I had a very long and hard day at work. I was frustrated beyond belief by the end of the day and I had to take a moment to calm down. I'm much more in control of my emotions these days, rather than them controlling me. I mean I still have a full range of emotions but they are much more logical and easier to deal with rather than the hell of rapid cycling.
Master knew I had a hard day at work. He had dinner ready for us when I got home. After we ate dinner I had one tiny errand to run. Master had taken care of the rest while I was at work. He was even nice enough to pick up my prescription that I had forgotten I needed until the last second.
After I got home from the errand Master called me over to Him. He was sitting in the computer chair. I was still fully clothed as I had literally just walked in the door. So I went over to Him and knelt. He shook His head and said, "That's not what I wanted."
I apologized as that is normally what He wants me to do when He calls me to Him like that. Apparently He had other things in mind. He had me stand up in front of Him and He ran His hands up and down my sides before slipping His hand down and unzipping my jeans. He had them only half way pulled down and He was rubbing my cunt and noticed I was already wet. (I am normally wet but that's besides the point.) So He had me kick off my sandals and He pulled my jeans down the rest of the way and had me step out of them.
At first I thought He was undressing me for no particular reason. He does that sometimes. Just like sometimes He'll have me undress Him when He gets home and then we just chill. It's not necessarily sexual. It's more of a control thing, which I love.
This time He did have sexual intentions. Once my pants and sandals were off He ordered me to the bedroom. Once I was in there I pulled my shirt off as well and laid down. Master had me lay on my side and He pressed His cock against me while He ran His hand up and down my leg, going up to my ribs, and then back down again. All the while He was gently kissing my shoulder. Can I just say how much I love that. I love all the rough stuff too but it's also nice when He is just doing something very soft, gentle, and loving.
He then had me roll onto my stomach and forced Himself inside of me. (From soft to forceful in .03 seconds.) He was not as rough once He was fully inside me and after a while ordered me to cum. Because of the forcefulness of the "entry" I was way too docile to get off. I don't know if that's just how I work, or if other slaves and/or subs are as well. But certain things set me into such a docile mode that I want nothing more than to just be used. When I shook my head no He asked if I just wanted to be used. I nodded my head yes and He became more rough as He knelt up and alternated between pressing down on my ass, pressing down on my hips, or pressing down on my shoulders. He laid on top of me fully again and I crossed my ankles and straightened my legs as much as I could. I know He loves it when I do that. I then began to buck my hips to match His movements. When He came it was a nice growl near my ear, which was lovely.
He had me clean Him off, He scented me and we just laid there for a little while. We were both a bit out of it. Master softly said, "I love you." That made me smile and I said, "I love You too."
My journey through life, love, submission, & pain. Mature & graphic content.
July 13, 2011
July 12, 2011
Price Check
Yesterday I left work early because ever since I had a tire rotation done on Friday one of the damn tires was shaking. Bad.
So I went back to the place that had done the oil change and tire rotation. They were telling me how I needed a new tire and a new rim. They then basically continued to list other things that I needed done to my car that had nothing to do with the problem what so fucking ever and somehow.. they had never mentioned before even though I've been going to them for 5 years. They recently came under new management and apparently that means that they are now money hungry assholes.
I came home very upset and I was stressed out, crying. All sorts of fun shit. Master gave me a big hug and held me for a while trying to calm me down. When I stopped sobbing and I was just crying Master lifted my head up so I was looking up at Him and told me it would be okay. That we would figure it out.
So.. I talked to my father, my mom and my aunt. See, my dad was a mechanic. My mother was with my father for so long that she knows some shit, and my aunt is married to a mechanic. My father no longer works on cars due to his bad back and feet. My mother has of course never been able to do it. My aunt and uncle live 6 hours away. Yeah. That's not happening.
They all agreed that it was an unbalanced tire. So I went to a different auto care shop. They did a free tire inspection. They told me that there is nothing wrong with my tire or rim. The tire is just unbalanced. So they fixed that. The one thing they did tell me was that my left outer tie rod end needs to be replaced sooner rather than later. This is the one thing that the previous mechanic (who is never getting my business again) never even mentioned to me in their long list of shit. I asked for a price quote on the parts, labor and tire alignment. You can't get a tie rod end replaced without doing an alignment immediately after. They gave me the price quote of $231.90.
So I left the shop because I couldn't afford that right now. On the way home I pushed the car a bit. I went about 10mph over the speed limit in order to test it. I got her just above 55mph and no shaking. None. Awesome.
