I Started Off In a Good Mood Today

Truly, I did. I woke up and was in a good mood. It was pay day. It was my half day. So yeah, I was in a pretty good mood.

I went to work, got out at noon. The bus was on time. I got home at a decent time because the bus didn't have to stop every damn two blocks. The day was going well.

That is until about oh.. say 3pm or so. Master had been on a job site and it was raining on His drive back to the shop. Well, He was driving a work truck that had a trailer attached to it with very heavy equipment on it. During the drive home He noticed that the truck was taking a bit longer to stop fully then usual. So He slowed down a bit and what not, trying to take extra precautions and what not.

Well He called me and the first words out of His mouth were, "I'm fine." This sends all sorts of bells and whistles off in my head, because when He starts a conversation off that way I know without a shadow of doubt that something bad just happened.

And I was right.

He had been taking a gradual turn onto the road He needed to take, and as He was turning the wheel, the truck kept going straight. So He hit the brakes a bit more and the truck kept going. The brakes weren't stopping the truck, and the truck wasn't turning.

Apparently the brakes had given and later Master found out that the tires on the work truck are bald. Joy. Really fucking safe work truck, assholes. And because of the heavy equipment in the trailer He was pulling, that just seemed to be pushing the truck as well. So Master ended up in a ditch and hit a road sign. Well, actually the truck broke the road sign in half.

Thankfully Master is fine. But I'm sitting there going, "What the FUCK?! Why are they having You drive a truck with bad brakes and bald tires?!"

So then He has to sit there and wait for His supervisor to come down, a tow truck to show up, and of course the cops.

Master got a $200 ticket for failure to maintain control of a vehicle. Thanks. We really fucking needed that, especially after that bullshit that happened on Monday. And the cop told Him that she wasn't sure if the bill for the road sign was going to go to His job, or to Him. I told Him if it comes to Him He's taking it into work. No way in hell He should have to pay for that.

So after all that He got home around 6pm. We relaxed for a little while and then went out to dinner like we always do on Fridays. Well Master never wears a seat belt, and because of all the street lights that were on, He didn't realize that He hadn't fully clicked the headlights of our car on. Honest mistake. I didn't even notice the headlights weren't on.

So we got pulled over because the resturant that we go to is on a bar strip, and there were four cop cars just parked along the side of the road waiting for an excuse to pull someone over.

The cop said, "I pulled you over because you don't have any headlights on." The cop asked Master if He had been drinking, which no.. we had not been drinking. So the cop runs Master's license. Everything came back fine. The cop was really cool about it and said to just make sure our headlights were fully on and told Master to put His seatbelt on. No ticket, thankfully.

So yeah. One hell of a day.

But thankfully Master is fine. Today could have been a lot worse.

My Brain Hates Me

Last night Master and I cuddled a little bit before we curled up and went to sleep, which was really nice.

However, this morning when my alarm went off, and I sluggishly turned it off my brain told me that today was Friday. In fact I continued to think that as I went out into the living room to start getting ready for work. I was just about to look at Master and say, "Man I'm glad it's Friday.." when suddenly my brain admitted that it had been lying to me and I realized it was actually Thursday.

Blah.

But now Thursday is over and tomorrow really is Friday. This means that it is payday (yay!) and my half day. Master unfortunatley has to start at 7:30am but maybe that'll mean He gets out at a decent time as well. We can hope.

I had to get a ride home from B today because Master was late getting out ot work. But He was home before I was and had already started cooking dinner, which was nice. I had to run out and grab soda though because neither of us had realized we were out. We can't live without caffiene damnit.

Okay, we can, but it's not plesant. *giggles*

We ate dinner (yummy steak) and watched America's Got Talent, That's Impossible, and Mindfreak. Interesting line up, yes?

I've also noticed that thanks to my job of data entry my typing has gotten a lot faster and more accurate, which rocks. I wasn't a slouch before this job. My typing speed was at 65 wpm. Now? I don't know. I haven't been tested again, but it would be interesting to find out, I think.

