regarding my station in this dynamic. See, I had never thought of wearing heels to work. At least not normal heels. I've thought about low heeled boots. But that's about it.

Master said I could wear a pair of jeans, toss the heels and a top and I would be good to go.

I didn't do it today. To be honest I'm somewhat worried about fucking them up somehow. If they get worn down a bit because I've been strutting around the apartment for Master or because Him and I have been going out and He wanted me in heels, that's an entierely different matter. Then again I work in an office for fuck's sake. So it's not like they would get fucked up easily.

I'm protective of my heels, for lack of a better word. I don't have many anymore. For normal heels that I can wear out, I have two pair. The pair I wore last night and the boots with high heels that I love. The problem with the latter is that they are insulated, so I would sweat to death wearing them right now. But for fall they are awesome!

But the conversation Master and started last night kept swimming around in my head today.

Okay, Master and I don't really have the money to go out to dinner and such anymore. At least not very often. And normally when we run errands I don't really see the point of tossing heels on because we're just going to the grocery store or something similar. And thenwe are coming right back home afterward.

However, there are our bumming around days. I love our bumming around days. We just go driving, hit a couple of stores just to look and maybe buy something that isn't expensive. And what do I wear? Jeans and a t-shirt. It's easy to toss on and boom! We're out the door.

I've just become way too comfortable with that. I mean jeans, okay whatever, depending on the situation a skirt or dress may not be the wisest choice. But just because I'm wearing jeans that doesn't mean I automatically have to toss on sneakers or sandals. Master already hinted that I would look nice in jeans and heels.

And make-up? Bloody hell. I can't remember the last time I wore that out of the house. Not that I wear a lot when I do or anything, but still.

I just need to get out of this comfortable stage and smack the hell out of myself. "Hey bitch! Just because it's comfortable and you're not going out to dinner and a movie does not mean you can't look sexy for your Man. A little effort goes a long way, stupid."

So, on the weekends especially I want to step my game up so to speak. I know Master and I have been together for about 8 1/2 years and I know He still finds me incredibly sexy. But that doesn't mean I should slack off. I used to dress up all the time just to look nice for Him. Granted we were going out more back then, but so what?

I feel bad. I feel like I've seriously dropped the ball. Like I said I want to smack the hell out of myself.

Then the flip side of that is I really wish I could go buy new skirts, dresses and heels. I have one new dress that Master likes. It's more of a summer dress and it's plain but Master said He likes it.

While I was looking through the website trying to find the pair of heels I actually own I was drooling over what they have in stock right now. I just want to say "Fuck it!" go out and buy at least two more pairs of heels, three skirts, two tops and two dresses. That would be a nice start.

But that's more than we can afford right now. Maybe I can squeeze at least a new pair of heels in sooner rather than later. Hell, any one of the items listed above would be nice. Although honestly, I'm drooling more and more over new heels. I'm not normally a "shoe" girl. But heels? The right kind anyway, I love looking at them. I love thinking about how hot I would look in them. Especially since Master loves me in heels and I could wear them in and out of the bedroom. *sigh*

Clothing

I had e-mailed my mother-in-law stating that I needed some new clothes. Preferably more professional looking clothes. She said she would be more than happy to get me some and they would be my early Christmas present. She asked me kind of what I was looking for and so I told her, along with my sizes. My job allows us to wear casual clothing, but honestly I want to start looking a bit more professional when I'm at work than a t-shirt, jeans, and sneakers. At least most of the time.

Honestly getting them as my Christmas presents was the whole point of the e-mail. That's normally what she gets me and sometimes it doesn't always quite work out, as I do not always like what she gets me. It's the way of things when people buy you clothes, sometimes they just aren't you. And I'm saying when anyone buys you clothes, not just in-laws. So I figured this time if I told her exactly what I was looking for, it would go better.

Well she bought them last night and had us come down to her place today for me to pick them up. So we went down there. Thankfully the roads were pretty clear, even if our apartment sidewalks and parking lot wasn't. *grumbles*

We got there around 3pm. She showed me what she had bought, and they were all tops. I need some new jeans too but I told her that with jeans it's really best for me to try them on before they are purchased. With pants especially my size can differ quite a bit depending on who makes them and the cut of them. I can be anywhere from a 2 to a 5. It's kinda weird.

When my mother-in-law buys me clothes she always wants me to try them on at her place before we leave, and see me in each piece so she knows they look nice. I may complain about my mother-in-law because she is a very ... dramatic person. But I know she truly does like me a lot, if not love me. She always wants me to look nice. And I can tell that as I'm getting older (I'll be 28 in three months..) she is wanting me to dress more professionally most of the time. Now where I can't see that happening, I wouldn't mind new clothing. Let's face it, we all find the 40 year old women dressing like their teenage daughters to be annoying.

You can still be sexy without having to dress like you're 15. And while I still love my slut gear, I also realize that I can't wear that all the time. I swear if I had the money most of my clothes would be replaced. I'd have all new jeans, I'd have a lot more sexy type tops instead of t-shirts, and I would have several different pairs of heels, along with some more dresses and matching tops and skirts sets.

I've been drooling over the Charlotte Russe selection. I have found quite a few things that I would love to own. But alas, the money just isn't there right now.

