Delay

So last night shortly after I got home Master and I headed out to go to the tattoo parlor where I had my piercings done. I was so excited when He said we could go that night that while I was still at work I had looked up directions (the place moved since the last time) and printed them off.

So I'm all bubbly as we start driving. We didn't make it far though. I took a look at Him and I could see the numbers crunching in His head about how much tighter finances would be because of it.

So while I was excited, and this would be His belated Christmas present to me, I knew that it wasn't the smartest idea to go spend money we didn't have. So I spoke up. I said, "Master if You think finances are going to be too tight, we can wait on this."

He looked at me and said, "Are you sure?"

I said, "Yes Sir, I'm sure."

He went on to say how He wanted to get them for me, but that finances are tight and what not. And I understand. I really do, especially since we are paying rent this week. So yeah. I can't say I wasn't disappointed, because I was. But it's just body jewelry. It can wait. I would rather make sure we have enough money to get through the week than get something I want just because I want it. Needs come first, not wants. Plus He already bought me that lingerie. So it's not like He didn't get me anything at all, and it's not like I'm a materialistic person, because I'm really not.

But it's not often that I get really excited about something for me. Don't get me wrong, Master wants me to have new body jewelry for my nipples as well. But like I said it's not often when I get excited about something for me. I normally get more excited about something for Him, rather than myself. So yes, I was a bit disappointed, but it was not rational to go ahead and do it and possibly not have enough money for the week.

But maybe next weekend we can get them. That would be nice. If not next weekend, some other time. I'll get them sooner or later, I'm sure of that. And it figures that I'm so excited over something to do with body modification. It's a passion of mine. Something I've been obsessed with since I was 18. So damn near 10 years now.

Okay, I was obsessed with it before that. But I couldn't get tattoos before 18 and the only thing I had pierced before the age of 18 was my belly button and that's only because I had bugged the hell out of my mom and dad to allow me to get something done. And that's the only thing they would agree to. (I had been begging for my eyebrow to be pierced. But I figured something was better than nothing.)

So, a small delay. No big deal. Like I said, I'll get them eventually.

Dreaming

I don't put a lot of stock in dreams, unless they don't feel like dreams. Some people will know what I'm talking about when I say that, and some won't.

I don't dream very often. Or at least, if I do I don't remember much about them. The past two nights I've had dreams, and I remember bits and pieces of each. I know that's normal for a lot of people, but for me it's really rare. And these are just dreams, they don't feel like anything else. There was no profound meaning to them. Just dreams.

Two nights ago I had a dream where I was running in a forest, and it was extremely dark out. Darker than night. No moonlight, no stars. Just darkness. I remember thinking I was going to run into something, but I never did. Apparently I'm less of a klutz in my dreams. But it seemed so freeing at the time. Just me and the forest.

But it wasn't just me and the forest. After a while I came to a clearing and Master was there. He was sitting on a rock and asked me what had taken me so long. He smirked and then took off running, out of the clearing and back into the trees. I laughed and chased after Him. Apparently we had been racing this entire time. At least that's what I'm getting from it.

That's all I remember from that one.

Then last night I had one of those dreams that seem like an acid trip gone wrong once you're awake and lucid. But in the dream, while you're having it, it all seems perfectly normal. Never mind people are odd colors, never mind that the sky is purple and all anyone is speaking is gibberish and yet you can understand them all perfectly.

It's fucked up. And when I woke up this morning I was confused for some reason. Like hey, why is everything back to normal? Oh yeah. Cause I'm awake. Duh.

Then again the alarm clock kind of startled me awake. There was no gentle rolling over and turning off the alarm clock. Oh no. I bolted awake, looked around me, and then realized that it was the damn alarm clock.

I hate mornings like that.

New Jewelry Soon!

So as I said in my last post Master said I could price out the new body jewelry I wanted. So today on my lunch break I called the tattoo parlor I got my piercings done at. Unfortunately they didn't answer on the first call. Or the second. Or the third. But lucky number four did the trick! Finally they picked up.

I asked if they sold circular/horseshoe barbells. They do! Yay! And then I asked if they come in different colors. He said that they do, but that if I wanted anything besides silver they would have to order it in for me. I said no, that was okay. I like the silver ones anyway. They match my collar, my cuff, and my wedding ring. (Although my wedding ring is titanium.. but still.. it's shiny.) And on top of that it means that I don't have to buy new jewelry for my VCH piercing. Yay for saving money!

