January 22, 2014

Over Time

I sometimes wonder how the dynamic will be when we're older. I don't mean like when we're in our 40's or 50's. I mean beyond that.

Do I think it will still be in place? Yes. Do I think it will be the same as it is now? No. After all our dynamic has evolved over time so why would it stop? It wouldn't. I'm sure that things will change. Partially due to not being able to do certain things physically anymore. I'm not about to kid myself that in 30 years I'll still be able to do everything that I can do now. Pft. Never going to happen. Especially when my fibromyalgia is thrown into the mix. It's only going to get worse as I get older. It's worse now than it was 10 years ago and I'm only 30. Actually, I'll be 31 in two months but that's not the point right now.

The other part is because over time preferences can and usually do change. What Master wants from me now is different than what He wanted from me when I was 20.

I'm not going to try and guess where it's going to go. I just know that it will still be there. Even if it is just down to doing what I'm told. That's one thing that I know for a fact will not go away. I'm not saying that like it's a bad thing. I'm just saying that might be the only thing left as time and age click over year after year.

I know I won't feel any less secure in it. I don't feel less secure now than I did 10 years ago. I just serve Him in different ways than I did back then. We have grown, both as a couple and within the dynamic.

Things change. They evolve. I'd be worried if they didn't. Some things drift away and new things are introduced. And sometimes the older things kick back in again for a period of time. There will always be the underlying fact that I am His. That will never change.


  1. I have friends that have been married for 25 + years and their age difference is 30 years. She went from a young thing having fun to looking after someone who is her father's age. I wonder if they thought about the age difference way back.
    Enjoy the cold.

  2. I couldn't imagine having that much of an age difference. I mean what can you really have in common or to talk about? That's my own opinion though. I have this 10 year "rule". If someone is more than 10 years older it's a no go. Thankfully Master was under that (8 years) and I never have to worry about said rule again.