Who knows. Maybe I'm maturing a bit more. I don't want to just wear sneakers, jeans and a t-shirt all the time. While I feel I look good in that, I know I always feel sexier when I'm a bit more dressed up. And I think that would drive my Husband wild (in a good way) if I did that more often for no reason at all, even if we're just bumming around.

So my goal is that when I have a little spare cash on hand, to just go out and buy myself a new article of clothing. Piece by piece my wardrobe will improve.

So before I stray a bit too far off, lets go back to when we were at my mother-in-laws house.

I go into her bedroom, and shut the door. Each time I try on one of the new tops, I come out and go into the living room for everyone to see. I distinctly remember a couple times my Husband's eyes lighting up a bit when He saw me in the new tops. That's how I knew I looked good.

Oddly enough He said that His favorite thing out of the whole lot was a black blazer. I thought it was cute, but I've never, in my life, worn a blazer before and I honestly felt a little awkward in it. But Master? He loves it on me.

And you can dress professionally and still look sexy. Not that I want to look sexy for anyone at work, but I want to look sexy for my Husband as He'll see me in it the minute I walk in the door.

Hell, we could even due strip tease type photo shoots with them. ;-) Some of the tops have buttons.

The bad side to me wanting basically an almost entirely new wardrobe? The money aspect. It seems that my tastes in clothing and shoes are getting more expensive as I get older as well. But I'm sure that was bound to happen. I also need more hangers. I'd like all of my clothes (especially once I start buying new ones) to all be hung up. It'll make life easier.

So, I have a goal. To slowly but surely go through my wardrobe and replace damn near everything in it. Oh. And new lingerie too, maybe get rid of some of the older pieces.

This is going to be expensive. But I think if I just buy one or two new pieces of clothing at a time, it'll hurt the wallet a lot less.

One thing I'd love to do is get a bit of extra money and be able to buy a couple new outfits (top, pants/skirt, and heels) at one time. Go to the store, bring Master with me, and do a little modeling for Him and have Him decide which are the best two and buy them, not even thinking about what it's costing. I think that would be wonderful.

It probably won't happen this month, but maybe next month I'll have a little spare cash and be able to buy a few new things.One thing that really amazes me about all this, is that I've never been one of those girls that's all about the clothing. And I'm still not all that big into fashion, but I know what I like. And I think this is just me wanting to break away from the jeans and t-shirt type dress and look as good as possible for my Husband, and for myself, at all times. I also really want to start wearing heels more often. Although I only have two pairs right now (not counting the thigh highs). One of the pair.. well it would not be appropriate in a work environment. They kind of scream "fuck me heels", and it's way too cold to wear them right now as they are completely open. And the other pair? I love them. They are boots with a high heel. But I don't want to wear the same pair every day and they aren't always the most comfortable thing to wear for a 8+ hour day as the heel is kind of high.

Now, if you'll excuse me I'm going to go drool more over clothing and heels and add things to my wish list.

Heels

Master and I have been very affectionate lately. We cop feels, we hug, we kiss, we nibble, we lick.. you get the idea. Also we've been having sex quite a bit more often.

It is like whenever the season changes from winter to spring and then from summer to fall Master gets this streak in Him where He is very affectionate and horny. I'm not complaining. ;-)

We didn't get to sleep until about 2am. And then I had to get up at 6am so I could get to work. I'm a bit slap happy due to the lack of sleep, but I'm okay. My voice has been on again off again. One minute I sound fine, the next minute I sound all sorts of screwed up. Damn sinus drainage.

Thankfully work went by somewhat quickly. I was home by 4pm and I asked Master if we could go shoe shopping. I needed a new pair of shoes for work. So we went to the store and while I was browsing shoes (which always takes forever) Master browsed the rest of the store. He hit up His usual spots. The electronics department and the toy department.

I found these really cute boots. Ever since I started wearing my current pair of work shoes, I've gotten used to walking around with heels. So eventually I just stopped wearing flat shoes. They drive me nuts now! Seriously. I used to love nothing but sneakers. That's all I would wear, it didn't matter with what.

I didn't own my first pair of heels until I was 20. And to make up for lost time, I went straight for the 5 1/2 inch heels. They are sadly almost dead. :-( And they are so hot! I have to find something to replace those. *makes mental note*

Then of course there are the two pairs of thigh high boots that I have. One is 5 inches and the other is 6 inches. I can't walk very long in the 6 inch heels, mainly because it is straight up heels. There is no "lift" in the front.

And to be honest, while I love my thigh high boots I don't wear them that often anymore. Plus both pairs are getting a little old, and I'm in the mood for something new.

I am now starting to prefer the knee high boots. I don't know why. But I still like the tall high heels. Hell, the 5 1/2 inch pair of high heels I own is what I wore when we got married.

So.... knee high or just above the knee boots is what my little slave heart is desiring now.

Ya know, I used to take pride in not being that girl who has like a collection of shoes and purses. :-|

I can still claim I don't collect purses though! *stamps foot* I have one. That's good enough.

But heeled boots? I'm beginning to go "And I want that.. and that... and .." which isn't a bad thing, cause Master loves me in heels. So that works. I just don't want to have like 20 pair sitting around. All good things should be done in small doses, except sex. *nods wisely*

So I think at some point tonight I'm just going to browse boots.