I knew that I would have to get the tie rod end replaced asap though. I want to get it done on the next paycheck as I have to take the car out to work two out of the five days the week after. The price quote I got today wasn't bad in my opinion. But I still wanted to get a few quotes from other places to see if I could save a buck or two. The first place I called was about $15 cheaper. Then I called another place and it was damn near $90 cheaper. *gasp* I didn't bother trying to shop around any more than that. I made the appointment right then and there for the afternoon of my next payday. That way it's done and I don't have to worry about it not being in the budget due to over spending of any kind.
So I went back to the place that had done the oil change and tire rotation. They were telling me how I needed a new tire and a new rim. They then basically continued to list other things that I needed done to my car that had nothing to do with the problem what so fucking ever and somehow.. they had never mentioned before even though I've been going to them for 5 years. They recently came under new management and apparently that means that they are now money hungry assholes.
I came home very upset and I was stressed out, crying. All sorts of fun shit. Master gave me a big hug and held me for a while trying to calm me down. When I stopped sobbing and I was just crying Master lifted my head up so I was looking up at Him and told me it would be okay. That we would figure it out.
So.. I talked to my father, my mom and my aunt. See, my dad was a mechanic. My mother was with my father for so long that she knows some shit, and my aunt is married to a mechanic. My father no longer works on cars due to his bad back and feet. My mother has of course never been able to do it. My aunt and uncle live 6 hours away. Yeah. That's not happening.
They all agreed that it was an unbalanced tire. So I went to a different auto care shop. They did a free tire inspection. They told me that there is nothing wrong with my tire or rim. The tire is just unbalanced. So they fixed that. The one thing they did tell me was that my left outer tie rod end needs to be replaced sooner rather than later. This is the one thing that the previous mechanic (who is never getting my business again) never even mentioned to me in their long list of shit. I asked for a price quote on the parts, labor and tire alignment. You can't get a tie rod end replaced without doing an alignment immediately after. They gave me the price quote of $231.90.
So I left the shop because I couldn't afford that right now. On the way home I pushed the car a bit. I went about 10mph over the speed limit in order to test it. I got her just above 55mph and no shaking. None. Awesome.
I knew that I would have to get the tie rod end replaced asap though. I want to get it done on the next paycheck as I have to take the car out to work two out of the five days the week after. The price quote I got today wasn't bad in my opinion. But I still wanted to get a few quotes from other places to see if I could save a buck or two. The first place I called was about $15 cheaper. Then I called another place and it was damn near $90 cheaper. *gasp* I didn't bother trying to shop around any more than that. I made the appointment right then and there for the afternoon of my next payday. That way it's done and I don't have to worry about it not being in the budget due to over spending of any kind.
July 11, 2011
Bloody Hell
Okay.. so apparently since I have the options to change out my templates I seem to be going through this phase of wanting to find the "perfect" template. The one I have right now (black with grey flowers kind of thing) I think looks really slick. However, there are certain things that I need to tweak before I think it'll be "perfect". I like the fact that it's darker and yet feminine at the same time. And I am dark, yet feminine. So that rocks.
But.. there are just a few things I need to tweak. Such as how to get the login bar to show up at the top. Also, possibly the amount of space between the picture of the commenter and the actual comment on the comments page. I mean I liked the semi purple theme but I noticed that the color of the background didn't flow with the image they had loaded at the top of it. So... yeah. That bothered me. I'm weird that way.
Don't mind my rambling about my blog theme but I had a really rough day and I'm not wanting to dwell on it by blogging about it. So I'm distracting myself with my blog. I'm just smart like that. *nods* Master actually had to remind me to do my post because I was nerding out so much. So I'm sure I'll spend most of the night tweaking the blog.
But.. there are just a few things I need to tweak. Such as how to get the login bar to show up at the top. Also, possibly the amount of space between the picture of the commenter and the actual comment on the comments page. I mean I liked the semi purple theme but I noticed that the color of the background didn't flow with the image they had loaded at the top of it. So... yeah. That bothered me. I'm weird that way.
Don't mind my rambling about my blog theme but I had a really rough day and I'm not wanting to dwell on it by blogging about it. So I'm distracting myself with my blog. I'm just smart like that. *nods* Master actually had to remind me to do my post because I was nerding out so much. So I'm sure I'll spend most of the night tweaking the blog.