Today, while I was away from my desk at work, Master had called to let me know that He wouldn't be able to pick me up from work. We have this running joke from when I was a waitress where He had come in to eat while I was working, and He had jokingly asked for my phone number. So I wrote it down from Him. Now we keep talking about how He "cheated" on me with that whore from the resturant. *smirks*

Well anyway, on my voicemail at work I have to put say certain things because of my line of work.. and Master made mention of it in the message He left me. He said, "No, I'm don't have (insert job specific thing here), I'm just calling to talk to this hottie that works there."

So now He's cheating on me with that whore from the resturant and someone from my current job. That bastard. ;-)

I do have to say that after I listened to that voicemail message I had a smile on my lips the rest of the afternoon.

Sigh

Today work was pretty slow. Actually it was slower then usual. And of course since it was so slow, that means that the entire day dragged. Master's day unfortunatley was no better at His job.

In fact it was worse. He found out that He has to work Sunday. Boo!

He picked me up from work and when we got home, I took care of the dog and we had pizza for dinner. Master's knee is really bothering Him so we figured something quick and easy for dinner would be best.

We watched a movie, "The Unborn". It was interesting. It wasn't the best movie ever, but it wasn't that bad. Now Master is watching some show called, "That's Impossible". It's a bit to technical for my tastes tonight. So I'm just dicking around online.

My lower back is bothering me. Nothing really new there, but it's worse then usual.

I don't have a lot to say tonight. My mind is somewhat sluggish today. I basically wasn't even fully awake, even though I was at work, until about 1pm. Now? I feel like I'm winding down once more. I hate days like this.

This weekend Master wants to go out and get a couple of drinks on Friday, and then on Saturday we are probably having dinner with a couple of friends. Master would now prefer to switch the dinner to Friday as well, but I don't know if that is going to be possible. Mainly because it is B and his girlfriend and they are so involved in their own little things that trying to schedule something with them can be damn near impossible sometimes. But I'll ask B in the morning if it is.

Little of This and That

Okay first, thank you all who commented on my previous post. We won't be pursuing the matter. Yes, we could ask for the money back... I guarantee you he won't just hand it over. Second, lemon laws in Wisconsin are for newer cars from a dealership, not an individual.. so taking him to court will amount to nothing.

Enough on that front.

Last night Master went to bed around 9:30pm. I went to bed somewhere around 10:15pm or so. I don't really remember the exact time. This morning Master was still in a foul mood. He had asked me to give Him a wide birth for a good 24 hours. And so I pretty much left Him alone. He went to work and I went to my job.

My coworker asked me how yesterday went, because she knew why I had asked to go home early. So I told her everything and she asked me one of the most shocking questions. She asked me if I was going to leave Master over this.

I sat there dumbfounded for a moment. Then finally I asked, "Why would I do that?"

She said, "Well because of how he reacted."

I shook my head. I told her that I know Master can have a temper to Him, I've known that since we started dating. I also usually know how to react to such things. I'm not about to leave my Husband, who I've been with for damn near 6 1/2 years over something like this. It's not like He got pissed off and decided to kick my ass around the apartment.

He was pissed off. He told me He was pissed off, and that He wanted to be left alone so He didn't bite my head off over something stupid. I give Him a lot of credit for that. Telling me to leave Him alone and why, I mean. There was a time where He didn't communicate such things. Just like I didn't communicate it when something was bothering me.

On and off at work today I felt like crying because I was frustrated with the situation.

Master was tired and sore when He got out of work, so I took the bus home. When I got home I did the dishes and Master cooked. He gave me a hug and we have been talking. We're fine. He's not fully cooled off yet, but I didn't expect Him to be. The whole situation sucks. But we really are fine.

Master did a post today and mentioned how I never beg for anal sex and how I'm not looking for a female to play with.

Well the anal sex thing I can explain rather easily. I never know how well my body is going to take it. I may be ready for it but my body isn't. And so I get nervous because I'm afraid that if we try it, then it'll end up with us having to stop because my body says no. And that disappoints both of us.

But if I keep doing that... pushing it off and being so damn nervous... we're never going to get past it. So I'll have to work on that.