So I asked for the prices, and made sure that the price was for the implant grade jewelry. And it was. Honestly it's not that expensive. So I made sure to tell Master as soon as I found out. He said that we can probably do it this weekend. I kinda sorta, not so subtly hinted that we could technically do it tomorrow, since they don't close until 8pm. He said He would think about it. So that's where I'm leaving it. I know better than to push my luck. If I attempted to do so He probably would tell me I had to wait longer because I kept bugging Him about it.

I am very excited about it though. I had asked Master if He was getting bored with the straight barbells I have in my nipples right now. He said that no, He wasn't getting bored with them, but that it'll be nice for me to be able to change them out every now and then. Then He mentioned that the horseshoe ones will be more fun to flick around with His tongue. He said that via text message, and as soon as I read that I swear my pussy clenched at the thought. Which is another reason I'm very excited about it.

I have also been thinking about piercings in general. Although I have no idea, if Master allowed it, what else I would get done. Master has said no to the septum piercing. I can't have any other facial piercings due to my job (I technically couldn't have the septum one either.. but those can be easier to hide.)

I don't know if I'd want my inner or outer labia pierced. I personally think the inner labia looks better. But those are also easier to "catch" on, which would be extremely painful. Plus I don't know if Master would like it.

He is more into tattoos than piercings. Although He really likes the three I have. I'm probably safest just sticking with those and building up a body jewelry collection so I can keep different kinds around and switch them out to make things a bit more interesting.

Docile Kitten

Last night Master and I watched more of that porno we had bought a couple of nights ago. (By the way, why do they put so much on one porn DVD? Seriously. No one gets through the whole thing in one sitting.)

He played with my tits for a while, and was actually pretty rough with them. More so that He has been lately. That of course got me going, and so I flipped over and put His dick in my mouth. I mean really, what other reaction would be expected in that situation? *laughs*

He ended up fucking my mouth, more than me sucking His dick. But hey, either way works. He was talking dirty almost the entire time. I was honestly pretty damn sure He was going to cum a few times, but just when I thought it was going to happen His will power kicked into over drive and He stopped it from happening.

So eventually after quite a while of this Master pulled my head off His cock and ordered me to the bedroom.

We played with one another a while longer and He had me be on top. Regardless whether He's on top, or I am, He's always in control. All He has to do is force me to be still, or grab my hips and pull me by them the way He wants.. etc.

It's great.

After He filled me, we got cleaned up and went back into the living room. I was already up past my bedtime and so Master allowed me to have half a cigarette and then I had to go to sleep. But He was nice and allowed me to sleep on the couch until He went to bed.

Today I have been feeling extremely docile. Still playful and happy, but docile.

We've had a relaxing evening at home. And after a very long day at work, it is really nice to be able to sit at home with my Master and just relax.

Master has been asking me what I want for Christmas for a while. And at first I told Him I just wanted leather gloves. But He basically said that was a cop out. And it was, cause I couldn't think of anything I wanted. But then I was in the bathroom, getting ready to hop into the bath and of course I saw my nipple piercings in the mirror. And then it hit me. I want new body jewelry!

The only problem is I don't want to get something too different as far as coloration goes because I want it to match my VCH piercing as well. Yes, I know. I'm weird. I want my body jewelry to match. So sue me.

I told Master about this and He seemed happy with my choice. He said I could price them out and get what I wanted. He also said that if the prices weren't too bad I could get a new curved barbell for my VCH as well, so that they'll all match color wise. Although I have decided I want circular barbells for my nipples. I don't want the straight barbells again. They look nice and everything, but I want something a little different. And I don't want the straight out hoops. So circular barbells it is!

I'm going to call the place I got the piercings done at originally and see what kind of prices they offer, and see if they have any that circular barbells that will match a curved barbell. That way I get as much information as possible before we make the drive out there. I'd hate to get out there and not be able to find something I want. That would suck. The reason why I want to go back there is because the shop is clean, and the people who work there are awesome. I don't just want to go to like Hot Topic or anything. You never know how good the quality is of the body jewelry. I mean yes, it says it on there.. but nine times out of ten the person selling it to you doesn't have a fucking clue.

And due to my nickel allergy, I don't wanna fuck around. I would hate to get an infection or something or have my body start to reject the piercings after all this time.

Experimentation

Last night Master wanted me to get dressed up for Him. I wanted to wear my newest outfit that He bought for me when we went to the porn store on Christmas. But I couldn't wear it because I'm on the rag, and didn't want to ruin a brand new outfit. So yeah. I get to wait until that's done before I get to wear it. *sad face*

So I put on a mesh body suit instead. We sat on the couch together and watched the new porno we bought. I was teasing Him through out the portions that we watched, stroking Him, sucking His cock for a while, and then going back to stroking Him. It was a lot of fun and He seemed to greatly enjoy it.