July 10, 2011
Drained
I feel absolutely drained right now. First Master and I went to bed extremely late last night. Some where around 4am. We normally stay up late on Saturdays but usually not that late. Then today we slept in longer than we had intended. It was the afternoon before we woke up. We had errands to run which is why we meant to get up sooner but didn't want to set an alarm. The best thing about the weekend is not having to set up an alarm.
Well, we couldn't get out of the errands so we went anyway. Okay to be perfectly honest some of the errands could have waited but it didn't make sense to skip them since we were right there anyway. First we went to the pet store to get our pup some treats. He has a wheat allergy so he can only have certain kinds of treats. We were right by the game store so we stopped there. Master picked up two games that we in the bargain bin that He has played before and enjoyed. We also put $10 down on a game that He really wants. It doesn't come out until March but this gives us time to chip away at it so we don't need to pay $60 up front.
After that we went to another pet store because they are the only ones who sell our dog's food. Too bad they don't also sell his treats. It would save us a trip. He's worth the extra effort though. He's a great dog.
From there we went to K-Mart. We had gone there to get a bucket and a mop, but I also wanted to look at clothes because I wanted to get a few skirts. I wanted a couple ankle length ones so I could wear them to work. I also thought I'd look cute in ankle length skirts. But Master insisted that I also get some shorter ones, which I of course didn't have a problem with. He wants me to buy more skirts so I get away from wearing jeans all the time. I have no problem with that. I like wearing dresses and skirts, I just don't have many that are non-sluttish. Not that there is anything wrong with slutty skirts. I love those too. But I need skirts that I can wear day to day. Long ones for work and like a little above knee length around family and for when I don't want to wear a thong because my skirt is so short that if I bend over even a little I'm showing my ass.
So while Master is grabbing the other stuff I go into the women's clothing section. It wasn't really listed as "misses", "women's", or "plus size". So I did some digging. I could not find one fucking thing that wasn't a large or extra large. No offense what so ever meant towards women who wear those sizes. I just hate it when I can't find clothes in my size. It's irritating as hell. It was too hot out to go to any other stores that sell clothing so I gave up. This bummed me out because I was actually really looking forward to getting some skirts. It's a rarity for me to go "Yes! I should go clothes shopping!". Normally I hate it. So I get myself all excited about it and then a big let down. *sigh*
Hopefully I can go clothes shopping this upcoming weekend or maybe even some time this week depending on how I'm feeling.
I'm still feeling rather drained due to us being in the heat so much today (some of the stores didn't have their AC on) and I just wanted to relax. I normally love being on the computer but right now I just feel like it's a chore to type. I love my blog and I love blogging but I just don't seem to have the energy right now.
Well, we couldn't get out of the errands so we went anyway. Okay to be perfectly honest some of the errands could have waited but it didn't make sense to skip them since we were right there anyway. First we went to the pet store to get our pup some treats. He has a wheat allergy so he can only have certain kinds of treats. We were right by the game store so we stopped there. Master picked up two games that we in the bargain bin that He has played before and enjoyed. We also put $10 down on a game that He really wants. It doesn't come out until March but this gives us time to chip away at it so we don't need to pay $60 up front.
After that we went to another pet store because they are the only ones who sell our dog's food. Too bad they don't also sell his treats. It would save us a trip. He's worth the extra effort though. He's a great dog.
From there we went to K-Mart. We had gone there to get a bucket and a mop, but I also wanted to look at clothes because I wanted to get a few skirts. I wanted a couple ankle length ones so I could wear them to work. I also thought I'd look cute in ankle length skirts. But Master insisted that I also get some shorter ones, which I of course didn't have a problem with. He wants me to buy more skirts so I get away from wearing jeans all the time. I have no problem with that. I like wearing dresses and skirts, I just don't have many that are non-sluttish. Not that there is anything wrong with slutty skirts. I love those too. But I need skirts that I can wear day to day. Long ones for work and like a little above knee length around family and for when I don't want to wear a thong because my skirt is so short that if I bend over even a little I'm showing my ass.
So while Master is grabbing the other stuff I go into the women's clothing section. It wasn't really listed as "misses", "women's", or "plus size". So I did some digging. I could not find one fucking thing that wasn't a large or extra large. No offense what so ever meant towards women who wear those sizes. I just hate it when I can't find clothes in my size. It's irritating as hell. It was too hot out to go to any other stores that sell clothing so I gave up. This bummed me out because I was actually really looking forward to getting some skirts. It's a rarity for me to go "Yes! I should go clothes shopping!". Normally I hate it. So I get myself all excited about it and then a big let down. *sigh*
Hopefully I can go clothes shopping this upcoming weekend or maybe even some time this week depending on how I'm feeling.