As far as the female thing goes. It's difficult to find a female who is willing to play, but not want a relationship, that will also "allow" my Husband to watch. Not ineteract. Just watch.

I used to look rather frequently, online I mean. Going to a gay bar and walking up to a chick and going, "Do you want to fuck me in front of my Husband?" just sounds like a good way to get a drink poured on you, or bitch slapped. Ya know?

When I would look online the chick was either A) Looking for a relationship, B) Wanted their boyfriend of husband to physically join in, C) Found me attractive but didn't want Master anywhere around, or D) I was not even remotely attracted to.

I suppose I could try again. There really is no harm in trying.

So... any attractive females want to come over and play with me while Master watches?

Crash and Burn

Well as I said last night I was browsing cars online that were local. Master saw one that was within our price range and told me to call them today. I continuously called and no one answered or responded to my voice mails.

Well around noon Master calls me and tells me He is getting out of work at 2:30pm. He then tells me I should see if I should get out of work as well, so we can go to the bank, close out the savings account and then see about that vehicle He had been talking about.

So I do that. And I take the bus home. I try again to get a hold of the person who had put up the ad. No answer. No call backs. So I started browsing other ads and we came across one that was for $600 for an old truck. They said the body was rusty as hell but that mechanically it was fine.

So we call. They said they were home. We went out to look at it.

Master and I got in the truck. Yes, it was very, very rusty. But hey we only needed it for Him to get back and forth to work, so what do we care what it looks like. I sit in the truck while Master drives it around a bit. It felt fine. He didn't seem to have any problems with it. We park it and I look under the hood. Now granted I'm not a mechanic but I didn't see anything loose, and the engine wasn't rusty. And as I said it seemed to drive just fine. The owner tells us that he just got done driving it to and from Illinois. So I figure, hell it should be fine getting home.

Yeah. Apparently I'm a fucking moron. We hand the guy $500 and we get the title. No bill of sale. That should have been my first clue.

But I was excited that my Master was going to have a vehicle again and that the stresses of getting me and Him back and forth to work were going to be easier. Master seemed excited too.

So I drive my car behind Him. Seemingly no problems for most of the way home. About half way home Master calls my cell and He tells me that the steering is really loose and that she shakes hard when she brakes. I honestly couldn't see any physical shaking. Then He broke hard due to a sudden red light and I shit you not that truck flew into the next lane because of the loose steering.

Master pulls over once. I pull up behind Him. I wasn't sure what was wrong. He stopped for a few minutes and then pulled back into traffic. We get another mile or two and He pulls over again. He can't turn her over. She won't start.

He starts punching the roof of the truck and gets out of it eventually. He comes and tells me that when he gave her a little bit of gas, that she had choked out and died, which is why he had pulled over and now she wouldn't start.

He also told me that the trucks gas gauge didn't seem to work. Yeah. Nothing mechanically wrong with that POS.

He was/is livid.

He tells me to hand Him the title. I do that. He then tosses it into the truck, leaves the keys, and tells me to get out of the car I'm in. I do.

He gets in, I get in on the passenger side, and we head for home. His knee is hurting Him because of how the brakes and gas was.

Neither of us noticed any of this when He was driving it before we paid for it.

Then again we didn't drive it all that far.

So months of saving up is gone. Master is the most pissed off at me that He's ever been in our entire relationship.

This was my idea. I said it seemed like a sturdy truck before we bought it. I know He doesn't know anything about vehicles. And now, we're out of $500.

I don't know whether to scream or cry, or do both.

I can't look at Him for an extended period of time.

I feel like I've put a crack in our relationship. It may not sound like a lot of money, but that $500 took us quite a bit of time to save up, and it's gone. Not only did it take us quite a bit of time to get that saved up, but we were tight even doing that. We're not going to be able to afford another car by the time my job moves.

I don't know what to do. I don't know what to say. I feel like utter shit. I've seen Him this angry before, but never at me.

He said He takes partial blame for this. He got caught up in the excitement too. But, it was my idea. I said it would be okay. I'm supposed to know more about cars/trucks than Him.

So yeah. I can't seem to really think straight right now.