So while watching a porno we normally do one of two things besides molest each other before we go fuck. One is that we make fun of the porno. That's just a given. The second one is that we talk about things we might want to try in the bedroom.

So while we were talking about certain things, the topic of us looking for playmates came up. And we might be having a meeting with one this upcoming Saturday. We had already purchased condoms just to be on the safe side, as we had previously met this person and it seems like that's where things might be leading to. It's been almost 8 years since Master and I used one together. To be perfectly honest, we only used one together once. That was the first night we fucked. After that, we just went skin to skin. I was on birth control, as I hadn't gotten fixed yet, and we knew we were both clean. So there ya go.

And we had never used this brand of condoms before. And we were both kind of curious as to how it felt. It is supposed to be the "thinnest condom that is still safe" available and is supposed to feel just as good as skin on skin contact. Well we already knew that was a lie, because that's impossible. But we decided to test the condom out anyway.

So we go in the bedroom, and bring a condom back. He put it on after we fooled around a bit and we fucked. I immediately noticed how... disconnected it felt. Master and I have this weird thing going on during sex where we connect on several different levels and kind of loop the energy between us over and over again. It's extremely intense.

And you would think we could do that regardless. But with just that "thin" condom on, everything felt off. I still got off while He was wearing it, but it wasn't the normal mind blowing orgasms, because that connection between us was missing.

And I noticed He wasn't making a lot of noise either. Obviously the sensations aren't as pleasurable with a condom on, so I understood.. but that just made the disconnection that much more obvious, when I was already feeling it.

So about half way through the fuck session, I asked Master if He wanted to take the condom off, and He said yes. So He took it off, put it on the head board and we continued. Everything felt better, but the disconnection was still there. He got off, and I got off, but afterward it was just a bit... awkward.

We talked about it after, and He felt the same way I did. The disconnection was the worst part of the experience. Especially when you are use to things being a certain way for so many years. I mean we keep our sex life interesting, but when you've been with someone for so long, you get use to a few things, and you love it. At least if your sex life is healthy and so is your marriage/relationship.

We're never doing that again. Well, obviously aside from if/when we have playmates.

I've read about couples who do role-playing and use condoms to "spice things up". Like for example my fantasy role-play where I walk into a bar, order a drink and then Master walks in and starts chatting me up and then convinces me to come back to His place (or a hotel if we can afford it) and we fuck. I know of some couples who if they played that out, they would use condoms to be more "fully in the role" so to speak. Yeah. We're never doing that.

The experiment failed horribly. But hey, sometimes when you try things out things don't go the way you hoped they would. This is one of those times. No big deal. It doesn't mean we won't continue to push the boundaries of our sex life and try and continue to find new things that excite both of us. Because I know we'll always do that. But I'm glad we already have this experiment out of the way, and now know that it didn't do anything for either of us. In fact, it took quite a bit away.

So back to the drawing board!

Christmas Day

So today we had to get up earlier than yesterday, as we had to go to my mother's house and then my dad's. So we got up, got ready, made sure we had all the presents, and then headed out.

We went to my mom's first. My brother was there as well. And of course my mother's husband couldn't stop asking questions about this, that and the other thing. Whenever we see him it's like playing "Who Wants to be a Millionaire" without prize money at the end.

My mother seemed extremely cranky. I know she's stressed out right now, but it was like she was just in a seriously bad mood and didn't want anyone else having a good time either. Which is normally not like my mother at all. So who knows. We spent about 2 1/2 hours there and then went to my dad's. My brother followed us out there.

We were worried about having to spend time with my dad's girlfriend because no one likes her. And today was a good example as to why that is. We got there and had just taken off our coats and sat down after the hellos and what not. I gave my dad his gift, and his girlfriend her gift. Dad loved it. It was a Christmas tin with butterscotch candies inside, which are his favorite. So anyway, we haven't even been there for 20 minutes yet and my dad's girlfriend is on the phone with one of her daughters. While she was on the phone with her kid she decided she wanted to leave, go pick her daughter up, and go to her sister's house. Fine. Leave. Please!

But this is the part where it makes it pretty clear why we all hate her. Like I said, we hadn't even been there for a full half hour yet and she had made these plans out of the blue. Now please keep in mind that on Wednesday night I told my dad that we would be there between 3:30 and 4:30pm. We showed up at 4pm. So we were within that window. So this bitch of a girlfriend looks at my dad and says, "Are you coming with?" And my dad looks at her, and the three of us (my Husband, my brother, and myself) are looking at her like she has lost her mother fucking mind. We just got there, and it's a 45 minute drive from our place and she wants to drag my dad off? Fuck you bitch.