I'm still feeling rather drained due to us being in the heat so much today (some of the stores didn't have their AC on) and I just wanted to relax. I normally love being on the computer but right now I just feel like it's a chore to type. I love my blog and I love blogging but I just don't seem to have the energy right now.
July 9, 2011
Scratch That Itch
I'm sure most of you know how strapped for cash Master and I normally are. Finances are always extremely tight and so we don't have a lot of "free" money to spoil ourselves with. This month I get two what we call "middle of the month" paychecks. The first paycheck of the month is used to pay rent. After that we have enough for groceries, things we need for the animals and some gas in the car. That's it.
The second paycheck of the month is the one that is used to pay our other bills. Once that is done we can splurge a little bit, but honestly not all that much. Something small, but enough so that we feel a bit of breathing room before the first paycheck of the month again.
This month, as I said, we get two middle of the month paychecks due to how to pay days land. As a result I paid our bills on this one and we spoiled ourselves yesterday by getting a few things we both wanted. That was really nice and it was like a sigh of relief. We spend about $80 on just spoiling ourselves. It felt great. I know that doesn't sound like a lot of money to spoil ourselves with but for us it felt like we had won the jackpot.
And honestly we still have more "free" money to play with. Which is awesome! As a result my brain started ticking away. I'm addicted to tattoos. I have 11 currently and want two more at minimum. And they are both already planned. One is an anklet tattoo. The other is a stylized version of Master's initials. We had tried picking out the placement for the one of His initials before. We finally landed on my right wrist. I wear His cuff on my left wrist. So His initials on my right wrist makes a lot of sense. It'll only be an outline tattoo because I want it to somewhat look like a brand. (I'm not brave enough to actually get a brand done and they normally don't heal the way people hoped they would.)
So since we have more free money I started wondering if I could get it done this month. So I tried calling one tattoo parlor that we used last time. They didn't answer their phone. Since I'm an impatient bitch when it comes to ink I called another place that a lot of people rave about. I've seen their tattoo portfolios online and they do damn good work. Plus this is an extremely simple tattoo it should be great. I talked to a woman on the phone and I explained how I already knew exactly what I wanted and I had it saved on my computer but I don't have a printer. I asked her if I could e-mail it to someone and basically get an over the phone price quote. She said not a problem. So she gave me her e-mail address and I sent it to her. She said simply because it is on the wrist it'll run a little bit more. Placement does effect the price and I already knew that as I've run into it before several times. She also told me it would have to be a bit bigger than I had it so the lines wouldn't be too close together. Again I agreed with her. So she told me it would be $80. Sounded about right to me. Most tattoo parlors minimum price is $50. Since this is a bit bigger and will be on my wrist $80 sounded right to me.
So I did the math. Yes, we could afford it. No, it wouldn't strap us for cash. But they are closed tomorrow and I won't be able to get it during the work week. Next weekend is out. So I talked to Master and He said that maybe on my next paycheck we could get it. So now I'm excited. But if we can't do it I'm not about to go ahead and do it anyway. I'm not that stupid. But I know damn well if I don't get it this month it's going to be quite a while before I'll have that kind of spare cash again. You have to tip after all. So I'm really hoping that I can get it done on my next paycheck. I've wanted His initials done for quite a while now and I know Master wants it done as well. Like I said I really hope it works out this month. If not, I'll be disappointed but there isn't much I could do about it.
The second paycheck of the month is the one that is used to pay our other bills. Once that is done we can splurge a little bit, but honestly not all that much. Something small, but enough so that we feel a bit of breathing room before the first paycheck of the month again.
This month, as I said, we get two middle of the month paychecks due to how to pay days land. As a result I paid our bills on this one and we spoiled ourselves yesterday by getting a few things we both wanted. That was really nice and it was like a sigh of relief. We spend about $80 on just spoiling ourselves. It felt great. I know that doesn't sound like a lot of money to spoil ourselves with but for us it felt like we had won the jackpot.
And honestly we still have more "free" money to play with. Which is awesome! As a result my brain started ticking away. I'm addicted to tattoos. I have 11 currently and want two more at minimum. And they are both already planned. One is an anklet tattoo. The other is a stylized version of Master's initials. We had tried picking out the placement for the one of His initials before. We finally landed on my right wrist. I wear His cuff on my left wrist. So His initials on my right wrist makes a lot of sense. It'll only be an outline tattoo because I want it to somewhat look like a brand. (I'm not brave enough to actually get a brand done and they normally don't heal the way people hoped they would.)