Part of me wants to break down. The other part of me wants to get pissed off. Neither side is winning. I think it's at a stale mate right now so I don't do anything stupid.

And So The Hunt Begins...

*plays dramatic music*

The hunt begins for another car. Nothing luxurious, by any strech of the imagination. Why? Because quite frankly we can't afford much. We're basically looking for a car that will get Master from point A to point B and that's it. We can't afford a car loan, so that's out. We have some money saved up for another car, but not a lot. We have until the end of November until my job moves, but I'd personally rather not wait until the last minute.

And so today I hopped online and started looking at local listings. I may have found something that we can actually buy right now... but first I have to call the owner, ask some important questions, and then we'd have to look at it, Master would have to test drive it, and then we'd think about buying it.

This process is something I haven't done in a while. The last three cars Master and I have had came off of car lots. That process is a bit easier. But we're not going to find a car on a lot for the price we're willing/able to spend at the moment. So it's back to the classifieds. I remember this process. It's a bit of a pain in the ass, which is why I'm starting it now. November sounds like it's a ways off, but it's really not. Before you know it, it'll be 2010. Hell I just got my renewal notice in the mail for my plates. Another $75 the state wants to rape out of me. Bastards.

But I'm also slightly excited about car shopping. I love cars. I really, really do. It's my father's fault. So I like looking, and trying to find a great deal, ya know?

Thankfully Master is very realistic when it comes to cars. Does it run? Is it an automatic? Is it gonna last more than 6 months? Awesome. *giggles*

I'm thinking what we should do is buy a car we can afford for now, and then keep saving up a little here and a little there so we have a "repairs" fund if we need it and/or keep saving up for a better vehicle.

But enough about cars.

Master and I had a good day today. We fucked again last night. Today we were productive and went grocery shopping.

Other than that we've been lazing about and enjoying our time together. Master has to be to work by 6:30am and I have to get a bit earlier than normal because B needs to get to work early. That won't be something I miss... running on everyone else's schedule when it comes to my job.

Disjointed Saturday

Last night Master and I curled up in bed and He did something that He hasn't done in a very long time. Back when we weren't living together sometimes Master would have me lay on my back and then He would put His head on my chest and I would wrap my arms around Him and we would just lay like that, and sometimes even fall asleep. I love doing that. He did that last night, only we didn't fall asleep. But I cherished that moment for as long as it lasted.

This morning we got up and went into the living room. Once Master was a bit more awake I had knelt at His feet and sucked His dick for a little while before asking if He would play with me. He shrugged, said sure.. and then told me to go into the bedroom. We had amazing sex.

We were supposed to go over to L and M's house but at first we couldn't get a hold of them to see what time. Then M wasn't home and L didn't know what the hell was going on.

So instead of waiting around, and because Master was restless, we headed out and tried a new resturant. Well, it's been in town for a while but we had never been to it. It was okay. I mean the food was decent, and the service was good. But I don't think I'd go there very often.

Then we drove around for a little bit and stopped at a small store just to kind of laugh at what was inside of it. We drove around a bit more and then went home.

M eventually called us back and said that L was in a bad mood, so they cancelled on us. My dad was supposed to come up tomorrow but that was also cancelled.

Master, as I said, was restless today but He wasn't sure what He wanted to do. So He kept asking me what I wanted to do. I had no idea either. I would throw out some suggestions but nothing really caught His fancy. So we've stayed home since then. We did watch a movie and I've enjoyed our day for the most part. I don't think Master did though, because He was so restless and not sure what He wanted to do.

He gets like this sometimes. He feels pent up but doesn't seem to really know what He wants to do, and nothing I toss out seems to sound like any fun to Him. *shrugs* I get like that to sometimes.

It drives me a little nuts admittedly. But it's like we don't have a lot of money, and everything costs money. On top of that everyone was busy or was canceling on us.

It's weird isn't it? You go through the work week and you can't wait until the weekend hits... then the weekend gets here and you're like, "Great. Now what do I do with myself?"

Me? I was mostly content just relaxing at home today. It's one of the few times where our moods didn't mesh as far as what we did or didn't want to do.

Hopefully tomorrow will be better.