So my dad said, "No. The kids just got here. I'm not leaving." She moped and pouted, and took her sweet time getting ready. And right before she left she looked at my dad and said, "Are you sure?" And by this point my dad is angry with her, I could tell. And he says, "Yeah, I'm sure. I want to spend time with my kids." So she left.

We had the rest of the two hours we spent with my father in peace and we were all joking around and had a great time.

Master had told me right before we left that He wanted me to drive because His knee was acting up. No biggie there. So we get in the car and the snow is coming down hard. I couldn't see very well, and I have just recently realized that I should to wear my glasses when driving at night. And of course I left my glasses at home. But I kept going. I could see fine, but the visibility sucked due to the snow that was coming down. So I was doing maybe 30mph in a 55mph zone. And eventually, as we kept heading north, the snow got worse, and worse, and worse. Master had told me when we first started out that if I couldn't handle it, just to tell Him and He would drive.

So I'm trying to do my best cause I know His knee is bothering Him, but I also don't want to put either of us in danger. I'm a good driver, but I also know when I can't handle something. And I'm not too proud to admit that. So eventually I told Master, "Maybe You should drive." He nodded, and walked me through pulling over safely because I couldn't really tell where the median edge was. He got out of the car, I scooted over, He got in the driver's seat and we proceeded.

It got better the closer we got to home. But I'm so glad I asked Master to drive. I trust Him with my life, and I immediately relaxed once He took over.

So we got home just long enough to bring stuff inside, feed the dog, and headed back out. We didn't have many groceries at home and felt more like going out to eat anyway. So we used some of our Christmas present money that we got to go out to dinner. After dinner we decided to go to the porn store. Yay! Porn Store Christmas!

So we go in and have a look around. When we left I had a new outfit, a new pair of thigh high stockings, and we had a new porno.

Now we're home, finally, and are relaxing. Thankfully the holidays are over.

Christmas Eve

Today is Christmas Eve, obviously. So today is the day with Master's family. We didn't go to bed until almost 4 in the morning. So we made sure to set an alarm for noon to make sure we'd be up in time to go down to His mother's.

I decided to wear one of the shirts His mom got me, because I figured that would make her happy. I actually really like the top, which I am honestly surprised about. Not because of the cut of it or anything, but because it's white. And I normally do not like wearing white. But I love this shirt. It's a bit tailored, which I like. I didn't wear heels like I wanted to though because we were going down there early to help my mother-in-law's husband cover the boat. So I had to wear sensible shoes. Heels are not sensible.

So we get down there and we say hi to everyone, and then head out to the boat. I helped with the plastic sheeting and to put the canvas cover on it. I wasn't doing as much as the men were, but I like to think I helped.

We then went back to their place and had dinner. The dinner was great. Master and I were both a little worried that His mom would over glaze the ham, but she didn't. After that we sat around and talked for a little while, before having pie and then opening presents. We had gotten His mom and her husband a holiday canister filled with candy. His mom's has butterscotch candies in it and her husband's has mint chocolates in it. They both seemed very happy about it.

We got gift cards, which was awesome. I honestly wasn't expecting anything because they had already gotten me clothes.

After the gifts were done we all did pictures. There are some really nice ones of me and Master together, sitting on the floor, in front of a mock fireplace. They turned out great. Master of course had to take like three pictures of me just sitting in the recliner.. *giggles*

Master and I don't have a lot of pictures of us together. Mainly because Master is always behind the camera. So about the only time we get ones of us together is on holidays where other people will grab Master's camera and tell us to pose together.

I've tried to convince Master that we should go get professional pictures of us done. Just us as a married couple, none of us separate. I haven't been able to convince Him yet. But I'm hoping to for our upcoming anniversary, as it will mark 8 years together, 4 of which we've been married. And the number 4 holds deep meaning to the both of us. *crosses fingers*

Plus then we can use those as Christmas gifts later in the year, like we did for Christmas the year we were married. Everyone got a picture of us on our wedding day in a nice frame. And both of our families loved it. I just really enjoy pictures of us together, because I want to be able to look at them as the years go by and see us together throughout the years.

Shortly after we were done and we had finished taking pictures and talking a while longer, Master and I headed home. We have been paying attention to Radar, our pup, and just enjoying the down time. Master wants me to dress up for Him later. And He actually plans on using some of the gift card He got tonight to buy me lingerie. Which is kind of funny given who the gift card is from.. But ya know, it works.