So since we have more free money I started wondering if I could get it done this month. So I tried calling one tattoo parlor that we used last time. They didn't answer their phone. Since I'm an impatient bitch when it comes to ink I called another place that a lot of people rave about. I've seen their tattoo portfolios online and they do damn good work. Plus this is an extremely simple tattoo it should be great. I talked to a woman on the phone and I explained how I already knew exactly what I wanted and I had it saved on my computer but I don't have a printer. I asked her if I could e-mail it to someone and basically get an over the phone price quote. She said not a problem. So she gave me her e-mail address and I sent it to her. She said simply because it is on the wrist it'll run a little bit more. Placement does effect the price and I already knew that as I've run into it before several times. She also told me it would have to be a bit bigger than I had it so the lines wouldn't be too close together. Again I agreed with her. So she told me it would be $80. Sounded about right to me. Most tattoo parlors minimum price is $50. Since this is a bit bigger and will be on my wrist $80 sounded right to me.
So I did the math. Yes, we could afford it. No, it wouldn't strap us for cash. But they are closed tomorrow and I won't be able to get it during the work week. Next weekend is out. So I talked to Master and He said that maybe on my next paycheck we could get it. So now I'm excited. But if we can't do it I'm not about to go ahead and do it anyway. I'm not that stupid. But I know damn well if I don't get it this month it's going to be quite a while before I'll have that kind of spare cash again. You have to tip after all. So I'm really hoping that I can get it done on my next paycheck. I've wanted His initials done for quite a while now and I know Master wants it done as well. Like I said I really hope it works out this month. If not, I'll be disappointed but there isn't much I could do about it.
July 8, 2011
Good But Long Day
I got up this morning before my alarm went off. I hate it when that happens. I was up by 6am and headed out to work shortly there after. I only had a four hour work day which was pretty nice. We had plans to meet up with my father-in-law about a half hour after I normally get home. The only problem was that I was running late. The traffic was bad due to an accident on the interstate, so I was home about 15 minutes later than usual. As soon as I got in the door Master and I had to head back out. Literally I was inside the apartment for 5 minutes and went right back out. We were a little late to meet up with His father but only by a few minutes thankfully.
His father also brought one of Master's younger sisters. His father has 5 children (including Master) over three marriages. He had Master with Master's mother. During his 2nd marriage he had a boy and then a girl. With his 3rd wife he had two girls.
He will be 60 in a few weeks and his youngest child is 12 years old. I'm not knocking him or anything, it just boggles my mind.
We all had a great time and in fact we were at "lunch" for two hours just talking and joking around. As soon as we left the restaurant Master and I ran a few errands before going to Car X to get our car an oil change and tire rotation. Unfortunately that took longer than we had thought. I had an appointment set and it still took them almost an hour. On top of that it was in the mid 80s today and all they had was one fan on in the waiting room. Master and I were roasting by the time we left. We then had one last errand to run after that. We really just wanted to go home but the bunnies needed food. So we got that and finally got home at about 5:30pm. So damn near 12 hours later I was sitting at home for the first time.
It was a very long day but also a very good one. I really enjoy spending time with Master's father. It's always a good time. And even though it was just normal errands Master and I joked around and spent most of the time laughing and smiling at each other. I love that man of mine.
His father also brought one of Master's younger sisters. His father has 5 children (including Master) over three marriages. He had Master with Master's mother. During his 2nd marriage he had a boy and then a girl. With his 3rd wife he had two girls.
He will be 60 in a few weeks and his youngest child is 12 years old. I'm not knocking him or anything, it just boggles my mind.
We all had a great time and in fact we were at "lunch" for two hours just talking and joking around. As soon as we left the restaurant Master and I ran a few errands before going to Car X to get our car an oil change and tire rotation. Unfortunately that took longer than we had thought. I had an appointment set and it still took them almost an hour. On top of that it was in the mid 80s today and all they had was one fan on in the waiting room. Master and I were roasting by the time we left. We then had one last errand to run after that. We really just wanted to go home but the bunnies needed food. So we got that and finally got home at about 5:30pm. So damn near 12 hours later I was sitting at home for the first time.
It was a very long day but also a very good one. I really enjoy spending time with Master's father. It's always a good time. And even though it was just normal errands Master and I joked around and spent most of the time laughing and smiling at each other. I love that man of mine.